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January came around pretty quickly work had kept the couple very busy, but they had gotten back into a stable routine. Especially now all the kids were in school. There was no more morning arguing because of the busy routine in the morning. New years had been spent in Rossi's home, or mansion rather. It had been a blast for everyone, a party all night, they brought in the new year together, then everyone took a room and crashed for the night. It was amazing. It was like nothing was wrong. It was a night were no one thought of the future or the past.

They were just getting home from a case. A brutal case, which involved suicide bombings. Lots of random suicide bombings and no leads as to who or why it was happening. The unsubs were escalating, quickly. Unfortunately, just as they were figuring things out one of the bombers came into the station. It was a warning. It wasn't too bad of an explosion compared to the others, one officer had died, most other people including the team had suffered from head injuries and a couple of sprains or broken bones. The unsubs underestimated the team and their still very capable minds.

Due to the VP shunt and hydrocephalus JJ had to be monitored as they noticed slightly more fluid than normal, but nothing to be majorly worried about. Reid was asked to stay too due to a concussion and broken wrist, but they had all gathered in JJ's room and came together to solve the case. Luckily before any more bombs could go off and the hospital which they resided in was going to be blown up.

After JJ and Emily had got home from the case they had crawled into bed. They had just missed the kids. Alice had been sat downstairs watching TV when they had gotten in, but they said their hello's and bye's heading up to bed. Exhausted and both sporting a headache from the explosions. They needed a big sleep, a long sleep. Then a day with the kids so they could see the good in the world again before heading back to work and starting on their therapy again. JJ was lay on her back in bed when Emily crawled in. JJ looked to her wife as she lay on her side, propping herself up on her elbow.

"How you feeling?" Emily asked using her free hand to run her fingers up and down JJ's arm closest to her. She noticed her wife had been thinking a lot since hospital. She had a lot of time since being left alone to be monitored while they arrested the guy responsible and put things back in order.

JJ looked to her right to her wife. "I'm good. I just. Today could have been much worse and I don't want to die without getting better and making love to you again. I want to be better for you and the kids. I want another baby and I can't do that, we can't do that until things are better."

"Does this mean your gonna do it?" Her fingers halted up her wifes arm for a moment. Emily tried to hide her surprise. She was shocked by everything that came out of her wifes mouth for that moment.

The blonde nodded softly. It was something she had to do. She didn't particularly want to but it needed to happen. "Yeah, I've been looking over the papers Susan gave me, her plan was to do EMDR then DBT. But I don't know." EMDR was Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing therapy, which was an interactive psychotherapy technique used to relieve psychological stress. An effective treatment for trauma and PTSD. It was a risky thing for Susan to be doing with JJ, but in 77% of patients symptoms had significantly improved. In the papers JJ had been provided there was a safety plan for getting through it which had given the blonde some comfort, but not completely.

"Your scared." Both women were good at sensing slight changes in each other's tone or body language. Subtle things could be noticed easily.

"Well, yeah. It's going to get worse before it gets better." The young woman bit on the inside of her cheek. She was telling her wife she was going to participate in a hard therapy. Something they did with victims occasionally; they knew they had to visualise and relive their worst moments.

Emily tried to stay positive. "It might not." She shrugged slightly. This would be difficult. JJ was probably going to get worse. Her job as a wife was to remain positive and fight when she couldn't something she neglected to do when they first got out of their own prison. Now she could feel herself getting better she was able to do more for the love of her life. She had to keep her hopes up.

A sigh came out of JJ's mouth, "Emily. I trigger way to easy. Everyday something makes me think of it. The purpose of EMDR is to relive it. I have to go through the worse bits, we're going to talk about it. I've gone this far avoiding to give her, or anyone details. It's gonna get worse."

"Well you know I'm going to be here the whole time, right?" Emily reminded her wife as she continued to trace gentle patterns up and down her arm.

Another soft nod came from JJ. "Yeah I know. You're so amazing. I don't think I'd have the courage to do this if I didn't have you."

Emily laughed and wafted her hand to dismiss her wife. The woman in front of her was amazing and she knew if she would have been handed the shit JJ had she wouldn't be here. Her wife was a God in many ways. "I love you so much. You have so much strength. You could do this without me, but you don't have to because I love you."

"You know you're the strongest one of us both. You take everything and fight it so much. You do it with everything you have. You know you don't have to do this with me. I don't want to cause you any setbacks." The blonde avoided Emily's eye's. Since day dot she had admired her partner, she was magnificent and continued to be.

"Baby. Listen to me. Together we are a force to be reckoned with. When this first happened, and I left. I drowned. But with you by my side, I was able to come through. I was able to get so much better. If I have a set back who cares. Because as long as your okay, I'll be okay. We're gonna do this together." Emily pushed her wife. She knew her wife could do this. She believed in her, it was time for her to get better.

JJ brought the hand that Emily wasn't running her own hand over to her wifes face. Her thumb stroked over her cheek softly. "I love you; you know." She pushed herself up slightly to meet the lips of her wife. They slowly met and their lips gently touched. The first kiss was tender. They could barely feel each other But Emily pushed her lips further into JJ. Moving her hand from her arm to the back of her wifes head to make their lips join harder. So, they could be closer together.

They came up for air only a few short minutes after the kiss began. Both with wide smiles. JJ lay back down on her back, Emily staying propped up on one of her arms. Goofy smiles plastered on their faces. They had each other and things were going to get better. With one another they could get through everything.

"So you want another baby huh?" Emily asked back tracking on what JJ had said before.

"I think so yeah. Not right now. We just got back to work; things are just about to get back to normal. But yeah. Maybe in like 6 months?" JJ outstretched her arm indicating for Emily to lay down. The brunette lay down throwing one of her arms over JJ's stomach tracing the soft abs which were coming back.

"6 months. That'll be around your Birthday and our anniversary, and the year anniversary of…" She trailed off for a moment. "But they'd be due in March, we don't have a March baby yet." It excited Emily but scared her. She loved having kids and wanted another one, but could they schedule another child into their already crazy life.

"We don't have a March baby. I figured that it would be a great distraction from other stuff when we try to get pregnant, I mean it'll still be hard, but it'll give us moments to be happy." JJ shrugged. Just to be happy wasn't a reason to have a baby. The happy moments were a plus, but she had been thinking of asking Emily if they could have another baby when they had date night, on the day they were abducted, but she put off after everything.

A raised eyebrow came from Emily and she continued to play with the toned stomach of JJ's. "And our anniversary isn't enough. There's gonna be lots of happy moments. We didn't celebrate our 10-year anniversary or your birthday this year because we were in hospital, I thought considering they are both on the same day, I could spend all day giving you lots of loving. Lots and lots of loving. There's going to be a lot of happy moments. Trust me. I'm already planning a lot." She wiggled her active eyebrows suggestively. She had plenty of plans. Good plans. Sexy plans.

"Your crazy you know that." JJ rolled her eyes at her wife.

"Crazy in love with you." A big goofy grin spread along Emily's face. She was going to be goofy; she was going to be a nerd and she was going to tell her wife how much she loved her in her own special way.

A giggle slipped from JJ's mouth. "And your so cheesy."

The big goofy grin stayed on Emily's face. "You love it though. Me and my nerdiness and the things you love most. Well that and my really good tongue and fingers." She teased slightly.

"Emily." JJ laughed as she swatted at her wifes arm. She never failed to make her smile or embarrass her.

"You love them just as much as I love yours, your long fingers, your tongue that's way longer than it looks, and your legs, they just move in positions my old bones won't go. My little Rockstar."

The blonde laughed covering her face. She loved sex as much as the next person. But she always got this rush of embarrassment when someone spoke about it. It was so uncontrollable, "You Emily have a problem. Your mind is dirtier than Morgan's and Garcia's together."

More laughs entered the room, the couple were having a good moment, such a good moment. "I can't help it, when I see my hot hot wife, I can't help but think about these things."

JJ dropped her smile from her face. Her wife wanted something she couldn't do. Not right now anyway. "I'm sorry." She hated herself. This was why she was going to do the more intense therapy. Fully.

"What for?" The brunettes hand halted from its movements. Did she think…

"It's been 6 months since we had sex. You clearly want…"

"Hey, no, I don't want anything. I have a right hand if I need anything. I'm just complementing how beautiful and talented you are." Emily interrupted; she didn't want anything. She was just being the nerd that she was. She was just admiring the blue-eyed beauty; she didn't want anything else from this. She was content with her wife just how she was.

The blonde smiled in relief. "You're the silliest person. But I love you for it."

"And I love you too." Emily took a moment, she leant back on her elbow just looking over the beautiful woman who lay next to her. "So, will you be okay carrying or do you want to get a surrogate or what was your plan?"

"I don't know. I didn't think that far." JJ bit her lip as she thought. She wasn't fussed who carried.

"I don't think I could carry this one. I am old unlike you my spring chicken. So, me carrying would be risky, and I don't want to do that to us, but if you carrying means your gonna be more poorly then I'll give it ago. Unless you want to carry no matter what then you can. I'm cool with whatever." Emily was a little bit of a rambler when she wanted to be. It was funny for JJ to witness. A rambling Emily could cheer anyone up, her voice went slightly high pitched, she spoke way faster than she usually did, and she became much more eccentric.

"Honey, chill. We'll talk about it closer to the time. Let's get to March first then we will go see the doctor. There's plenty of ways we can do this." JJ smiled at her beautiful chocolate eyed wife. She kept her arm out for Emily to lay on. The brunette lay down and the two were able to get a good nights rest in each other's arms before life became more complicated.