Hold on 3
(Painful Truth)
Author's Note: Chapter Three of Hold on.
Disclaimer: I don't own Card Captor Sakura or any of the characters in this fic.
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"… Does that mean that she'll not leave any longer?" Tomoyo's mother asked. She expected the doctor to tell her this because of the visible deterioration and regression in Tomoyo's health and appearance.
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The laughs that were heard from Tomoyo's room vanished into the sound of respirators. It was 12:45 in the midnight, facing the fact that she'll have no much time left her mom together with Shaoran, Sakura and Eriol wished to stay with her longer. They decided to make shifts in watching at her. Her mom was scheduled at the morning, Syaoran, since it was already vacation was at night, Sakura and Eriol in the afternoon.
But this day seemed to be an exception. They were all present there.
Syaoran sat by the window staring at the moon. Sakura was sleeping with her head on the desk, Eriol on the sofa and Tomoyo's mom situated beside her.
Tomoyo's usual pale skin grew paler; her violet eyes were now surrounded by big black eye bags. Her visible lose of weight was evident by her protruding cheekbone and now thin fingers.
She was staring blankly on space when her face contorted followed by her pain. She turned towards her mother and slowly touched her hands. She opened her mouth and tried to speak but was not that audible. Her mom leaned so as to hear what she was trying to say.
"…" she mouthed her words but her voice betrayed her.
Noticing what Tomoyo was trying to do the others gathered around her except for Syaoran who looked at her for awhile then turned a distant away from the bed.
Tomoyo cleared her throat.
"Whenever…" she said in a low voice. Her face again contorted followed by a moan.
"Whenever… you see me in pain…" she said.
"… Please leave me." She moaned.
"… I don't want to see you also hurting…" she twisted a little when she felt the pain.
"No we won't leave you…" her mom said as tears streamed down her face.
With her condition Tomoyo didn't like to see others crying for her because of sickness. She turned her face on the side then closed her eyes.
"Leave…" she tried to shout but a hoarse voice was heard.
They stayed not moving beside her. They didn't found any reason for them to leave her unattended.
Tomoyo gripped the sheets then once again moaned but this time it was louder. She was crying, she again turned to them.
"Leave!" she shouted even louder that she coughed hard.
Syaoran was the first one to run out of the room. The others followed him and left Tomoyo for awhile closing the door.
The dry 3 inch piece of lumber was not enough to cover the pain Tomoyo is expressing. Her moans were haunting. It was so routinely every midnight that she experiences pain and suffering.
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"…Thirty minutes" Syaoran mumbled.
"Syaoran…" Tomoyo's mom felt worried, she never saw Syaoran this worried with Tomoyo.
"Why does this have to happen with her… can't it just happen to me?" Syaoran slammed his fist on the wall.
Syaoran never felt this unlucky. Let's just say that he isn't showy with his feelings to Tomoyo. To say, he was discreet with his affection to the girl. But behind that discreetness lays the truth that she really felt something mutual for the girl. And now, with Tomoyo's condition he never knows how to deal anymore with his own self. It was Tomoyo who gave her the quality of self-worthiness and love, only to find out that this person who loves him is to die.
Syaoran leaned on the wall with his head bowed low. Little did the others know that Syaoran was crying? A teardrop rolled down his cheeks. He really tried to hide the feeling of sadness but it was overwhelming. He let his body slide down the cold concrete cement.
He felt weak. For him she was like a goddess who gave him the power to leave and breathe.
"Come to think of it, Syaoran… if her disease is incurable, do you think you'll be happy to see her in this state, her suffering. She must be free…" Sakura said.
"She'll not die… ever…" Syaoran stood and sat on the bench.
"You're being selfish…" Sakura defended her point.
"How dare you say that to me…" he lifts his head as he glared at Sakura.
"You're only thinking about yourself…" Sakura laughed bitterly.
"Shut up…" Syaoran snarled. "She never ever dies…"
"Damn, can't you understand me? I am her best friend and you are her lover. Look I don't want her to die but if this means that she'll leave with suffering, if I'll see her like this everynight in pain, do you think I'll be happy? Do you think she'll be happy? No one will. Her mom accepts it, Tomoyo is her daughter, she never thought of Tomoyo's death which is really painful on her part but if she'll just see her daughter suffer for a long time…" Sakura broke into tears.
Tomoyo's mom approached Sakura hugged her. Eriol walked towards the window then gazed at the stars.
"The stars never failed to glow…" Eriol said. He never talked for quite awhile so this caught the attention of the others. "…whether it rains at night and the stars hide, we don't forget these stars…"
Silence.
"Tomoyo's one of them…" Eriol once again continued. He faced Syaoran who fell on silence.
"I understand…" Syaoran walked beside Eriol and also gazed at the stars. Tears once again trickled down his face.
"If it hurts on your part, it hurts more for me. I'm her mother, to see my daughter dying stabs me double than to others… We must accept the painful truth…" Tomoyo's mother said opening the door.
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Author's Note: Please R&R.