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Chapter 5

It had been about 3 and a half weeks since the party, and was also the last time Spencer had seen Ashley. She had called her everyday since then, but Ashley had avoided her phone calls every time. One day when she did answer the call she just yelled at her. She had completely flipped out, she didn't let Spencer get one word in the entire time. By the end of the phone call both girls were in tears. With nothing else needed to say Ashley hung up. Spencer, since then, had been too scared to call her back so she didn't. Ashley had been upset that day and didn't mean to take out all her frustrations on her, but it was too late, what said was said. Neither had called nor tried to call the other, deep down though whenever the phone rang both had hoped that it was the other calling, but it never was.

During that time Ashley had met some else, her name was Alex she was cute, blonde and really sweet. She had reminded Ashley of Spencer, although she would never admit it. Spencer in the mean time had been hanging out with Aiden a lot. They were becoming really good friends, heck they were best friends nothing more and they both knew that. Aiden hadn't really spoken to Ashley either, but she did end up forgiving him. He had gone over to her house to apologize several times, so she forgave him.

At the Carlin's house

Spencer was lying down on her bed looking up at the ceiling, once again. Thoughts running through her head, she was thinking of Aiden, her family, school and of course Ashley. Moments passed and now Spencer was debating on whether she should get up or stay in bed. She turned to the clock, it read 11:35 a.m., and she then came to the conclusion of getting up. She walked to the bathroom and got into the shower.

At the Davies's house

Ashley had still been asleep, she was lying on her back snoring softly. Someone slipped into her room, made their way over to her and sat on top of her. She (Ashley) felt someone on her, hoping for it to be 'her' she opened her eyes to reveal Alex. Ashley had a disappointed look on her face, she noticed that Alex had been looking at her so she quickly vanished the look, but it was too late, Alex had already noticed it.

Alex-" Hey? Are you ok?"

Ashley gave her a soft smile " ya I'm fine."

Alex smiled back at her, she leaned into to kiss her but Ashley turned away.

Alex-"What's wrong?"

Ashley-" Oh nothing...I haven't brushed my teeth yet...it's gross."

Alex chuckled "I don't mind." she leaned in again but Ashley quickly turned away and got off the bed.

Ashley-"I rather not." Alex noticed that something was wrong with Ashley, but before she could ask her Ashley questioned her. "So, like, what are you doing here so early?"

Alex-"oh right...I was wondering if you would like to get something to eat and then maybe head to the beach."

Ashley considered the suggestion, she didn't really want to go, but then again it could help her get her mind off of things. "Sure I guess. Just let me go get ready."

Alex-" ok sure. I'll be waiting for you." Ashley nodded and made her way towards the bathroom.

Back at the Carlin house

Spencer had just gotten out of the shower, she moved into her room while drying the tips of her hair with her towel. She stood there for a while then grabbed her phone and dialed Aiden.

'Ring' ...'Ring'...'Ring' he finally picked up. "Hello?"

Spencer-"Aiden hey it's Spencer.

Aiden-" what's up?"

Spencer-" uhh not much just bored. You?"

Aiden-" Same."

Spencer-" That's great cuz I was wondering if u you would want to hang out.."

Aiden-" Sure what did you have in mind?"

Spencer-" How bout the beach? We can both get a tan."

Aiden-" Sure sounds fun, but I'm not so sure bout the whole tan thing. That's more of a girl thing."

Spencer-" But I thought you were one of the girls?"

Aiden-" Whatever."

Spencer giggled into the phone " ok so can you pick me up?"

Aiden-" sure how bout in half an hour?"

Spencer-" that sounds great, I'll see you then." they said their goodbyes and hung up.

Ashley and Alex were both at the beach trying to get their own tans. They laid in silence, Alex turned to Ashley and found that she was crying.

Alex-" hey, what's wrong?" she was now starting to get worried.

Ashley abruptly wiped her tears away. "Nothing I'm just gonna go for a walk." Before Alex could protest, Ashley got up and walked away. Alex wanted to follow her, but knew that Ashley needed to be alone right now, so she just watched her walk away.

Ashley had been walking for a couple of minutes now. She couldn't get Spencer off her mind, she tried to think of other things but it all seemed to remind her of Spencer. She was fed up now, she couldn't deny it any longer. She missed Spencer , her smile, her touch, her laugh, just everything about her. She wanted her back, but she didn't know if she could because of the way she treated her over the phone that one time and because she was afraid. ' Maybe she doesn't want tot talk to me, maybe she hates me, maybe she's seeing someone else, or maybe just maybe she misses me too' Ashley thought to herself.

A smile spread across her face as she remembered all the good, fun and happy moments her and Spencer had shared. She knew now that her and Spencer were meant to be, if they weren't then she didn't know anything. Ashley wanted to talk to her, to hold her, to be there for her, to be the one to wipe her tears away when she was crying. But all her warm thoughts came to a halt when she realized that she couldn't do any of that especially with Alex around. She didn't know what she was going to do but she had to think quickly.

Aiden had arrived at Spencer's house, he was waiting patiently for Spencer in the living room until Glen walked in.

Glen-" well, well look who we have here." Aiden ignored him not wanting to start anything with him. "Why are you here? Did you come to make my sister dry again?"

He was about to comment back, but luckily Spencer walked in.

Spencer-" Sorry for making you wait Aiden, let's go."

Glen looked peeved, he said nothing and watched them go. Once they were gone he punched a pillow and went up to his room.

Spencer and Aiden arrived at the beach about ½ an hour later. She stepped out of the car while Aiden went to the back and got out some sun block, sun glasses etc. They made their way over to the sand area and placed the towels on the ground. Spencer reached out for the sun block and covered herself, but she couldn't seem to reach her back. Aiden watched her struggle and laughed.

Aiden: "Do you need help with that?"

Spencer: "Would you mind?"

Aiden nodded and made his way over to her and gently rubbed the sun block on her back. About 20 minutes later Aiden was playing volleyball with a bunch of girls. He was 'showing' them how to spike the ball. Spencer was just watching them having fun and laughing from afar. She hadn't really felt like playing so she told them she'd sit it out. She turned to see all the others on the beach having fun, laughing, playing, and some were even building sand castles. She smiled to herself, the last time she was like that was when she was with Ashley. The reminder of her made Spencer feel sad and lonely again. She wondered how different it would be if Aiden hadn't kissed her. Would her and Ashley still be together? Would they be happy? What would they be doing right this moment?

Out of the blue something out of the corner caught her attention. She turned to see what or who it was, she squinted a little and realized that it truly was 'her'. She started to get nervous, she was kind of unable to move. She didn't know if she should go over to her and apologize or if she should stay where she was and let her walk out of her life once again.

She thought of all the possibilities of what would happen if she did go…she would get to talk to her again, get to hear her voice, get to see how she is and maybe even get to see her smile. Then maybe if she did go Ashley would turn and walk away or maybe she would yell at her continually. She didn't know what to do, but she had to decide fast.

R and R please!

-Sam