Chapter Five Are You Happy Now?
It wasn't a horrible date, Adrienne was just too distracted to enjoy herself. The words that Ned had told her kept buzzing around in her mind. It made her heart ache. She was worried what Seth saw when he looked at her.
Now don't just walk away, pretending everything's okay. And you don't care about me. I know there's just no use when all your lies become your truth, and I don't care.
After dinner they walked through the park. Seth reached for Adrienne's hand, she ducked her head so he wouldn't see her cringe. He didn't seem to notice. "Beautiful night isn't it?" He didn't wait for her to answer.
You took all there was to take, and left me with an empty plate. And you don't care about it.
"Do you see that bluish-green star right there?" Adrienne nodded. "It's suppose to be Mercury. Every nine years it can be seen by the naked eye." Adrienne finally smiled, "How do you know that?" Seth chuckled, "It may not look it, but I like to study astronomy." "No way." "Yeah it's cool to know there's more out there than meets the eye."
I have given up this game, and left you with all the blame. Cause I just don't care.
The two of them went over to the playground, Seth offering Adrienne a swing. He pushed her high, and she giggled. It startled her at first, the sensation. She hadn't felt happy in so long. Three blocks away Ned Bigby was lying in bed, loathing himself. He felt like such an ass, trying to act like a macho jerk. He should've just told Adrienne how he felt the moment he saw her. Now he was all alone, because his mouth spoke before he could think.
Do you really have everything you want? You can never give something you ain't got. You can't run away from yourself.
Seth walked Adrienne home, embracing her on the porch. "I really don't want to go in," she said sinking into his warmth. Her parents had been on her case to start chemo again. Her dad was now silent and solemn, and her mother drowned out any other noise with her constant wailing.
Seth didn't know what exactly the problem in her life was, no one did, and Adrienne wanted to keep it that way as long as she could. "If you have any probs just call me okay?" She nodded, and he kissed her sweetly.
It should've been paradise, her first kiss, but she suddenly felt ill to the touch. Remembering her vow she made herself, that she would tell the one she longed for how much she loved him.
Would you look me in the eye? Could you look me in the eye? I've had all that I can take I'm not about to break cause I'm happy now……
Are you happy now?