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Meredith was panicked even before she reached to the room. She swung herself into he doorway panting,
"What happened?" She asks frantically grabbing Elizabeth's Chart without even looking at her first.
"Look at her!" Addison says excitedly. Meredith looks at the little girl lying in the hospital bed. Chocolate brown eyes meet her hazel ones. Meredith's face cracks into a huge smile. Elizabeth's mother and father and Grandparents are crying with joy. Mrs. Devoe is kissing her little girls face all over. She hugs Meredith who returns the favor with an equally strong embrace.
"Thank you so much Dr. Grey!" Mrs. Devoe says into Meredith's shoulder.
"She was delighted to take care of her." Addison says smiling at Meredith and Elizabeth's family. "Now if you walk with me we can go over treatment plans for her for then next two weeks." Addison says leading the family out of the room, leaving Meredith with the now conscious Elizabeth. Meredith walks over to the little girl and leans in to give her a gentle hug. Nobody knows this but she's been wanting to do that ever since she laid eyes on her.
Meredith takes the seat next to her bed as she as done countless times over the past week. She notices the small smile still plastered on the tiny girls face,
"You knew you'd get better...you scared everyone half to death...even me..." Meredith tells the little one, massaging her tiny knuckles.
"Scared me too." Mcdreamy says from his place leaning against the doorway, a smile playing on his soft lips.
"How do you always seem to walk in when I'm having a moment?" Meredith asks him almost forgetting that she's not really speaking to him.
"Right place at the right time I guess." he smiles at her an then looks down at Elizabeth. Meredith doesn't know this, but he came in here every once and a while to sit with her. "Hey you." he says to Elizabeth holding her tiny hands. She just smiles up at him the closes her eyes.
"You'd think she'd be wide awake after being asleep for a week." Meredith points out watching Elizabeth open her tiny mouth to yawn.
"Her illness has drained her fragile body..." Meredith couldn't help up look at the way he's staring at this little baby. She thinks he'd be a great father.
"Derek..." she suddenly gets serious, fiddling with her own fingers now.
"Hmm?" he knows what she is about to bring up and he gets serious as well.
"I couldn't handle it...I mean, we kissed and I couldn't handle that fact that it effected me greatly, and that I knew nothing was going to change..." Meredith looks away form him.
"I shouldn't have done that...but I couldn't help it..." He responds rather quietly.
Addison is walking down the hall to tell Meredith to start Elizabeth on her new medication but hears voices. She stops outside the room and leans against the wall listening.
"This friends thing isn't working is it?" Meredith asks sighing a little.
"No...it's just making this..much worse..." Derek whispers, placing a hand on Meredith's. Addison can hear how soft he speaks to Meredith and thinks back on how he speaks to her, like he cares, but deep down she knows he is only trying out of obligation. She knows he will never forgive her for what she did. Deep down she knows that she shouldn't be forgiven. This is how Addison feels not that she has tried to fix this marriage with him. She has finally heard enough and turns and walks in the other direction.
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Christina and Izzie are sitting in the livingroom talking when Meredith walks in. Meredith was extremely tired from her long shift and took a nap when she got home. At the sight of Meredith and her hair all askew, Christina and Izzie burst out into hysterical laughter.
"What?" Meredith asks, a smile playing on her lips. She tries to run a hand through her knotted hair. "Oh..."
"Thanks, I really needed a good laugh." Izzie says her laughter subsiding.
"What are you guys talking about?" Meredith flops down between her two friends.
"Just comparing the surgeries we scrubbed in on today." Christina says leaning back against the soft cushions of the sofa.
"How's Elizabeth?" Izzie asks, leaning back as well.
"She's awake...he caught me talking to her..."
"McDreamy? Doesn't surprise me, he's always walking into whatever room you're in, kind od annoying.." Christina points out. Meredith everts her gaze.
"We kissed." Meredith says randomly. Both girls lean forward to stare at her. Meredith shrugs in defeat.
"Mer!" Izzie scolds staring at her wide eyed.
"I know but...he's McDreamy!" Meredith states as if it was the best reason in the whole world.
"What's it mean?" Christina asks leaning back again, seeing as she also was staring at Meredith wide eyed, mouth agape.
"Nothing..."Meredith says sadly staring off into space. "He kissed me..."
"And you didn't object, of course." Christina says chuckling to herself silently.
Christina goes home after a while leaving Izzie and Meredith all alone. Izzie is making chocolate frosting from scratch, she as her cake is in the oven. Meredith is sitting at the table sipping tequila. Meredith is not thinking about McDreamy, but of Addison. She recalls Addison dodging Derek's "hello" kiss on the cheek and then confessing to herself aloud that her marriage is failing and unfix able. What does this all mean? Should I get my hopes up? Does this mean she's leaving?
"What the hell does it mean?" Meredith says aloud. Izzie turns around holding a wooden spoon of chocolate, she dips her index finger into the chocolate and licks her finger.
"What?" she offers the spoon to Meredith who takes it graciously and licking most of the frosting off with one big lick.
"I think Addison gives up..." Meredith's face shows of puzzlement, she's been thinking about this for most of the day.
"What..how? Izzie sputters a little, opening the oven to check on her cake.
"Well we were in my patient's room and she suddenly confessed, saying "I'm kidding myself...thinking I can repair this marriage..." it was weird...then she said something about Karma...I don't know this seems all to real now!" Meredith leans forward on the table, one hand on her forehead the other swirling her glass in circles on the tabletop. She hopes she will leave, but then again, she did pretty much tell Derek there was no hope for them anyway. But she can't help but hope. She would take him back in a heart beat, She misses him so much even though she sees him everyday. What she misses is his strong protective embraces, and the way he kisses her on the forehead when he'd bring her home. She misses those smiles he'd give her, not that he doesn't do that now. But she misses the part where he smiled only for her, that said he loved only her and she was all he needed.
"Maybe..." Izzie finally says, bringing Meredith back to her normal sate of mind. "I think your right." she finishes pulling her cake out of the oven to cool. Meredith looks at her glass of tequila, it's half ful. She picks it up and throws back her head as she gulps down the last bit.
"Izzie?" Izzie turns around, looking at her friend questioningly then says,
"Yep, I'll get out the bottle" she pulls out a never been opened bottle of tequila and pours Meredith a fresh glass.
"This is going to be a long night.." Meredith says gulping down that glass as well.
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"Okay Mr. And Mrs. Devoe, Dr. Shepherd isn't here right now but she had earlier given me the okay to let you take Elizabeth home." Meredith says to the happy expressions on the families face.
"Thank you so much Dr. Grey!" Mrs. Devoe says happily.
"Your welcome, Now I just need you to fill out some forms at the nurses sation, I'll get Elizabeth ready for you."
"Thank you so much." Mr. Devoe says placing a thankful hand on Meredith's shoulder before leaving the room ahead of his wife.
"Here are some clothes for her," Mrs. Devoe say handing her a diaper bag. Meredith takes the diaper bag and walks to the doorway to watch the Devoe's leave to room happy that their daughter is going to be fine. Meredith turns around and sits at the end of bed searching though the diaper bag for the clothes. She finds them and places them beside her. She pulls the blankets off of Elizabeth and picks her up. She places her on her lap facing her and just looks ta her for a moment. She is a beautiful little girl, Addison was right. Elizabeth has very dark hair, almost black. Meredith wonders if it will curl when it gets longer or say straight. She looks into those small chocolate colored eyes. The complement her hair. Meredith secretly wonders what her daughter would look like. If Mcdreamy were the father... they would most likely have very beautiful and handsome babies...of course, Meredith thinks that will never happen.
Elizabeth grabs a strand of Meredith's honey hair that has escaped from her messy pony tail. Meredith carefully removes her tiny hands from her hair and holds them. One of Elizabeth's fingers raps around her index finger. Meredith smiles down at her, entranced by this little beauty. Finally she remembers she was going to get her dressed for her mother. She lays the baby down on the bed and removes the tiny baby sized nightgown. Elizabeth sits still for her while she puts on her pants and shirt. Meredith makes cooing sounds at the baby all the while. What she doesn't know is that Derek is standing in the doorway. Meredith lifts Elizabeth up to place her on her lap to put her socks and shoes on and sees the crooked smile of McDreamy.
Meredith ignores his presence and raps her rams around the little girl to put her socks on.
"I always thought you were the mother type." Derek says walking into the room a little. Meredith goes to reach for the right shoe but it falls to the floor. Derek bends down and picks it up but stays on his knees and starts to put it on for her. He ties up the laces, Meredith looking at him dreamily. He tickles Elizabeth under the chin and a small laugh escapes her.
"Where's Addison? She didn't come in to discharge." Meredith casually says handing him the left shoe. Derek tries not to look at her, and she senses something is going on. Derek ties up the shoe laces on the last shoe and stands up after giving Elizabeth's little leg an affectionate squeeze.
"She left..." Derek says quietly. Meredith can't quite detect to mood behind that statement.
"Oh..." was all she could stay.
"I have a surgery soon, I came here to let you know you are scrubbing in. See you in ten minutes." He says looking her in the eyes before leaving her aline with Elizabeth again. Meredith looks dumbfounded but pushes it aside as she picks up the little one and brings her to he parents.
This isn't that long...but I haven't been getting reviews letting me know to keep going, so I probably wont..I donno, unless you can show me that you really, really like it, if not, I'm getting rid of it. Not to sound winy but it's a waste of time if no one reads it. So yeah. Review please.