That Boy

by: davh

...I can feel your pain.

The knocking at the door confused him for a second. The deep voice calling his name hesitantly mystified him.

Nobody knew he lived here. Nobody could have possibly had the skills to trace him to this building. He covered his tracks very carefully.

Nobody.

Nobody except him…

He shook his head clear of these thoughts, grabbed the gun that sat comfortably on his bedside table and moved towards the door warily.

Whoever it was, knew him. That made them dangerous. Very dangerous.

He raised the gun as he opened the door… very slowly…

Do you remember me?

Do you feel this connection between us?

Do you still feel weight of the world on your shoulders?

And dropped the gun.

"He…Heero?"

Are you here too?

Can you feel the beating of our hearts together as one?

Are you still in pain?

"Hello Duo."

Heero barged his way into the apartment without a spoken invitation. As if he owned the place. His face was an emotionless mask, no betrayal of his thoughts. No reasoning of why he was here.

As he stooped over to take off his shoes, he eyes lingered on the fallen gun and as he stood up to proceed to the living room, the gun rested unperturbedly in his hands.

"S… STOP!" Duo was thrown out of his stupor when Heero picked up the gun. His gun. "Why are you here? Why now? Hell… How did you even find me?"

He turned around, mid step from his mission. 'What was the mission?'

"Did they send you here to kill me? Is that it? It's the only reason you would come to see me. After all…" He couldn't, wouldn't finish the sentence. He didn't want to remember the feeling when Heero left him.

Yet… he couldn't help wondering…

Am I in heaven?

Have you come to lead me into paradise, angel?

The heated gaze that Heero gifted him with was a far cry from the old Heero. From that boy. It broke his heart when he knew he couldn't approach Heero, when he could only admire him from afar but it shattered his heart when Heero left him. Twice.

"Duo, I'm sorry."

Am I in hell?

Why is perfection marring her complexion in this fiery realm?

"What the hell are you sorry for? Apologising in advance for killing me? Too late, buddy. I'm already dead. You killed my soul a long time ago." There was no need to hold back now. He was going die physically any minute now anyway.

Emotionally he was already dead.

"I'm not here to kill you." Heero's gorgeous blue eyes softened. His eyes trained on the floor. "I'm here to…" He paused. Whatever he was going to say was lost when he raised his head and looked into Duo's swirling amethysts.

Why does this place feel so familiar?

Duo was confused. Again. "Here to do what then? Inflict as much pain as possible without killing me?"

Heero mumbled. But the words 'love you' was lost to the silence.

"You know what? It doesn't matter. I don't care anymore. Whatever you do, my care factor is ZERO. Get it?" With that said, Duo proceeded to walk out of his own apartment. Heero can do with it whatever he wanted. He'll just find another place to live. Another place to hide. To disappear. For good. Just like after the two weeks Duo waited dejectedly for Heero at their little corner of the city. And never showed up.

But his movements were hindered by two warm arms wrapped around his torso.

"What the?"

Why do I finally feel like I belong?

"Listen to me, please?" Heero's voice pleaded. Some part of Duo's now foggy brain registered that Heero Yuy doesn't plead, but he ignored it. It was much easier to sink into the warmth of the body holding him. Heero's gotten stronger too, that same foggy part of his brain told him, smugly.

"I'm so sorry. I went away for a two-week business trip that Quatre sent me on and when I come back, you were gone. I was so scared that I lost you again."

"You never lost me Heero." Although his body has lost its fight, his voice hasn't. "You walked out on me remember? I asked you to move in with me and you flat out said no and left. You didn't even leave me a contact number."

"I'm sorry." The apologies were beginning to take their toll. "I panicked. I didn't know what to do at that stage of our relationship. I left to organise my thoughts and when I came back with the decision that yes, I wanted you, wanted to wake up every morning with you as the first thing I see, you already left."

"I kept seeing you in that apartment. Seeing what we could've had, if you had said yes. If you had stayed. I couldn't stand it."

Heero laughed. It was rich melodious sound. "We just kept missing each other didn't we?"

"I missed your laugh." Duo sighed sadly to himself.

Heero didn't laugh often. Not the soft laugh he used to treat Duo when he was truly amused. But when he did, the only word to describe it was beautiful.

Maybe this is home.

Heero continued with his story. But this time with a soft smile. Duo still wanted him, or so he hoped.

"I couldn't believe it when I saw you on that street. You looked so lonely, heartbroken. And I knew deep down, it was my fault. Yet I couldn't bring myself to approach you. I thought I would just hurt you more. I kept my distance and watched over you, hoping you would eventually move on, because I'm not good enough for you, Duo. But when I came back after the business trip and noticed you left again… I realised I couldn't give you up. I still love you and I'm too selfish to let you go. I want to be the one to make you laugh, I want to be the one whose shoulders you cry on, I want to be the one to make you scream with ecstasy. That's why I'm here. I need to know, do you still love me?"

After searching for so long, I've at long last found what I've been missing. It's that boy. He came back to me. He completes me.

"Yes."

I'm not sure where we are. But I don't care. Maybe we are just two spirits destined to wander this meandering path, and maybe we will for the rest of eternity but I don't mind. Not anymore. The notion of lasting for eternity would have frightened me with its vastness, but not anymore. Not with Heero here.

"I love you, Heero. Don't ever leave me again. Please…"

"I wont, Duo. Never. I never stopped loving you and I'll love you til the end of forever. Hell, I'll keep loving you even after that."

His lips descended upon what he had once lost and has now regained. Renewing the passions of their love.

I laughed at the notion of us together forever, forever seemed so long to me before. But now, with you by my side, I know that forever will never be daunting. Forever will be comforting. Because, we have found each other, Duo.

This story ended with a kiss. A long searing kiss full of promises. And although there were many details to finalise, many issues to overcome, it was the beginnings of their trials and tribulations together.

Forever. Just you and me.

The End

End Notes: Firstly, thanks for those who read and reviewed, it did make me smile! I hope this last chapter answers some of the questions? By the way, the italics are first person and they are meant to have certain voices which I hope was understandable? Though some of the lines can be interchanged I guess. It's there because, one it kinda fit and also because I actually wrote this story just as a rant exercise last year, so it didn't have a plot, and thus my ending was this two voice conversation until I went back and tried to fix the loose ends with a plot (if you can call it that). Just a bit of random information for you.
Anyways, sorry for the long note, hope you enjoyed it and it's a happy ending, I like happy endings. Please review and thanks again for reading.