DISCLAIMER: don't own AVATAR.

Lopchop: well, this is an angst story, isn't it?

Rioki Moondove: same as with lopchop. This is an angst story, so it's suppose 2 b depressing, or is that tragedy? O well, anyways, it's gonna b depressing 4 a few more chapters, than the happy, then a little more depressing, then back 2 the happy!

Sulana Jay: she's running from her suffering. (as stupid as it sounds) and, i do believe the gang will b coming back in2 the story, if ever so slightly.

Chapter time!

Chapter 7: Sanity

Zuko sighed. He hadn't found Kellie. He had walked all the way back to the Best Western, and locked himself in the room he and Kellie had rented.

Zuko turned on the TV, and saw an old commercial. Kellie's face was on the screen, as was some writing.

MISSING

Date of disappearance: August 23, 2008

If you have any idea or information as to this young girl's whereabouts, please call the following number

There were still people looking!

Rymeku walked into his great Uncle Iroh's private library. There were things he needed to research.

He picked up a scroll on his family tree, and began.

Mary sighed. Her husband was out, and there was nothing to good on TV. She thought of a song she liked, and began to sing it. In the name of her husband, Aaron.

Aaron sat back in his car as a couple of lyrics of a song floated into his mind.

Long lost words whisper slowly to me

Still can't find what keeps me here

When all this time I've been so hollow inside

I know you're still there

Aaron sighed. He remembered all those times when he had been feeling bad in his life, he said a few funny things to Kellie, and she would crack up laughing. When he had needed assistance in something, she would always help, even if she didn't' do it right.

Watching me wanting me I can feel you pull me down

Fearing you loving you

I won't let you pull me down

Aaron had known that girl had loved him, the way only a sister could, but he had tossed her away like a soda can.

Hunting you I can smell you-alive

Your heart pounding in my head

Watching me wanting me

I can feel you pull me down

Saving me

That girl's sadness was tearing him apart, but he didn't want it. He tried to shove away her lonely, sad, green eyes.

Crap…

Kellie was running, and she didn't know why. She didn't know where, but she wanted to run. Run away from all that she once had, but no longer did. She wanted to run, run away from it all, run until she couldn't anymore, till her legs refused to move, and the earth swallowed her, ending her pain and misery.

Kellie's eyes were closed, avoiding all the thorns and brambles that would tear her eyes.

Suddenly, her foot caught on a stone, and with a short scream, she fell to the earth, scraping her limbs, and face.

Unsteadily, and beginning to bleed, Kellie stood up to take in her surroundings. Suddenly, she realized she had run past the mountains, which marked the edge of the earth.

She was beyond the known world, and in her own.

The forest looked the same, but it felt different, calm, peaceful, perfect.

Up ahead, Kellie saw a run down cottage.

Shelter.

Kellie walked up to it to examine it. It was made of stone, it still had the roof, and looked like it could stand up to most weather. She walked inside, and saw an old bed, a rotting wooden table, and a very old, and used, stove.

Kellie took her sword of the scabbard, took her backpack off, and set it against the wall.

Home sweet home.

For a week, Kellie ate what Zula had given her, but after that, she began to live off her own body fat, seeing as there was no game to hunt. Not even an insect, no berries, nothing a human could eat.

And she wasn't resorting to grass.

One morning, about a week after Kellie ran out of food, she sat against the wall of her cottage, her pupils out of focus, her forehead covered in sweat with no source, staring at nothing, for her vision was failing her.

She took unsteady breaths, finally beginning to see the end of her life ahead of her.

One of Kellie's hands went up to grasp the wall and pull herself up, to once again try to look for food. But the wall was covered in moss, and her fingers slipped away. Her hands began to rake at anything, anything to help herself up, but everything evaded her groping hands.

Eventually, one of Kellie's hands raked across her cheek, cutting it immediately, and five lines of blood seeped from her new wound.

She started screaming, insanity claiming sanity, as lack of food dulled her senses, and her mind.

Then, an image creeped into her blank mind. It looked faintly like a cross.

Jesus.

Kellie calmed slightly, and began to pray.

Oh dear God,

Save me! I lie dying of insanity and hunger, my life is ruined, and I need to be saved, now more than ever. Save me God, save me! Don't let me die! Surely I still have some role to play in this life? Isn't it why you kept me alive, or let me live in the first place? Has my use ran out? God, save me!

Tears ran down Kellie's cheeks, and she screamed louder. The salt in her tears made the cuts on her cheeks burn with white-hot intensity. But she was too far from common sense to wipe away the tears.

I tried to kill the pain

But only brought more

I lay dying

And I'm pouring crimson, regret, and betrayal

I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming

Am I too lost to be saved

Am I too lost?

My God my tourniquet

Return me to salvation

My God my tourniquet

Return me to salvation

Do you remember me

Lost for so long

Will you be on the other side

Or will you forget me

I'm dying, praying, screaming, and bleeding

Am I too lost to be saved

Am I too lost?

My God my tourniquet

Return me to salvation

My God my tourniquet

Return me to salvation

My wounds cry for the grave

My soul cries for deliverance

Will I be denied Christ

Tourniquet

My suicide

Everything hurt so much. Breathing hurt, Kellie wanted to stop. To cease her life, and be at peace at long last. But her body refused it, it kept on taking in oxygen, kept her alive. Memories, now faint, of her brother, began to return, for the last time.

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

Because your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

Kellie just wanted everything to go away.

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all your tears

When you screamed I'd fight away all your fears

And I've held your hand through all these years

But you still have all of me

Kellie gritted her teeth. The memories of her brother stung too much.

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

But now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

Kellie screamed louder as her brother's voice echoed through her ears.

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all your tears

When you screamed I'd fight away all you fears

And I've held your hand through all these years

But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

And though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

Kellie finally let out one last despair filled scream, the memory of her brother, of what she once had, forever haunting her, but no one heard her wails, for she was truly alone.

Sanity gone, insanity won.

Kk, this is super sad. I'm sry this is so depressing, but this is an angst, but, have no fear, the happy is coming back! Sneak 2 make all sad pplz happy!

Aaron picked up the frail girl into his arms so gently. With a dazed look in her eyes, she looked up at her brother. She raised a feeble hand to touch his cheek, and Aaron sighed. This might be the last he ever might know of his sister.

"Aaron, my brother, thank you. And, good bye, I'll be looking for you in heaven." Her eyes closed, and Aaron felt the worst.

His sister was dead.

But he didn't notice the rising and falling of her chest.

K, that mite not b happy, but, least u kno wut's going 2 happen. The songs I used, in order, r called Haunted, Tourniquet, and My Immortal. All owned by Evannescence, and I giv creds 2 lopchop 4 reccomending these songs 2 me.

Until next time!

INSANITY AT ITS FINEST
LONG LIVE THE HIPPIES!

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