Charmed: Master of being lonely Child of wilderness

Born to emptiness

Chris lied in his bed, crying. He has just saw that dream again, where his mother died. Were his brother had gone mad, and where his father couldn't care less. God, Chris was 22 years old, and it still scared the hell out of him. Mostly because it all was true. His mother WAS dead, his brother WAS mad and his father couldn't care less. Or at least, he couldn't care less about Chris. Not in his own world, and not in here. He may have told Chris that he trusted him, but still... Wyatt was all he cared about, his oh, so perfect son...

Learn to be lonely

Learn to find your way on darkness

Wyatt... yes, no matter how hard Chris tried to deny it, Wyatt was the reason to all his tears. Because of Wyatt he had no one. No one who would smile at him, no one to hug him... No mum, no dad, no aunts, no cousins no grandpa, no Bianca. "Oh God, Bianca...!" New tears made their way to Chris's eyes. His one and only true love, Bianca had died, saving his life. Wyatt had killed him... "I'm so sorry, Bianca... I'm so sorry...!" Chris whispered through his sobs. Bianca was the only one who had truly cared about Chris for the last eight years. She had been there for Chris from the first day of the rebellion to the day she had died... His late beloved fiancé.

Who will be there for you Comfort and take care of you

Now Chris was alone. Alone to complete his mission to safe his big brother. And why? Cuz he loved him. Yes, Chris loved Wyatt. Before he had turned he was the BEST big brother anyone could ask for. And now he sent assassin after Chris. Oh yeah, life is a big ironic bitch. It was clear that Wyatt didn't want to give away his place as a ruler of the underworld, but it was also clear that if he truly wanted Chris dead, he would be that by now. And he wasn't. But he was alone. Not that it was anything new, though. Chris had been alone for a very long time.

Learn to be lonely

Learn to be your one companion

You would think that Chris's biggest dream was to bring his family back together, so he could have a good life when he went back. But no. Chris's biggest dream was to bring his back togeher for his mom. Piper may had been a great mum, but she was unhappy. She had missed Leo her hole life. And that was one of the reasons why Chris hated Leo so much. He had made his mum unhappy. Chris had never cared that anyone was never there for him when his family was going through difficult times. He wanted someone to be there for Piper. But now... no, he still didn't dare to dream that someone would come in and hold him tight. It could never happen...

Never dreamed, out in the world

There are arms to hold you

Even when Chris had fallen in love with Bianca, he had thought for a long time that no one could ever love him. But Bianca had, Bianca had loved him. And now she was gone, just like everyone else. And Chris's biggest fear had come true, he had no one. And before she had died she had turned to his brother's side. She had got his forgiveness... And that had hurt Chris like hell. Because he knew that no one got Wyatt's forgiveness back so easily, not after what they had done. He knew what Bianca had done. She had never said it, of course she hadn't, but Chris knew it. Even if he knew Bianca loved him, he knew now that Bianca never fully believed in their mission.

You've always known

Your heart was on it's own

But Chris did. He would safe Wyatt, no matter what. He just had to learn how to be happy again. That wouldn't be easy. But he had to, he couldn't let anyone see that he was as weak as anyone else. No. He would let everybody believe that he was strong and emotionless. That he couldn't care less about his own heart. Yes, that would be so much easier, just laugh trough difficult times. Just live in the world where everything was OK. And forget the world where it wasn't…

So laugh in your loneliness

Child of the wilderness

Learn to be lonely

Learn to love

Life that is lived alone

It was all going to be perfect. Life could kick Chris's ass for few more months, that wouldn't hurt. And then, it was all going to end. Chris would get a happy life. And if he wouldn't… well then, there are a lot of people who live alone, right? Why couldn't Chris be one of them? That couldn't be so hard if so many people did it. Chris wouldn't mind living alone… in the bitter world full of hate… Oh yeah, Chris didn't mind at all.

Learn to be lonely

Life can be lived

Life can be loved

Alone…

THE END

Learn to be Lonely, Beyonce (Phantom of the Opera)