She Sees Him

Lily stood in front of her mirror. She and Harry were staying with her parents since she had to come back in such a hurry she hadn't had a chance to find a place. Harry was in his crib next to her asleep. She was getting ready to go and see James and her stomach was churning, her hands were shaking she was so nervous.

"Well, I should be going soon. I can't believe how nervous am about seeing James. I haven't felt like this since our wedding, no in fact this is worse at least I knew he loved me then, I haven't see him in almost a year. He never even knew I was pregnant, he doesn't know about you, he will by the time I get back I promise" Lily said quietly to Harry careful not to wake him. "I don't know how he'll react, he always wanted to be a father but I don't know how he'd feel now. I just disappeared, I planned on just getting away for a break and going back. But then I found out you were on the way and I didn't want you to be born into a war zone cause all we did was argue, and you deserve so much better than that and I'm going to make sure you get it. I love your Daddy but what I did was unforgivable, but you shouldn't have to suffer you deserve a father and James is the only one you've got" Lily was almost in tears by the time she was finished.

She inspected herself in the mirror, imagining what she looked like the last time James had seen her. Her hair was shorter now, still the same fiery red it had always been and it still hung in loose curls. It was mostly the shape of her body that had changed the most, since having Harry she had gotten rid of all the pregnanct weight by doing Yoga, so her body was more toned than it had ever been. Her chest was the most noticable though, she had gone from a B cup to a D, since she was still breastfeeding they weren't going to shrink anytime soon.

She was wearing tight figure hugging jeans, green strappy low cut (without being slutty) top, and had on high heeled sandals.

She took her bag and slung it over her shoulder.

She bent down and kissed Harry on the forehead, "wish me luck" she whispered

Lily went down stairs and told her parents, who were babysitting Harry for her, that she was leaving and gave them a few more last minute instructions.

AT THE HOSPITAL

Lily had gone to finalise the paperwork for her transfer to St Mungo's (even though she was still on maternity leave). Then she had made her way to James' room, knowing that visiting hours were over and that she could tell him about Harry alone. She knocked and went into his room.

He looked up when he heard her high heels on the hospital floor.

"Sirius said you were back" he said

"Yeah, I uh had to sign the forms for you" she said

"I must have forgotten to take you off my next of kin thingy" said James

Lily couldn't help but let out a nervous giggle, "That was very... technical, James"

"Yeah" he chuckled then he got serious, "What do you want?"

"I uh have to tell you something" she said a little taken aback by the bluntness

"You're getting married again and you want a divorce" he said trying to keep his emotions out of his voice

"What? Where the hell are you getting that from?"

"Sirius said you wanted a divorce and you haven't asked for one, so why now then, if you aren't enagaged?"

"Sirius was wrong. Do you see any ring?" said Lily holding up her left hand

'I remember the time when she wore my ring. When she was my wife' thought James then he quickly turned away, he could feel tears welling up in his eyes, just by seeing her hand without her wedding ring, really showing him that he had well and truly lost her forever.

"I didn't come here for a divorce" said Lily giving James some hope, "But I suppose we will have to sort that sooner or later"

"Why can't you just say that's what you want? Fine, I'll give you a divorce" said James raising his voice

"I believe it is you that is focusing on a divorce. What you want to marry your latest slapper, I bet you didn't even wait for me to leave til you started sleeping around again" said Lily, who was quickly losing her legendary temper.

James turned and grabbed her wrist, "I never cheated on you" he said dangerously

Something in James tone calmed Lily down again, she hadn't meant for them to start arguing again, "I know" she sighed, "I don't

know why I said that"

"So what is it?" he asked her

"um Iwaspregnant" Lily blurted out

James hadn't quite caught it, all he had heard was I and pregnant.

"What has that got to do with me, we stopped sleeping together almost a year ago. If you're up the duff it's not my problem"

"What?" said Lily slightly in shock, "FINE, you really have changed James. I never thought you would just brush off your son. I'm sorry I came here, you really are a bastard" then she stomped out.

"If you're pregnant now, it can't be mine you left months ago" James shouted

"You stupid bastard" yelled Lily, "I was pregnant when I left. But you don't have to worry, neither of us are coming back into you're life" then she ran from the room, almost knocking Sirius down on her way out.

"LILY" shouted James realising his mistake, he was trying to get out of bed but was stuck by all the wires he was attached to.

"Prongs, what are you doing, lie down" said Sirius trying to restrain James

"No, go after her" shouted James

"She's not worth it, she'll only cause more trouble" said Sirius and James started fighting again

"GO and get her or I'm going after her myself, sick or not" shouted James

"Fine" said Sirius then he ran out of the room, going in the same direction as Lily