AN: Thank you so much for the reviews! I appreciate them so much!

Jen, this idea kinda came from what you said in review. I hope this is kind of what you want. But there will always be more cuddles to come from these too. More clinginess of course.

For those who are asking about the story 26 going on 6, I'm about to start it up again. I will be reworking the first couple of chapters first, changing them slightly then reposting them. Updates are going to just be whenever I can amage though because I also dislocated my thumb yesterday so it's super awkward typing haha.

Anyway, this chapter just kinda went where it went, and I hope you all manage to enjoy it.

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Day 8 in the hospital had been a particularly bad day for JJ. It had been 6 nights she'd spent alone apart from when her favourite doctor had come in to keep her company before she inevitably fell asleep, due to the exhaustion from her body. The seizure JJ had 3 days earlier after her family went home, hadn't been too bad. Abi was able to quickly give JJ the medication she needed and bring her out of the seizure in only 5 minutes. Which was an improvement of the past few seizures she'd had.

JJ had been doing lots of physio, to try get her legs working and strengthening her arms. She had pushed herself and pushed herself wanting to get home and walking like she used to. She had 6 kids to contend with and work to go back to. She was excited to get back there. She wanted to even if Abi said it would probably take a couple weeks before she was able to walk without an aid. Of course, the blonde wasn't having any of it and was going to continue to push until she was able to what she wanted. The plan was to discharge by the following Monday only 4 days away, so she had 4 more days to get better and that was her mission. Well it was going to be.

Emily was stood at the opposite end of the physio room. It was nearing 3pm and she soon had to leave to collect the kids from school. Rossi had a meeting in work that he couldn't miss. With 2 agents off there was an extra workload, and he had missed at least a couple hours each day, so this meeting was an essential. The brunette agent stood watching her wife using the walker to cross the room, the physiotherapist walking 2 steps behind, and Dr West was stood at the opposite end of the room to Emily, being one of the goals for JJ to reach. Everyone could see JJ was sweating she had been working hard having done 4 laps already. "Hey, Jayje I've gotta head off soon. Shall we go back to your room?"

"No." JJ said slightly breathless. "You go, I want to carry on. I have a couple laps left in me." She continued to push herself forcing her incredibly sore legs to move. It wasn't that she couldn't feel her legs which was the reason she was struggling to walk. She could feel them but all her muscles had gone in extreme relax mode and they hurt to move in the slightest, so the purpose of these exercises was to get her muscle memory back and work off the ache throughout her whole body. Her brain too had to be exercises again, it's like walking had just fallen out of her head so it made the whole process slightly harder.

"You sure? I mean I can smell you from over here." Emily winked; she could see how hard her wife was working to get better. It was something she admired about JJ. One of the million reasons she loved her and married her so quickly.

The blonde laughed but continued walking. Till she had a slight stumble making everyone rush forward to her. Luckily, the man who was doing her Physio had a quick reflex and grabbed her waist stopping her from a big fall. Abi, could see how tired JJ was getting, "I agree with Emily JJ."

JJ crinkled her nose "That I stink?"

"No, it's probably time to call it a day, head back to your room." Abi chuckled, at her patient. "Although, I can imagine if I come over there, I'll catch the smell Emily caught from you." The doctor teased. She laughed when JJ flipped her head round with a nonserious growl at herself.

Emily stood watching for a couple minutes. JJ had managed to reach her side of the room before she left. So, Emily shared a kiss. A sweaty one, but she didn't mind. See her wife as wet as she was, was doing somethings to her that she couldn't act on. Especially in a hospital. She took a big gulp of air to cool herself. To will her body to stop reacting to the beautiful sweaty mess her wife currently was. The older agent looked to her watch. "Alright I'm off. But behave, and I'll come see you tomorrow with all our little sproglets."

The blonde rolled her eyes and shook her head. She watched Emily walk away. As Emily left the guy who had been stuck to her side since she had started walking with the walker today left to grab the wheelchair for JJ and Abi began to cross the room. She was stood at an awkward place. Facing the wall while everyone else was moving behind her. The younger woman wouldn't mind if she got to see her wife walk away and watch as her behind swayed as she walked. Just because she wasn't ready to sleep with her, didn't mean she couldn't admire the beauty of the woman she loved.

Slowly she pushed the walker round and pulled her feet with her. As she turned, she kept feeling the legs of the walker at her feet. So, she thought maybe if she pushed the walker further away from her body that it would be easier to turn. But the shouts from Abi and the burley physio man registered in her brain before she even realised, she was falling. She looked to the floor and saw it was becoming closer and closer. 'Shit' she thought as she hit the ground, the walker coming down with her.

Everyone in the room, including Emily who had only made it halfway out the door rushed towards JJ as she hit the floor. The woman wasn't catching a break. The injured woman started to push herself off the floor. "No JJ don't get up. Just stay there." Abi said as she reached her patient.

"What happened Jayje?" Emily asked. She kneeled at her wifes side and her hands hovered over her not sure if she was able to hold her at the moment. JJ mumbled something to Emily, but it was too quiet for anyone to make out what she was saying. "What was that baby?" The older woman asked using one of her many pet names for her wife.

"Emily just go get the kids." She said not wanting her wife to be around right now.

The brunette agent shook her head. "JJ I just want…"

"No just go. Now!" She shouted. JJ didn't mean to lose her cool like that, she was embarrassed and now, along with feeling drained she had a big headache to go along with everything. She just needed time to herself. She just lay on the floor moment, hoping the image which had invaded her mind during her fall would disappear soon.

Emily stood slowly and backed away. Abi looked at the brunette apologetically, she saw this a lot when patients got angry or embarrassed. They would lash out at those they loved. Emily walked out slowly not sure what had just happened, but she would be damned if that would be how she left things for today. JJ was working hard, and she didn't want one little fall to set her back. It was probably going to happen a few times while she was relearning to get her brain to communicate, with the rest of her body. She had to teach her wife that what had happened was okay, and there was no need to kick her out the room.

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JJ had been sent off for a CT after the fall to double check everything. Luckily, the nasty bump to the head she seemed to have gotten was nothing but a nice head bruise which was sporting half her forehead. Abi had gotten JJ settled back in bed and connected to many monitors again. They had agreed that morning that the monitors could come off, as discharge was coming. But the fall meant she was going to be monitored closely for the next 24 hours.

The doctor was sat at the nurses station. She was due to go home in less than an hour, but she didn't want to leave her patient. She had become withdrawn, and overly emotional again. If JJ could just get some sleep maybe she would be okay leaving her. But even after her physio session she hadn't napped. She bit on the cap of the pen. What could she do? How could she help? She stood up and headed into the room.

She stepped in the room and checked over the monitors as well as the fluids bag and catheter bag. "How you doing? Any headache nausea?" Abi asked trying to get a conversation going.

"I'm fine." JJ said blandly.

The doctor put away her pen light from checking her patients eyes "And mentally?"

JJ shook her head, "Abi you're not my…"

Dr West jumped in, "Not your therapist I know. But I'm your doctor. And when your stressed, tired, and not eating it affects you physically so talk to me. I'm about to finish my shift and I can't leave until I know your gonna eat your dinner or go to sleep. My kids at her boyfriends tonight so I can stay all night if I have to." She pulled up a chair and took a seat at JJ's bedside.

With a very shaky breath JJ inhaled. She had to compose herself. "It's just stupid. I can't shake it and now I feel like I can't function."

"Nothing is stupid if it's affecting you this much."

"This afternoon when I fell. It… I was back there and all I could see was him. I know that sometimes people can get flashbacks from silly things, I mean god knows I have them triggered by anything. But I thought I was past them. It's been 8 days. I haven't had one since I came here. I thought I was getting better. But now I feel like I did the day I came here. I feel right back at the start. You know I told my therapist that I didn't think I would get this brand taken off. But now I need it off. I feel like it's pressing on my chest and I can't breathe. In reality I know I can breathe but I can't."

"JJ I…" Abi paused; she didn't have to talk about her past anymore. She never shared this part of her life, but if it could make a difference, she would share it. "When I was 17, I was raped. That's Violets father. For ages after words I could feel my world literally going up and down. My recovery from that was all over the place. I'd have a good week and then have a really back week after that. It's hard. I know. I remember a few months after I saw the shoes he wore, and it triggered me after being 2 months free of flashbacks. I know it doesn't sound positive right now but it's 18 years later, I made it. I know you can too. Because you have one of the biggest support systems I've seen." She wished she could have had as many people as JJ had but she made do. And with a system like her patient had she knew that one day she could be okay. She just had to accept the help. "Your whole team have been phoning the ward for updates. It's probably badgering on harassment, but they care. Your children, who all love you so much. And your wife. Who absolutely adores you. Your gonna have days where you feel like this. But holding it in, not seeing to your personal needs isn't what you should be doing. Talk to your therapist, your friends, your family, or even me. You have my office phone and here…" She grabbed JJ's phone holding out for JJ to unlock. Which she did hesitantly. Abi went into the contacts section adding a new contact. "Now you have my personal. You have a village of people, use it please."

The blonde in the bed nodded before letting out a couple of shaky tears. She stopped them before they could become something more and looked to the doctor who had told possibly one of the most traumatic things, she had been through. She reached out her hand and held the doctors. "Thank you. You didn't have to share that; I know it must have been hard for you to do it. But thank you." Hearing the story from her doctor and seeing how she was now thriving, she was head of neurosurgery, she had a grown child and she was managing her life that the blonde could see. It gave her some hope, that the bad days might soon become less. She knew she should stop holding everything in, but it was scary to tell others how much she was struggling. But that was the only thing left for her to do.

Abi stood and could see the edge of the brand poking through the top of the hospital gown. "Do you mind?" The doctor asked pointing to JJ's chest. JJ hesitated but nodded so Dr West pulled down the gown slightly, she poked and prodded at the scar. "One of my best friends here is a plastic surgeon. I can get him to come look at this tomorrow if you're up for it. I won't be here, but he can give you an opinion and if you want it gone, I'll tell him to do his best. But that's up to you."

"Yeah please if you don't mind. I'm not completely sure but it'd be nice to know my options."

"Alright, I'll make a couple calls soon. Now are you going to eat this." She pushed forward the sandwich they had been provided a couple of hours earlier.

JJ grabbed the packaged dinner pulling it onto her lap eyeing up the plastic cheese sandwich. "Yeah."

The experienced doctor smiled, she sat back in her chair watching as JJ gently and slowly pulled off the packaging. She could tell JJ was only eating it because she was asked and being watched. "Well I'm here till its gone so come on. If you can't eat it just let me know and we'll get you some electrolytes and stuff."

"It's fine, I can eat it." That's what JJ thought. Each bite she took she could feel her stomach churning. She was fine she could eat this. And she did keep trying. Abi had seen it happening again, before she knew it was going to happen. Soon enough a sick bowl was under her chin and the small meal she had eaten came straight back up.

"It's alright." Abi called in a nurse and told them to grab some replacements for JJ. She hadn't eaten much at all today. Before physio she told them she only wanted something small just in case she worked hard enough to cause herself to get ill. It only took the nurse a couple seconds to come back with the things she needed. Dr West rubbed JJ's back while the nurse hooked up some thing which could give JJ nutrients for the day. The doctor hoped she could provide some comfort to JJ, she was crying and she vomited again. Tough day.

Emily had decided that she needed to go back and see JJ. She had managed to get all kids babysat until the following evening, which relieved pressure from Emily. She could go see her wife. Spend the night with her in hospital and make sure she was okay. If JJ didn't need it she needed it herself. Whenever she was visiting nurses would be in and out, she would be doing exercises, and other people were looking in the room distracting her from being able to spend proper alone time with her wife. She just wanted to hold her properly with no worries. She arrived at JJ's room and paused. Abi was rubbing up and down JJ's back as she cried with a bowl of vomit in front of her. A nurse was just finishing connecting her up to a new bag of fluids. No one had noticed her yet. "Hey what's going on?"

"Emily?" JJ looked up from the bowl. Her hair hung loosely down the sides of her face, having fallen from the loose pony tail which poorly held up her hair.

The older agent took the place of Dr West, nodding a thank you to the woman who still continued to go above and beyond for her wife. "Hey babe. How are we doing?" She put JJ's hair into a bun before going back to rubbing JJ's back as she heaved again.

"Where are the kids?" JJ asked after she had finished dry heaving. She pushed the bowl on her lap away and relaxed back into the bed which was currently sat up.

"Well Henry is at Spencer's; I believe they were learning magic. The girls are at Garcia's having a make up and movie night and Luke and Michael are at Hotch's, and I think Hotch said something about camping in his back yard. So, they are all safe." Emily grabbed a cloth and lay JJ back sending her bed further back so she could be comfortable. She wiped around her wifes mouth and climbed on the side of the bed next to her. "You've got me for the night."

"The whole night?" The blonde raised her eyebrows. She didn't expect her wife to be here. She thought it would be another night alone. But even though she wouldn't admit it to boost her wifes big ego, she was so grateful and happy that she was here.

"Yep. The whole night." JJ couldn't be more grateful she got to spend the night with her beautiful wife. She had missed sleeping with her right next to her. JJ threw an arm over Emily burring her head in the crook of the brunettes neck. She couldn't hold back the sob that finally escaped. She had held it in long enough now. "Woah babe. Seriously talk to me. I want to help you."

"I'm just so fed up. I thought I was getting better and then I had a flashback before. Now I'm so tired but I'm scared I'm gonna see him. I don't want to see him. And I'm scared of the seizures, they are giving me hell, I can feel another one coming and I don't want to be set back again. I want to come home." She cried as she gripped onto Emily's sweater as best she could.

"Alright, come on. It's gonna be okay. I'm gonna be here the whole night. I'm going to protect you; he can't hurt you. Not in your sleep and not in your mind because I'm gonna kick his ass. You just close your eyes and go to sleep. I'm going to call the nurse in, because if your gonna have a seizure we are going to stop it alright." She pressed the call button alerting the nurses to her need for help before her wife once again fell into a seizure.

Once JJ's seizure had been dealt with and she had come round Emily lay with JJ in bed and the two talked for an hour. They had the chance to relax and do what they had been doing every night since they were back in each other's arms. Offer comfort and love, lay in each other's arms, and saying words which made them both feel like there was now one else in the world. No one except them. Abi had hung around and kept an eye on JJ. Especially considering she'd had a head injury and a seizure. But by the time the day shift started she left, knowing that JJ was in safe arms and she had plenty of rest and the doctor in charge of her care today knew exactly how to care for her.