Author's Note: I AM SO SORRY ABOUT THE READING IN THE FIRST TWO CHAPTERS! TRYING TO GET USED TO THIS NEW SYSTEM! PLEASE REVIEW! I WANT TO SEE IF I SHOULD KEEP THIS STORY GOING. :-)
Chapter 3: I Want to Make You Smile
Olivia drove in the rain as Elliot just sat in the passenger seat. He just sat there. He was so raw, he couldn't think of anything but what had just happened moments before. He wasn't speaking. He wasn't listening. He was just sitting there, looking at the busy streets of New York.
As Elliot was in this isolated state, Olivia called Cragen to let him know they were taking the rest of the day off. She then pulled up to her parking space just in front of her apartment in Queens. They walked into the house dripping wet and Elliot just stood in the doorway.
"Elliot, would you close the door please? The rain is coming in!" Olivia yelled getting some towels from the linen closet. He went and sat in the kitchen drinking a cup of very cold coffee he found in her coffee pot. Olivia came and took his coat off and left it on the counter. "El, do you want to talk to me. God Im sorry. You are free to stay here as long as you need. Are you hungry?" With no response, she became sympathetic and slightly impatient. "Elliot, Im going to order a pepperoni pizza. That is your absolute favorite pizza. Then we could eat. Okay?"
As she was about to place the order, she saw a coffee mug fly past her head into the fireplace and it shattered. "How could she do that to me Liv? After twenty years, she does this! How much of our relationship has been lies? Damn it Olivia! I gave up my happiness for her and the kids and look at what she does! She goes screwing around for 6 years with your ex-husband! God, ain't it a small freakin' world or what?"
He said this and fell to his knees crying. Olivia knelt beside him and layed his head against her shoulder. They knelt there in that small kitchen for minutes as he tried to collect himself.
"Hey Liv, can I take a shower? I feel so tired, maybe that will help."
" Sure El. You know where the towels are."
As he jumped in the shower, she ordered the pizza and got a couple of beers in the fridge if he needed them tonight. She heard the door knock. It was Casey standing there.
"Liv, I got a warrant for the Diez case. We can have him on trial by next week. What are you doing here? You are never not at the squad room." ÒCasey, its a long LONG complicated story. Thank you for the warrant and go and give it to Cragen. I took a day off.Ó
"What's going on? Is the shower on? God Olivia, you have a guy in here don't you! Oh my gosh Liv, I didn't think you'd do something like this! Whose here? Can I meet him?"
Before she could say anything, Elliot came drenched from head to toe in only a towel. His abs still had soap on them."Liv, can I change in your room? It got too steamy in the bathroom. Thanks. Hey Casey."
Casey was shocked. "What the hell happened? Are you guys having a fling. Damn Olivia, he's married! You bad girl!"
"No, No Casey, Its not what you think at all. Elliot is just staying at my place for right now for personal reasons. Even though you are one of my best friends, I need you to go. I'll call you later."
"Yeah, I know why you want me to go. Go get him tiger MEOW!"
"BYE!" Olivia said locking the wooden door. The last thing Elliot needed was gossip around the station. Damn he looked good in that towel! Liv stop thinking that! Elliot needs you now more than ever right now!
Elliot came out of her room in a pair of sweat pant and a muscle man tank top. He went and got a beer from the fridge and sat on the couch. Olivia soon followed and she rested her legs on him.
"Olivia, thank you for being here for me. You are pretty much the only one I truly trust. Thank you."
"You are never a problem, ever Elliot. You are my best friend and only want happiness for you."
"Olivia, don't you know you are what makes me smile?"
"Don't say that Elliot. Lets get some business stuff taken care of. You and the kids can stay here as long as you need. Do you want me to be with you when you file for divorce?"
"No, Liv. I think I need to do that on my own. As for us living here, it is only temporary until I can find a place for us to live."
"You are always welcome her Elliot Stabler... always."
I really need to stop! I am getting too close! Elliot needs me, his best friend, his partner, not a lover. Snap out of it. Elliot reached over and touched Olivia's face with the sides of his thumbs. Her touch was something he craved, but could never act upon. As he saw her moving away, he grabbed and kissed her hand like he did at the restaurant. "Elliot," she said softly. He leaned in and then the door bell rang. "Elliot. Im going to get the pizza. Get yourself a couple beers."
It was getting late and the only thing they had been consuming was pizza and beer for 5 hours. Olivia was slightly tipsy, whereas Elliot was almost drunk.
"You know, Olivia, Kathy hated it when I'd do this," Elliot took a piece of pepperoni pizza, rolled it up and ate it like a burrito, "She always told me I was being sloppy and that I was setting a bad example for the kids. I guess cheating on your spouse for over five years is a worse example than rolling your pizza in a burrito!"
"Elliot, you need to sit down and rest. Its getting late."
"Olivia, O-LIV-I-A! I have been late for a lot of things. I have been putting aside wants and needs and desires for years to make Kathy happy for years. She even came to me saying that I WAS HAVING AN AFFAIR! God, she's psycho!"
"Wow, Elliot I had no idea."
"Well, I guess I always having an affair... with my heart"
"Oh, Elliot! Don't say that. Its the beer talking."
"No Olivia, Im not bullshitting! I can't believe how blind you are right now."
"Me, blind! No way Elliot Stabler! What are you talking about?"
"You Olivia! I love you damn it!"
She was shocked. The words he had always wanted to say he is telling her right now. She could hardly believe it. "No Elliot, you love Kathy."
"LovED Kathy! I fell out of love with her years ago. You are the one who I can always trust. Its always been you. God Olivia, It has always been you." He stumbled and landed on the couch right next to her. He layed his head in her lap and she petted his head. Slowly and gracefully. "Elliot, I don't know if you know this, but I have wanted you for a long time. I have been the one who rubs your shoulders at work or makes you smile. I think what I am trying to say is that I love you too." She looked down and saw Elliot sleeping snoring ever so lightly. She kissed his forehead, put a trash can by the couch for tomorrow morning's bad wake up call and covered him with a blanket. She leaned over the side of the couch and kissed him again on the forehead. "Its not like you are going to remember anything tomorrow. Goodnight my love, I love you." She shut the kitchen lights and closed her bedroom door. She cried one single tear and placed herself underneath the covers. She shut her eyes and fell asleep instantly.
As Elliot was in this isolated state, Olivia called Cragen to let him know they were taking the rest of the day off. She then pulled up to her parking space just in front of her apartment in Queens. They walked into the house dripping wet and Elliot just stood in the doorway.
"Elliot, would you close the door please? The rain is coming in!" Olivia yelled getting some towels from the linen closet. He went and sat in the kitchen drinking a cup of very cold coffee he found in her coffee pot. Olivia came and took his coat off and left it on the counter. "El, do you want to talk to me. God Im sorry. You are free to stay here as long as you need. Are you hungry?" With no response, she became sympathetic and slightly impatient. "Elliot, Im going to order a pepperoni pizza. That is your absolute favorite pizza. Then we could eat. Okay?"
As she was about to place the order, she saw a coffee mug fly past her head into the fireplace and it shattered. "How could she do that to me Liv? After twenty years, she does this! How much of our relationship has been lies? Damn it Olivia! I gave up my happiness for her and the kids and look at what she does! She goes screwing around for 6 years with your ex-husband! God, ain't it a small freakin' world or what?"
He said this and fell to his knees crying. Olivia knelt beside him and layed his head against her shoulder. They knelt there in that small kitchen for minutes as he tried to collect himself.
"Hey Liv, can I take a shower? I feel so tired, maybe that will help."
" Sure El. You know where the towels are."
As he jumped in the shower, she ordered the pizza and got a couple of beers in the fridge if he needed them tonight. She heard the door knock. It was Casey standing there.
"Liv, I got a warrant for the Diez case. We can have him on trial by next week. What are you doing here? You are never not at the squad room." ÒCasey, its a long LONG complicated story. Thank you for the warrant and go and give it to Cragen. I took a day off.Ó
"What's going on? Is the shower on? God Olivia, you have a guy in here don't you! Oh my gosh Liv, I didn't think you'd do something like this! Whose here? Can I meet him?"
Before she could say anything, Elliot came drenched from head to toe in only a towel. His abs still had soap on them."Liv, can I change in your room? It got too steamy in the bathroom. Thanks. Hey Casey."
Casey was shocked. "What the hell happened? Are you guys having a fling. Damn Olivia, he's married! You bad girl!"
"No, No Casey, Its not what you think at all. Elliot is just staying at my place for right now for personal reasons. Even though you are one of my best friends, I need you to go. I'll call you later."
"Yeah, I know why you want me to go. Go get him tiger MEOW!"
"BYE!" Olivia said locking the wooden door. The last thing Elliot needed was gossip around the station. Damn he looked good in that towel! Liv stop thinking that! Elliot needs you now more than ever right now!
Elliot came out of her room in a pair of sweat pant and a muscle man tank top. He went and got a beer from the fridge and sat on the couch. Olivia soon followed and she rested her legs on him.
"Olivia, thank you for being here for me. You are pretty much the only one I truly trust. Thank you."
"You are never a problem, ever Elliot. You are my best friend and only want happiness for you."
"Olivia, don't you know you are what makes me smile?"
"Don't say that Elliot. Lets get some business stuff taken care of. You and the kids can stay here as long as you need. Do you want me to be with you when you file for divorce?"
"No, Liv. I think I need to do that on my own. As for us living here, it is only temporary until I can find a place for us to live."
"You are always welcome her Elliot Stabler... always."
I really need to stop! I am getting too close! Elliot needs me, his best friend, his partner, not a lover. Snap out of it. Elliot reached over and touched Olivia's face with the sides of his thumbs. Her touch was something he craved, but could never act upon. As he saw her moving away, he grabbed and kissed her hand like he did at the restaurant. "Elliot," she said softly. He leaned in and then the door bell rang. "Elliot. Im going to get the pizza. Get yourself a couple beers."
It was getting late and the only thing they had been consuming was pizza and beer for 5 hours. Olivia was slightly tipsy, whereas Elliot was almost drunk.
"You know, Olivia, Kathy hated it when I'd do this," Elliot took a piece of pepperoni pizza, rolled it up and ate it like a burrito, "She always told me I was being sloppy and that I was setting a bad example for the kids. I guess cheating on your spouse for over five years is a worse example than rolling your pizza in a burrito!"
"Elliot, you need to sit down and rest. Its getting late."
"Olivia, O-LIV-I-A! I have been late for a lot of things. I have been putting aside wants and needs and desires for years to make Kathy happy for years. She even came to me saying that I WAS HAVING AN AFFAIR! God, she's psycho!"
"Wow, Elliot I had no idea."
"Well, I guess I always having an affair... with my heart"
"Oh, Elliot! Don't say that. Its the beer talking."
"No Olivia, Im not bullshitting! I can't believe how blind you are right now."
"Me, blind! No way Elliot Stabler! What are you talking about?"
"You Olivia! I love you damn it!"
She was shocked. The words he had always wanted to say he is telling her right now. She could hardly believe it. "No Elliot, you love Kathy."
"LovED Kathy! I fell out of love with her years ago. You are the one who I can always trust. Its always been you. God Olivia, It has always been you." He stumbled and landed on the couch right next to her. He layed his head in her lap and she petted his head. Slowly and gracefully. "Elliot, I don't know if you know this, but I have wanted you for a long time. I have been the one who rubs your shoulders at work or makes you smile. I think what I am trying to say is that I love you too." She looked down and saw Elliot sleeping snoring ever so lightly. She kissed his forehead, put a trash can by the couch for tomorrow morning's bad wake up call and covered him with a blanket. She leaned over the side of the couch and kissed him again on the forehead. "Its not like you are going to remember anything tomorrow. Goodnight my love, I love you." She shut the kitchen lights and closed her bedroom door. She cried one single tear and placed herself underneath the covers. She shut her eyes and fell asleep instantly.