Piper cried, she couldn't stop… even if she and Chris had had so little time to bond, that didn't mean that loosing him wouldn't hurt. Specially when she knew that she had spend months not trusting him, almost hating him and even saying that she never wanted to see him again… And now he was gone! Piper wanted to believe that her son was happy in the future that he himself had made, but the look on Leo's face told that it wasn't true. She was lying to herself by believing it. But it hurt SO DAMN hard to think that after all what Chris had done he had just… died… Died!
Nothing seems to be the way that it used to be
Everything seems shallow
But… there was the baby. The baby that right now looked at his mother with those beautiful green eyes that Piper had learned to love. He was Chris. Christopher Perry Halliwell. Piper took him into her arms. "Hey there, handsome. Hungry?" Baby Chris said nothing, he just took a hold of Piper's finger. Few tears dropped on Piper's cheeks. Just the thought that she would loose this Chris, too, made her so scared, so sad, so full of hate… She was not loosing her son again! She swore that this Chris was going to have a happy life with his family. His mom, brother, aunts and dad… Dad? Leo… As Piper thought about Leo, she had to admit that her sons may not grew up with their father. As much as she wanted Leo to be himself again, it seemed hopeless. He was even more lost than Piper…
God give me the truth, in me
And tell me somebody's watching over me
And Piper was very lost. She didn't know what to do or to think, all she knew was that she was angry. Oh yeah, very angry. She was angry with the Elders for letting her son die, she was angry with her sisters for falling to that stupid spell, she was angry with Wyatt for letting himself be in trouble (although she hated herself by thinking that), she was angry with Leo, for not doing everything he could to safe Chris, she was angry with herself for being so damn STUPID! Little Chris in her arms started to cry. It was as if he sensed all the anger and hate coming from Piper. "Hush, baby. It's okay, Mommy's here. Mommy's not going anywhere", Piper whispered. She heard the door opening. "Go away!" she said, thinking it was Phoebe or Paige. But it wasn't. She heard small steps behind her and turned around. Wyatt, who had no idea about her mother's anger, came in. He walked to Piper and looked at her, hurt. He was jealous to baby Chris. He got all the attention around this house these days. And as Piper looked at her firstborn, all her anger towards him melt. She kneeled down and pulled Wyatt into a hug. How could anyone want to turn him evil? Her babyboy, her beautiful babyboy…
And that is all I'm praying is that
Someday, I will understand
God's whole plan
and what He's done to me
As Piper pulled away she saw for the first time how much Wyatt reminded her about Leo. And now when she thought about it, Chris had looked a little bit like her… She smiled. She was sure that Chris had still loved his big bother, despite everything. No one would have done so much to save someone without love. Not even someone who had the whole world to safe, too…
Oh but maybe, someday I will breath
And I'll finally seeI'll see it all in my baby
And Leo… He loves his sons more than anything in the world, Piper knew that. That was the reason why Leo was so upset. Someone he had trusted had killed his son, and tried to kill the other one, too. That would make any father upset. But Leo wasn't just any father. Leo had powers and he wanted his revenge. He was hunting… that son of a bitch who helped Gideon to kill Chris was going to pay. Piper was starting to get worried. Leo had to slow down, Leo had to aloud himself to mourn. Or he would become like Piper when Prue died… And it was not good.
Don't you run too fast, my dear
Why don't you stop
Piper knew Leo was running away from the pain. He couldn't even hold the baby Chris in his arms. He was broken, Piper knew that. But for God's sake, didn't baby Chris deserve a happy life with his family! Didn't they both deserve to have a daddy? Didn't Piper deserve to have husband? Yes, they did and Leo knew it. So why didn't he calm down? The revenge would not bring Chris back, it would only make Leo hurt more. "We need you, Leo", Piper whispered. "I love you… Come home!"
Just stop and listen to your tears
They are all you've got
"Piper?" Piper didn't answer. Paige and Phoebe had already cried their tears. Not that they weren't sad… But they didn't understand, they never could. They didn't understand what it felt like, when you find out that the boy you've treated horribly was your own son. And that he was saving his family. Leo had been even more horrible to him than Piper. He held so much guilt inside him. Guilt for not being there for him, guilt for not trusting him, guilt for even what the other Leo had done. "Piper, are you here?" Phoebe looked into the dark room. "You hungry?" she asked. "No", Piper simply answered. Phoebe nodded. "We'll be downstairs." Piper didn't say anything, she just turned her attention back to her boys. "Don't worry. We'll get your father back." But Piper knew, she may not be able to keep that promise.
It's in you
You see,
Somebody's watching over you
And that is all I'm praying is that
Someday, you will understand
God's whole plan, and what He dose to you
Leo didn't see it… he didn't see that their Chris was fine, and that he was going to see how he would grow up to be that handsome man they loved. They would see him smile and laugh and play with his bigbrother, not worrying about what happened in a different lifetime. Because they would never know. Never.
Oh but baby, someday you will breath
And you finally see
You see it all in your baby
There was a black hole in Piper's heart. She wanted Leo there. She had finally realized, that it didn't matter how hard she tried to find a replacement, that hole would always belong to Leo. No one else. She loved Leo with all her heart, and she wanted him back. She wanted her husband! Her own Leo. The one that proposed to her in a bathroom, the one that fought as hard as he could against Dan to win Piper's love, the one that gave everything up for his family. That Leo was still down there, somewhere. Piper just had to find him.
No moment will be more true
Than the moment I look at you
Suddenly Wyatt looked up and pointed at the ceiling. "Dada", he said. Piper was surprised. Leo was in the attic? "Okay, its time to fix this family!"
It's in you
You see,
Somebody's watching over you
And that is all I'm praying is that
Someday, you will understand
God's whole plan and what he does to you
Oh but baby, someday you will breathe
And you'll finally see
You'll see it all in your baby…