Firstly I just want to say that when I finally did figure out what happened, nobody guessed it that I know of, which I'm really glad of…and they don't get together, obviously because then I'd have to finish the story and I don't want to…also sorry, this chapter's really short, but it kind of had to be because I only wanted it to be the one diary entry.

On my bed, considerably distressed, Tuesday, September 13th, 1977

Dear Diary,

Crap. So many times crap.

James's owl just delivered this diary back to me.

Crap. If he read it…I don't even want to think about that.

Then he would find out that I love him…and considering what just happened, that isn't a good thing.

Oh, wait, I was going to read what Sirius wrote. One second.

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!

James read it. James knows. This is so unfair. I hate life.

I mean, one second I was innocently sitting in the bathroom, pretending to ignore James while obsessing over his hotness, when he pointed out the spider was on my leg. I screamed, obviously. I mean, hello, a SPIDER was on MY leg.

ON MY LEG!

I COULD'VE DIED!

Actually, that might have been preferable to my current situation.

But you don't know about that yet do you?

At least I'm not hungry anymore, I mean that's one advantage to being friends with the leader if the Marauders - He takes you to the kitchens after you've just had a horrifying experience with a spider.

Which, by the way, he thought was FUNNY.

Evil Boy.

I mean, I SCREAMED, then he just laughed and flicked it away.

He didn't even kill it!

It's still out there, waiting to attack other, innocent, heartbroken girls.

What was that boy thinking????

 Although, while he was laughing, I managed to steal the chocolate, run off, and lock myself in a broom cupboard. I can still taste it…so, so good.

Of course, when I came out, James was waiting there, but I did get the chocolate, so there was some success.

Then he took me to the kitchens because my stomach rumbled really loudly.

The whole time we were there I didn't say anything, and neither did he, so we walked in silence and ate in silence.

But then he said it.

He so completely ruined my life.

I can even remember the exact words:

'Hey, Lils, I know our friendship was always, um, hindered by the fact that I was in love with you, but, um, I'm really sorry for all our fights and stuff and I really want to be friends with you again, and I know you're going to say we'll just end up fighting again anyway but we won't because I won't hit on you anymore because I love Caroline.'

He loves Caroline.

He fucking loves Caroline.

Lily

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Ok, I no that's kind of depressing but it all works out good in the end, promise (well, kinda, except for the fact that they die and all…

ok, I'm just gonna thank the reviewers this time coz I'm SO TIRED coz the Powderfinger concert was last night and it was so good, but so exhausting, and yeah thank you all, and I want to hear what everyone thinks on James and Lily and Caroline now. ok?

please, please, please review!

luv, tori