Hey guys. So, I just uploaded that bit with Sayid and apparently my Charlie muse had to have a say in something, so here you go. This takes place in Season 1, before The Moth episode happens. Hope you guys enjoy.
I feel so alone here. Everyone seems to have someone.. someone that they have either bonded to, or already know. Everything I have.. everything I ever had, is at home. Or was at home. Now I'm here, on this bloody island- all because of a mistake. And we don't even know what it was.
Everyone treats me as though I'm fragile too.. as though, I'm about to break. Sure I'm bloody on drugs, but I don't look that messed up- do I? It's not like I have a fucking mirror to check up on myself. Course.. I did get a glance of myself in a stream. I look like my brother did, but worse- because I'm here, without him. Without anyone.
He's the reason why I'm in this fucking mess. The reason why I'm hooked on these.. demons that haunt me, even in my sleep. I don't think I can go much longer without them. Even if I do, I'm still going to bloody Hell. I should have never let Liam convinced me to stay in bloody Driveshaft. I would have never.. ever.. been here.
Yet, I can't be without the drugs. The drugs consume me, and I consume them. I loose myself to them.. and I'm perfectly okay with that.
Christ I'm a mess.