I Trusted You
It had been a week since Lily had moved into her new house. Lily had just put Harry down for the night, when she heard the doorbell.
"Kate" said Lily surprised to see her mother in law on her doorstep
"Hello Lily" Kate said
"Hi, uh Harry's in bed" said Lily
"That's alright, I came here to see you"
"Oh, okay come in" said Lily opening the door further for Kate to come in. "The living room is just through there"
Lily followed Kate into the living room, and sat down on an armchair.
"Can I get you anything? Tea, coffee..." said Lily nervously
"No thank you" said Kate
"Okay. So... I guess you're here to talk about James"
"Yes I am. I couldn't help but notice that you two haven't made any formal arrangements regarding Harry"
"Uh no, we uh haven't quite gotten round to it"
"So how does James know where he stands, when he can see his son?"
"Uh I dunno, he's just been coming round to see him, when he can"
"What about when you go back to work?"
"Um I dunno, we'll sort something out, properly" said Lily feeling as though she was being interogated
"Also the divorce proceding seem, non-existant"
"Um, well we've sort of had other things to think about" said Lily getting slightly annoyed at Kate's interference. What had it do with her if she and James got divorced?
"Hmmm, well stop dragging your feet and put him out of his misery" said Kate then she got up to leave the room.
"What happened? I know I shouldn't have handled things the way I did, but we used to get on really well" said Lily making Kate stop in her tracks.
"I trusted you and you let me down" said Kate
"Trusted me, with what?" said Lily confused
"I trusted you with my little boy's heart and you broke it" said Kate
"Wh-what?"
"You heard?" said Kate then she left the room, slamming the front door as she left the house.
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James had just gotten off work, so he was going to see Lily and Harry, hoping Harry wasn't already in bed. Just as he turned onto Lily's street he saw his mother coming out of Lily's house.
"Mum" he said as he walked towards her
"Oh hello, dear I wasn't expecting to see you" she said calmly
"What were you doing in Lily's" he asked
"I just had a few things to say to her"
"Mum, what things?" groaned James, he and Lily had been getting on so well, it was just like it used to be.
"I just asked her to stop dragging her heels about formal access to Harry and the divorce"
"You said what? Mum, it is none of your business when we divorce" said James furious, neither he nor Lily had mentioned divorce since that day in hospital and he certainly wasn't going to bring it up.
"It is when she's tying you down, stopping you from finding someone else" said Kate
"You don't get it, do you? I don't want anyone else. It was my fault she left in the first place and I don't need you upsetting Lily." said James
"Fine, when she breaks your heart again, I'll be here to pick up the pieces again"said Kate then she apparated.
James turned and practically ran up to Lily's front door. He rang the bell and when she didn't answer right away he rang it again, and again, until eventually she came to the door, her face tearstained.
"Oh my god, what's the matter? What did she say to you?" said James going inside and guiding Lily to the living room and sitting down next to her on the sofa.
"I-It's nothing really" said Lily trying to stop the tears
"Obviously it's something" said James, "Is Harry in bed?"
Lily nodded
"Tell me, what's the matter? Is it the divorce? Access? You know I'd never try to get custody of Harry, I would never try to take him from you"
"I-I know"
"Then what's the matter? What did my mother say to upset you so much?"
"It's nothing really, my hormones are still all crap from having Harry"
"Lils, I know you, this is more than hormones" said James lifting Lily's chin and forcing her to look at him, "Please just tell me"
"She-she trusted me" said Lily
"What do you mean, what with the ring, cause I told her I have it"
"No, she trusted me with her son's heart and she-she said I broke it" said Lily breaking down in tears again.
James wrapped his arms around Lily pulling her into him, "Hey shhhh, don't listen to her, you know my mother's insane"
James just rocked Lily back and forth until she stopped crying, then she sat up and pulled out of his arms.
"I'm sorry, it's just a little harder than I thought it would be" said Lily
"It's alright. What's harder... Coming back?"
"Hmmm, I just wasn't... oh I don't know what the hell I was expecting"
"I'm sorry about my mother she had no right..." said James
"Was she right, did I..." said Lily avoiding James' eye
"Uh... yeah I was pretty broken when I realised you... you weren't coming back"
"I'm sorry" whispered Lily
"S'ok, it was my fault"
"I don't even remember what we were arguing about" said Lily quietly
"You had to work late, and I forgot to buy milk" said James
"Oh god, how did something so petty turn into..."
"I'm am so sorry about that night, the things I said, how I..." said James
"It's alright, I said some terrible things as well"
"Not like I did, I made you leave." said James getting up and walking over to the fireplace, watching the fire, facing away from Lily, "I saw it"
"Saw what?"
"The fear in your eyes, when I started shouting. You were scared of me." said James feeling as if he was going to cry, "I scared my wife, the woman I was supposed to love, cherish, honour, and remian faithful to forever"
"And what, you didn't" said Lily
"No, I didn't"
'He didn't love me, maybe he was seeing someone else' thought Lily who turned away from looking at James, tears were starting to roll down her cheeks again.
"I did love you, god I loved you so much, I still do. But I stopped cherishing you, I took you for granted" said James wiping the tears from his face, "I didn't treat you how I was supposed to. I never cheated on though, you've always been the only one for me, but I thought about it, I thought how easy it would be to leave and get some mindless bimbo who would just agree with me"
"Oh" was all Lily said but James could hear her voice crack and he knew she was crying.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I hate what I became, I scared my wife, she was so afraid she left me"said James going over to Lily
"You deserve so much better than me, so does Harry, but I'm such a selfish bastard I don't think I could let you go" James turned and was about to leave when Lily reached out and grabbed his arm.