Series Title: - What the Eye Doesn't See…
Author: - Katt
Rating: - G (R eventually)
Pairing: - McShep
Feedback: - Like it or loathe it let me know
Disclaimer: - I own nothing, intend no infringement – please don't sue me.
Author's Notes: - A series of song fic which look at each episode of the show through slash tinted glasses. The song "I believe In You" is performed by Kylie Minogue and written by Kylie Minogue, Jake Shears and Babydaddy.
I Don't Believe You Know Me – Rising 1 (Rodney's POV)
"I don't believe you know me
Although you know my name
I don't believe the faults I have
Are only mine to blame
I don't believe in magic
It's only in the mind
I don't believe I'd love somebody
Just to pass the time…
But I…I…I believe in you
And I…I…I believe in you."
Elizabeth still wasn't sure if the Major would be joining the Atlantis expedition or not. It seemed Major Sheppard had a choice in the matter despite the fact he had the most powerful form of the Ancient gene yet found in any human. Rodney couldn't see why he couldn't just be ordered to go, wasn't that what the military were good at, ordering people around, they certainly hadn't had a problem with it when he'd been banished to Siberia.
Thinking about the Major and his genetics brought with it the inevitable spike of jealousy that Rodney tried very hard to push away. After all here he was a genius, the greatest mind of his generation and an expert in all things Ancient yet he was deprived of the vital gene. While an accident of birth gave it, and all its advantages, to a cocky flyboy who didn't seem to have enough sense to see how lucky he was.
Sheppard just sat in the control chair and conjured beauty up out of thin air effortlessly. Holographic images that shimmered and danced like starlight. While all Rodney could do was watch and burn with envy feeling the sour bite of bitterness in the back of his throat. Thoughtless words from long ago which had battered the already fragile psyche of a lonely, misunderstood child came back to haunt him – "You have no art."
Despite the fact Sheppard reminded Rodney of everything he was missing he always made sure he was in the chair room every time the Major had returned to sit in that chair. Although Rodney had tried to keep his distance he couldn't help but be drawn a little closer when the other man wove magic and made the stars themselves dance.
"I don't believe that beauty
Will ever be replaced
I don't believe a masterpiece
Could ever match you face
The joker's always smiling
In every hand that's dealt
I don't believe that when you die
Your presence isn't felt
But I…I…I believe in you
And I…I…I believe in you."
It was just to observe the chair and the gene in action Rodney told himself. If he made sure to press some artifact or other into the other man's hands brusquely asking him to 'think' it on while making sure to look anywhere but into the Major's face, it had nothing to do with warm green eyes that seemed to smile just at him or the feel of skin under his fingertips as their hands touched briefly. It had nothing to do with the long, lean lines of the body that would be laid out before him.
And if you ever have to go away
Nothing in my world could ever be the same
Nothing lasts for ever, but together til the end
I'll give you everything I have again and again
'Cause I believe in you, I believe in,
I believe in you, I believe in,
I believe in you, I believe in,
I believe in you, I believe in."
Rodney wondered briefly if he should contact Elizabeth again to see if she'd heard from the SGC about Sheppard yet, but stopped himself at the last moment. He'd told her he was interested in the Major's decision for the good of the mission, that someone with that strong a gene would be a vital asset, but if he kept asking maybe she'd become curious about his true reasons.
His true reasons. He couldn't tell her that he dreamt about green eyes gazing up at him as he felt that lithe body squirming under his. He couldn't tell her that the prospect of leaving Earth behind, perhaps forever, seemed a little less daunting with the thought of Major John Sheppard stepping through the stargate beside him. He couldn't tell her that despite the fact that Colonel Sumner and his multi-national force of marines were the best Earth had to offer he somehow just knew he'd be safer with one cocky flyboy there too.
"I believe, I believe, I believe in you…"