In The Middle Of The Night, Not Sure If It's Monday Or Tuesday, September 12th or 13th, 1977
Dear Diary,
OH MY GOD! OH MY GAWD!
I know what James is pissed about. OK, I was sleeping, right? And then something woke me up, but I had no idea what. And then – I remembered.
Ok, people always talk about these middle of the night revelations, but I've never actually had one before. It's like the falling dream, or the being-naked-in-public dream. Everyone says they're really common, but I've never had one of those either.
But anyway,
It all makes sense now. Everything does. Ok, not everything. But lots of things to do with James, and him not apologising.
Ok, I don't remember what led up to me saying what I said, but I remember saying it. Word for word. I think it's word for word anyway. Obviously, I have nothing to compare it to, but you know, whatever.
Ok, here's what I said:
"God, Potter, what is wrong with you? Don't you realise how pathetic you are? You're following around this girl who will never like you. OK? NEVER! It's honestly miserable that is? You're so sad, can't you just realise it's NOT GOING TO HAPPEN! MOVE ON! But you can't even do that can you? NO, because you're so sure that I'm going to like you eventually because everyone likes you, don't they? Well, guess what, Potter? I don't like you. I never have, and I never will! You're the most pathetic person I have ever, ever met."
That's what I said. And it was in this horrible tone of voice which made it a million times worse then what it looks like on paper.
AND I'm being haunted by like this horrible vision of James's face, and it's so bad, he just looks SO HURT.
I mean, I always figured he had like some stupid crush, but he looked so…defeated. Like his whole world had just collapsed or something.
I AM SUCH A COMPLETELY HORRIBLE PERSON! I AM THE MOST HORRIBLE PERSON I KNOW!
This is so bad.
I'm going to have to apologise.
Oh, my god.
I have no idea how to apologise. James is so good at it, and I don't think I've ever apologised properly in my life.
Crap.
Lily
5 Minutes After Last Entry, Still Not Sure If It's Monday Or Tuesday, September 12th or 13th, 1977
Dear Diary,
Why did nobody tell me I had done something that bad? Ok, they dropped hints, but they were the stupidest hints in like, the history of man.
How is anyone supposed to get anything from "YOU SHOULD APOLOGISE TO JAMES! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! YOU HAVE TO SAY SORRY! YOU WRECKED EVERYTHING!" blah, blah , blah.
Hello, haven't they ever heard of constructive criticism?
I still have no idea how to apologise.
I heard someone say that making lists help. I should make a list.
Ok.
THINGS TO DO
1. Apologise to James
2. Learn how to apologise
3. That icky potions essay
4. Ask Sirius how I should apologise to James
5. Ask friends how I should apologise to James in a way that doesn't (as Sirius will suggest) entail use of whipped cream, suggestive underwear, sexual favours, or anything that might come out of Sirius's mouth
6. Hit Sirius over head for suggesting such stupid ideas.
7. Hit self over head for ever thinking of taking any of Sirius's ideas seriously
8. Stop stereotyping people and actually listen to what Sirius might say, it could be intelligent
9. Stop making people out to be better then they are, It's Sirius.
10. Find something to stop whoever it is in my dorm that's snoring from doing so.
11. Learn how to focus any not get sidetracked by irrelevant issues when trying to write lists.
This is stupid, lists don't help, who came up with that idea anyway?
Lily
5 Minutes After That, And I'm Still Not Sure If It's Monday Or Tuesday, September 12th or 13th, 1977
Dear Diary,
Maybe, if I get this apologising thing right, James will break up with Caroline, who is a bitch.
I mean, she totally stood up for James during That Thing He Did. Wait, I'm supposed to abbreviate that. Ok, she totally stood up for James during TTHD.
Wait, with this new information revealed to me during my sleep, you know, about what I said, he was right to be pissed off.
And I guess she is his girlfriend, so she kind of has to support him. Right?
Ok, she's not a bitch. Except for her Quidditch fanatication. Yes, that's a word. Ok, maybe it's not, BUT IT SHOULD BE!!!!!!!!
Wait, James is a Quidditch fanatic as well.
Once again, crap.
Lily
Look, It's 5 Minutes Later Again, And I Still Don't Know What Day It Is! Ok?
Dear Diary,
I'm so screwed. That is my latest revelation tonight. Tonight is a night full of revelations. I have a HoM test tomorrow or today, and hopefully I will have a revelation halfway through with all the answers, seeing how I wasn't listening what with writing in here.
Anyway, I am so screwed.
I have no idea how to apologise.
And if Sirius's ideas are going to work, I might have to resort to them.
Lily
In The Morning, Considerably Saner, Tuesday, September13th, 1977
Dear Diary,
Something happened last night which would only ever happen under severely sleep deprived circumstances.
I seriously thought about taking the advice of Sirius Black.
I'd like to apologise for anyone who is severely worried about my state of mental health.
I'm fine now.
Everything will work out.
Ok.
I'll apologise to James, in a nice, normal fashion, and he'll apologise for TTHD, and everything will be good.
And he'll have Caroline so he won't like me anymore.
It's all good.
Ok.
Lily
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New chap! For you Alison!
'The Tale of Morwen, Her Lord Haldir and His Quest' by morwenelhina is really weird but quite cool and you should all read it (its LoTR)
answering reviews….
blondelily: Thank you, those two are my favourite stories too.
Chocolate Taco: abbreviations are still cool, no matter what. on my birthday, I will be in the middle of the bush, not had a shower for 6 days, carrying camping supplies last for 10 days on my back, and walking many kilometres to where we're going to sleep that night. Year 9 camp…just kill me now. It'd be kinder…
Willow23: The abbreviations do rock quite a lot. They turned out to be a lot longer then I originally thought. Sirius is cool, so yeah. And what's wrong with Natalie? My real name's Victoria. I love P.S.'s, don't worry. AND U RULE TOO!!!!!!!!
electra*27: sam, I'm tired, I'm in a hurry, this is ur reply, deal with it, luv u, tori
meredythe: sorry I didn't update that soon, but what are you doing getting up at 4:30 in the morning? Are you ok? Delusional maybe? Because you can go to a doctor you know. They have cures.
Paruety Redal: Everyday? Um, I don't think so. I get on a roll, and trust me, it soon runs out.
Faith456: Thanks, I love making people laugh. that's so cool.
Star19: Thank you, you would know what Lily says by now…
GlitzyDancingShoes: The story you read was feeling sorry for Arabella probably, coz I've read that one, I think it's based on this book called feeling sorry for celia, which is a really, really, good book. I know she needs to apologise, and she finally figured it out too.
gryffindorgirl25: Thanks, I love reading diaries, but I could never find one I really liked, so I wrote my own, which doesn't really solve it much because I know exactly what's going to happen before it does, so yeah.
JerseyGirl03: Thanks, I like this story. It's the first one of my stories where I actually started out with the intention for it to be humorous, but on all my stories everyone said they were funny and I was like….oh, they weren't meant to be that funny.
Mary-Kate: I'm sorry, but I'm a control freak and could never, ever let anyone write my stories for me. *sigh* it's a horrible character fault…
flying-piggy-123: Thanks! Maybe one day Lily will actually get around to apologising.
faithenter the matrix: Thanks, I love people reading my other stories, that's really cool, and thanks for all the reviews. If you had stories, I'd review them…Ruth3: yeah, you now know what Lily said to James…that's the problem with answering reviews at the end of the chapter…CrazyStarz: Thank you very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very much. Lol. Hey, you did it to me…misskittyfantastico12889: Thanks, I love diary stories, so I decided to write my own…as everyone can see…micki: OK!heather12345: sorry if it doesn't make sense, hopefully it starts to, but yeah, it's all going to be in diary entries.Quack Quack 88P: I love your penname! It's so cool! I explained it a bit in this chapter, but I'll get more into it, I think
Missy: Hey, I don't mind people reading all my stuff…it's cool. Except some of the earlier stuff embarrasses me a bit (a lot) Of course she's in denial. Everyone is about something aren't they?
sting-23: Lily babbles quite a lot, so that's good if you like that…
Elhina: I have nothing against flying frogs! Did I say I had something against flying frogs? If I did, I'm most grievously sorry, indeed I am.
Guard_Girl: Ok, I've heard of The Nile as in the river, but not when it's used in the denial sense…do you know what I mean? I hope so…thanks!
luv you all…if you review you get to be on a nice pretty list (see above)
So, REVIEW
tori