Craig's POV
I hate leaving her. I shouldn't feel that way. In fact, I shouldn't be there at all. I hate leaving her but I am always the one to walk away. Maybe I leave because I know it's wrong but I actually think I leave because she deserves better.
It's a strange feeling to walk into my girlfriend's house after leaving Emma. It's strange to kiss Ashley when I know in my heart that I would rather be kissing Emma.
My house was quiet and dark which wasn't unusual. I crept quietly to my room taking care not to wake Joey. In my room I lay across my bed in the dark and I pick up my guitar struming quietly. Emma asked me to write her a song once and I told her no. She didn't understand because ive written a few songs for Ashley and even Manny. She got angry but I couldn't explain. I would write her a song but I know I wouldn't be able to stop there. I would end up writing her a thousand songs.
When I close my eyes I see it and it scares me. I should see short brown hair but instead I see flowing blond. I should see clear blue eyes lined with striking black but instead I see unaltered chocolate brown. Olive skin is replaced by smooth peaches and cream. Ashley is no longer in my dreams and now all I know is Emma.
Do I love Emma Nelson? I wish the answer was a resounding no but the voice in the back of my head whispers the truth. I love Emma in ways that I could never love another woman.
But then why do I pull away? Because I will break her. I will destroy Emma and I could never sleep at night knowing I destroyed something so beautiful.