Summary: Desire. A tale of love, deception and betrayal. Let the Mebony/Ramony battle begin.

Rating: NC-17

Disclaimer: I own nothing, the Tribe and the characters and the property of Cloud 9 and Mr. Thomas.

Chapter Three

I feel so unbelievably dirty, like I am some how soiled but letting a man that can never again have my respect of my heart do that to me and I know that I am.

Ram was always so afraid of germs but I never understood way, as I lye in this rancid bed it is as if I can feel his filth clawing all over me, inside me, damning me for all to see.

I squeeze my eyes shut as I know that it is not possible, it must just be my imagination, yes just my imagination.

Unknowingly I curl up into the foetal position and begin to rock back and force my brain repeating, "It ca not be real, it ca not be real, it ca not be real", however as I open my eyes I realise that it is.

I look at my arms to see if there is filth there like I suspect however there is nothing yet I look just a little longer and my mind congers a fungus. An insect. Something I know not what but it spreads across my arms and body, like a plague.

I scratch at my flesh in an effort to remove it but it does nothing accept make me bleed. Blood is good, I should bleed, and I should be punished for what I have done.

I hurry to the shower and let the scalding hot water burn me and mix with my blood hoping to get rid of this plague which consumes me but as wipe away the condensation from the glass shower wall I see my reflection, at least I think that it is me.

She is standing where I am and has my height and braids so this woman must be me however I do not recognise her.

This woman is gaunt and thin, she looking like she has not eaten in days and her body is covered in scratches and blood as tears run down her face.

I pity her, this is what becomes of a girl when all she had to love is a psycho, these are the actions of a girl who has had it beaten into her that having sex with anyone who you do not love is wrong and not loving Ram too is wrong. I wish I was dead as I realise that that girl, is me.

I turn off the water and get myself cleaned up. I hate myself for what I have become.

Everyone including me knows that Ram is evil; we always have done and always will do. At first his evil attracted me to him like a moth to a flame but I never realised just how truly evil he was.

Ram's hold on me became so tight that it strangled me of air as he used his mind tortures on me until this state – at night - became my normal. Yet, in the morning he would be sweetness itself making me believe that it was my own fault and that I drove him to it.

After a while it worked until I believed that I loved him and he did not hurt me until the day that I saw those dark eyes and Ram's spell was broken.

I ca not stand what I have become without him, what I have let myself become and as I bandage myself up and get back into bed I swear to myself that this shall never happen again and that I shall fight it to the last. Here end the story of abuse for Ebony Kingsley, or so I hope at least.

As my eyes close and I fall to sleep I dream that I am near Mega and suddenly everything is perfect. I could never have known that I was still bleeding as I went off into this dream.