NEXT MORNING.
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Jarod slowly opened his eyes, the first thing he saw was Miss Parker, still sleeping with her head on his chest and her arms tightly wrapped around him. He smiled at the sight. For a while he just lay there, enjoying the closeness. But he realized he couldn't let this go on much longer. If Miss Parker woke up now she would be really pissed. There was only one thing to do. Carefully, Jarod loosened her arms from her tight embrace.
Miss Parker moaned and tried to lay comfortable, wrapping her arms tighter around him. This made it harder for Jarod to do what he was doing. When Miss Parker was completely awake, she realized what Jarod was trying to do.
¤¤¤ No... let me stay like this... please? ¤¤¤
Without knowing she was awake, Jarod gently rolled her over placing her beside him instead. ¤¤¤ I'm so sorry; I wish it didn't have to be like this. ¤¤¤
Miss Parker felt a tear roll down her cheek; she didn't bother to fight them. ¤¤¤ He doesn't like me... ¤¤¤ She rolled over to her side, turning her back against Jarod. She couldn't let him see that she was crying.
She heard Jarod walking across the room, and soon the shower sounded. Miss Parker opened her eyes and watched the closed door.
"Why Jarod?" she whispered to herself.
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A couple of hours later they were in the car, driving for a new place. Miss Parker was quiet the whole time and Jarod keep giving her puzzled looks. Something was wrong and he knew it. Maybe she was still mad. Jarod slowly shook his head. This wasn't fun, it wasn't working. ¤¤¤ I have to tell her. ¤¤¤
Miss Parker stubbornly stared at the road in front of her. She wanted to tell him; maybe it would be different if he knew? She wanted him to know, she wanted that so much.
"Miss Parker, we can't go on like this, it's not working... we're not working..." Jarod said sadly. ¤¤¤ Please, just tell me what's wrong... we can work it out. ¤¤¤
Miss Parker turned her head and gave him a look. She couldn't believe what she'd just heard. Of course it was working. It had to! ¤¤¤ I was just going to tell you, how can you do this? ¤¤¤
"Fine," she mumbled, struggling to hold back the tears that threatened to fall.
"I'm sorry but..." Jarod started but got interrupted.
"I don't wanna hear it, stop the car," Miss Parker demanded. ¤¤¤ I have to get out of here before I start to cry. ¤¤¤
Jarod gave her a confused look.
"Just stop the car dammit!" Miss Parker screamed. ¤¤¤ I can't take it anymore! ¤¤¤ Sighing Jarod did as she said.
Without saying anything Miss Parker got out, leaving Jarod staring after her.
"Where are you going?!" he yelled. ¤¤¤ I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt you. ¤¤¤
"It doesn't matter Jarod! It's over, this whole thing is over!" Miss Parker screamed. She didn't care where she was going, she didn't care if she got lost in the forest, she just had to get away from him. As she'd ran for what she thought was an eternity, she reached a river, and was forced to stop. Breathing heavily and with a lot of bleeding scratches from different trees and branches, she sank to the ground. She scanned the surroundings; she had no idea of where she was. She had to admit this was the dumbest thing she'd done in a long time, how could she have been so damn stupid?
Suddenly a voice sounded, Miss Parker looked up and saw Jarod coming towards her.
"Parker? I'm sorry," he said.
Miss Parker didn't say anything, she just stared at him dumbly. ¤¤¤ Why did he have to follow? ¤¤¤
"I didn't know you would react to strong, I'm sorry," Jarod said as he sat down next to her. ¤¤¤ She's bleeding... oh no, it's my fault... ¤¤¤
"Are you okay?" ¤¤¤ Of course she's not okay you idiot! ¤¤¤
Miss Parker still didn't answer. Jarod didn't force her either. Together they just sat there, watching the water.
"Jarod... I wasn't asleep..." Miss Parker whispered.
First Jarod was confused, but then he realized she was talking about last night. He gasped. Was it possible that Miss Parker did that on purpose? Suddenly a thought struck him, Miss Parker had been trying to tell him how she felt, and he'd ruined everything by pushing her away. Of course she was upset. ¤¤¤ Holy shit! ¤¤¤
"I wanted to tell you, I wanted that so much... but I wasn't sure if you would let me stay like that... so I pretended to sleep... I just didn't want to feel so lonely," Miss Parker said in a low voice.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know... I thought you would be mad if you woke up and... that's why I moved you... I never wanted to," Jarod said.
"Are you sure?"
"Of course," Jarod whispered. He reached out to wipe away the blood that was slowly running down her cheek. Miss Parker trembled slightly, but didn't move away. ¤¤¤ Oh Jarod, I love you. ¤¤¤
"Jarod... did you mean that? That it's not working, do you want me to leave you?" Miss Parker asked. ¤¤¤ Say no, please I can't live without you. ¤¤¤
Jarod gave her a sad look. "No, never... I love you too much," he confessed.
Miss Parker stared at him, shocked. She opened her mouth, but was too stunned to talk. ¤¤¤ Oh my god! Wow! ¤¤¤
"We should go back to the car," she finally said, trying to change the subject. Jarod nodded.
"Are you sure you're okay?" he asked.
"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" ¤¤¤ I couldn't be better! ¤¤¤
"Never mind," Jarod said. He got up on his feet and started to walk, Miss Parker slowly followed him. Suddenly she stopped.
"Where are you going? That's the wrong way," she said.
Jarod shook his head. "No this is where we came from," he said. ¤¤¤ I'm sure it is. ¤¤¤
"No!" Miss Parker said stubbornly. Jarod looked around confused. ¤¤¤ Isn't it? ¤¤¤
"But I'm sure..." he started.
"Fine, go wherever you want, I'm going back to the car," Miss Parker said, turning and started to walk in the opposite direction. Jarod frowned. Maybe she was right? Suddenly he wasn't sure of anything. Hesitating he followed Miss Parker.
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"Okay, I admit, I was wrong... what do we do now?" Miss Parker said annoyed. ¤¤¤ Great! Just fucking great! Now we're lost! And it's my fault... ¤¤¤
Jarod sighed. "I don't know. Why won't you ever learn to listen to me?" he said.
"Because I don't trust people! And that includes you!" Miss Parker snapped. ¤¤¤ Please don't take that seriously, I do trust you. ¤¤¤
"Well, if you don't want to spend the nigh in the woods, I suggest we better start cooperating."
Miss Parker nodded. "Should we split up?" ¤¤¤ Don't leave me. ¤¤¤
"No."
Miss Parker nodded a second time. ¤¤¤ Thank god. ¤¤¤
She was quiet for a long time. Glancing at Jarod, she realized she should say something. She sighed. She couldn't believe how much trouble she had caused. If it hadn't been for her, none of this would have happened.
"Jarod... I'm sorry..." she mumbled. "I understand if you don't want to have anything to do with me after this."
"Don't worry about that, you can be really annoying sometimes, but I would never desert you... I care about you, and you know that," Jarod smiled. ¤¤¤ How can she even think I would not want to be with her? ¤¤¤
"And I should care about that because...?" Miss Parker snarled.
Jarod started at her. ¤¤¤ Oh great, not again. ¤¤¤ "What is wrong with you? First you're nice and want to snuggle, and now you act like... well, like you," he said.
"Yeah that's right! Just forget what happened last night, forget that moment of weakness."
"But you said..." Jarod started but Miss Parker cut him off.
"I didn't mean it! It won't happen again. Just forget it!" Miss Parker snapped. ¤¤¤ Oh god... why did I say that? I'm so sorry...¤¤¤
Jarod gave her a sad look. He knew she didn't mean what she said, but hearing those words still hurt. Why would it be so hard? Why couldn't they just be happy together? They both wanted it, he knew that. And he also knew it was worth fighting for. Miss Parker was. He had to help her let her guard down.
"Parker, it's not weak, I will never think you are weak, just let me help you... I'll do anything for you."
Miss Parker looked down at her feet. She swallowed hard. "It's just so hard for me... I don't know how to act..." she mumbled. ¤¤¤ What IS wrong with me? ¤¤¤
Jarod smiled. "I know, but you don't have to do anything, just be yourself," he said.
Miss Parker gave him a small smile in return. "I'll try," she said. ¤¤¤ Thank you for not giving up on me. ¤¤¤
"Good, now let's find the car!"
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Jarod slowly opened his eyes, the first thing he saw was Miss Parker, still sleeping with her head on his chest and her arms tightly wrapped around him. He smiled at the sight. For a while he just lay there, enjoying the closeness. But he realized he couldn't let this go on much longer. If Miss Parker woke up now she would be really pissed. There was only one thing to do. Carefully, Jarod loosened her arms from her tight embrace.
Miss Parker moaned and tried to lay comfortable, wrapping her arms tighter around him. This made it harder for Jarod to do what he was doing. When Miss Parker was completely awake, she realized what Jarod was trying to do.
¤¤¤ No... let me stay like this... please? ¤¤¤
Without knowing she was awake, Jarod gently rolled her over placing her beside him instead. ¤¤¤ I'm so sorry; I wish it didn't have to be like this. ¤¤¤
Miss Parker felt a tear roll down her cheek; she didn't bother to fight them. ¤¤¤ He doesn't like me... ¤¤¤ She rolled over to her side, turning her back against Jarod. She couldn't let him see that she was crying.
She heard Jarod walking across the room, and soon the shower sounded. Miss Parker opened her eyes and watched the closed door.
"Why Jarod?" she whispered to herself.
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A couple of hours later they were in the car, driving for a new place. Miss Parker was quiet the whole time and Jarod keep giving her puzzled looks. Something was wrong and he knew it. Maybe she was still mad. Jarod slowly shook his head. This wasn't fun, it wasn't working. ¤¤¤ I have to tell her. ¤¤¤
Miss Parker stubbornly stared at the road in front of her. She wanted to tell him; maybe it would be different if he knew? She wanted him to know, she wanted that so much.
"Miss Parker, we can't go on like this, it's not working... we're not working..." Jarod said sadly. ¤¤¤ Please, just tell me what's wrong... we can work it out. ¤¤¤
Miss Parker turned her head and gave him a look. She couldn't believe what she'd just heard. Of course it was working. It had to! ¤¤¤ I was just going to tell you, how can you do this? ¤¤¤
"Fine," she mumbled, struggling to hold back the tears that threatened to fall.
"I'm sorry but..." Jarod started but got interrupted.
"I don't wanna hear it, stop the car," Miss Parker demanded. ¤¤¤ I have to get out of here before I start to cry. ¤¤¤
Jarod gave her a confused look.
"Just stop the car dammit!" Miss Parker screamed. ¤¤¤ I can't take it anymore! ¤¤¤ Sighing Jarod did as she said.
Without saying anything Miss Parker got out, leaving Jarod staring after her.
"Where are you going?!" he yelled. ¤¤¤ I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt you. ¤¤¤
"It doesn't matter Jarod! It's over, this whole thing is over!" Miss Parker screamed. She didn't care where she was going, she didn't care if she got lost in the forest, she just had to get away from him. As she'd ran for what she thought was an eternity, she reached a river, and was forced to stop. Breathing heavily and with a lot of bleeding scratches from different trees and branches, she sank to the ground. She scanned the surroundings; she had no idea of where she was. She had to admit this was the dumbest thing she'd done in a long time, how could she have been so damn stupid?
Suddenly a voice sounded, Miss Parker looked up and saw Jarod coming towards her.
"Parker? I'm sorry," he said.
Miss Parker didn't say anything, she just stared at him dumbly. ¤¤¤ Why did he have to follow? ¤¤¤
"I didn't know you would react to strong, I'm sorry," Jarod said as he sat down next to her. ¤¤¤ She's bleeding... oh no, it's my fault... ¤¤¤
"Are you okay?" ¤¤¤ Of course she's not okay you idiot! ¤¤¤
Miss Parker still didn't answer. Jarod didn't force her either. Together they just sat there, watching the water.
"Jarod... I wasn't asleep..." Miss Parker whispered.
First Jarod was confused, but then he realized she was talking about last night. He gasped. Was it possible that Miss Parker did that on purpose? Suddenly a thought struck him, Miss Parker had been trying to tell him how she felt, and he'd ruined everything by pushing her away. Of course she was upset. ¤¤¤ Holy shit! ¤¤¤
"I wanted to tell you, I wanted that so much... but I wasn't sure if you would let me stay like that... so I pretended to sleep... I just didn't want to feel so lonely," Miss Parker said in a low voice.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know... I thought you would be mad if you woke up and... that's why I moved you... I never wanted to," Jarod said.
"Are you sure?"
"Of course," Jarod whispered. He reached out to wipe away the blood that was slowly running down her cheek. Miss Parker trembled slightly, but didn't move away. ¤¤¤ Oh Jarod, I love you. ¤¤¤
"Jarod... did you mean that? That it's not working, do you want me to leave you?" Miss Parker asked. ¤¤¤ Say no, please I can't live without you. ¤¤¤
Jarod gave her a sad look. "No, never... I love you too much," he confessed.
Miss Parker stared at him, shocked. She opened her mouth, but was too stunned to talk. ¤¤¤ Oh my god! Wow! ¤¤¤
"We should go back to the car," she finally said, trying to change the subject. Jarod nodded.
"Are you sure you're okay?" he asked.
"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" ¤¤¤ I couldn't be better! ¤¤¤
"Never mind," Jarod said. He got up on his feet and started to walk, Miss Parker slowly followed him. Suddenly she stopped.
"Where are you going? That's the wrong way," she said.
Jarod shook his head. "No this is where we came from," he said. ¤¤¤ I'm sure it is. ¤¤¤
"No!" Miss Parker said stubbornly. Jarod looked around confused. ¤¤¤ Isn't it? ¤¤¤
"But I'm sure..." he started.
"Fine, go wherever you want, I'm going back to the car," Miss Parker said, turning and started to walk in the opposite direction. Jarod frowned. Maybe she was right? Suddenly he wasn't sure of anything. Hesitating he followed Miss Parker.
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"Okay, I admit, I was wrong... what do we do now?" Miss Parker said annoyed. ¤¤¤ Great! Just fucking great! Now we're lost! And it's my fault... ¤¤¤
Jarod sighed. "I don't know. Why won't you ever learn to listen to me?" he said.
"Because I don't trust people! And that includes you!" Miss Parker snapped. ¤¤¤ Please don't take that seriously, I do trust you. ¤¤¤
"Well, if you don't want to spend the nigh in the woods, I suggest we better start cooperating."
Miss Parker nodded. "Should we split up?" ¤¤¤ Don't leave me. ¤¤¤
"No."
Miss Parker nodded a second time. ¤¤¤ Thank god. ¤¤¤
She was quiet for a long time. Glancing at Jarod, she realized she should say something. She sighed. She couldn't believe how much trouble she had caused. If it hadn't been for her, none of this would have happened.
"Jarod... I'm sorry..." she mumbled. "I understand if you don't want to have anything to do with me after this."
"Don't worry about that, you can be really annoying sometimes, but I would never desert you... I care about you, and you know that," Jarod smiled. ¤¤¤ How can she even think I would not want to be with her? ¤¤¤
"And I should care about that because...?" Miss Parker snarled.
Jarod started at her. ¤¤¤ Oh great, not again. ¤¤¤ "What is wrong with you? First you're nice and want to snuggle, and now you act like... well, like you," he said.
"Yeah that's right! Just forget what happened last night, forget that moment of weakness."
"But you said..." Jarod started but Miss Parker cut him off.
"I didn't mean it! It won't happen again. Just forget it!" Miss Parker snapped. ¤¤¤ Oh god... why did I say that? I'm so sorry...¤¤¤
Jarod gave her a sad look. He knew she didn't mean what she said, but hearing those words still hurt. Why would it be so hard? Why couldn't they just be happy together? They both wanted it, he knew that. And he also knew it was worth fighting for. Miss Parker was. He had to help her let her guard down.
"Parker, it's not weak, I will never think you are weak, just let me help you... I'll do anything for you."
Miss Parker looked down at her feet. She swallowed hard. "It's just so hard for me... I don't know how to act..." she mumbled. ¤¤¤ What IS wrong with me? ¤¤¤
Jarod smiled. "I know, but you don't have to do anything, just be yourself," he said.
Miss Parker gave him a small smile in return. "I'll try," she said. ¤¤¤ Thank you for not giving up on me. ¤¤¤
"Good, now let's find the car!"