Edit: I'm editing my chapters so I can insert the name of the Evanescence songs that I've included in my fics. Also, I might insert other songs besides Evanescence so I'll have to reference those then. Oh, and now I'm going to take out some of the into notes. Eventually I'll take out all of the notes, and I might even take out the songs I've included. Maybe. Afterall, I'm going for a somewhat Biblical format, however, this is STILL a fanfic so I shouldn't get too carried away about the format.
Alright, onto the story!
Second Book - Asuka I
The bitter red head collapses in on herself mourning. She fought so hard and for nothing. Her tears trickle and roll off her form and soak into the ground. Grass slowly sprouts from where it lands.
"Gott ha§t mich! Damnez! Damnez alles!", Asuka cries out in German. (Please forgive babelfish's bad translation. It's suppose to say, "God hates me. Damn you! Damn you all!")
"Ha§t wirklich Asuka? Asuka ist nicht allein. Gšttin bin hier. Shinji ist hier. Asuka ist nicht allein.", a female voice replies. ("Does Asuka really hate? Asuka is not alone. I am here. Shinji is here. Asuka is not alone." Note that I used Gšttin instead of ich. Don't worry too much on the German, I won't be using it very often)
"Who's there!", Asuka exclaims standing up suddenly.
"I am here, my daughter. I am always here.", the voice replies from a mysterious mist suddenly appearing before Asuka.
"Mama?"
Curious, Asuka stumbles towards the mist. Upon entering, her entire body seems to become stronger as she stops having trouble walking. She continues her trek with low visibility.
"Mama? Where are you mama?", Asuka cries out, feeling as though her body is shrinking.
(Evanescence - Imaginary Light)
I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming
Monsters calling my name
-The fog slowly fades away.- (Note: - - show the action and are not lyrics)
Let me stay
-A breeze gently kisses the face of Asuka, who is now a little girl again.-
Where there wind will whisper to me
-Asuka looks up at the sky as the fog vanishes completely. Drops of rain begin to trickle down to the Earth. She smiles and laugh as the droplets roll down her face.-
Where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story
-Asuka looks foward and finds herself in a beautiful garden filled with exotic and tropical flowers like none she has ever imagined before.-
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
-Asuka finds a soft area of the meadow and plops down on it as if leaping upon a cloud to rest.-
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
-The meadow and the flowers suddenly disappear. Asuka finds herself back where she was, lying beside Shinji in a dead world where waves of blood crash against a desolate beach. She sits up grabbing her head and screaming.-
Don't say I'm out of touch
With this rampant chaos - your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
-Asuka closes her eyes and envisions the beautiful field of flowers that she was just in.-
The nightmare I built my own world to escape
-Asuka lays back down, the flowers and grass forming around her and bringing her much needed comfort.-
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullabye
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
-Asuka's fantasy garden quickly evaporates, as if it was all a computer generated image infected by a virus, corrupting the pleasant data with the hideous reality. She screams, trying to fight against the horrifying truth and to reclaim her new reality.-
Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreamin
The goddess of imaginary light
-A ghostly image appears before Asuka, and lightly touches her cheeks.-
(End Song)
"Mama?", Asuka inquires, looking up at what had touched her.
The spector silently nods in reply.
Asuka struggles back to her feet and hugs her mother as she becomes solid.
"I'm so afraid, mama! I wasn't strong enough. I did the best I could, but I ran out of time.", Asuka explains crying.
"I know you did, baby. You did you best, and I'm proud of you."
Asuka smiles.
"It hurt. It hurt a lot. They were...they were eating me alive mama! It hurt so much, but it doesn't hurt anymore! I've failed mama! I don't deserve to be alive! I deserve to be in pain!"
"My dear Asuka, you're a good girl. You did your best, it doesn't matter if you failed or not. You did your best and I'm proud of you. You deserve to be alive and happy. That's why you're here. I want you to be happy. Happiness can be found anyone, even in a place as desolate as this. That is, if you look for it. You and Shinji...you are the last of your kind.", Asuka's mother speaks.
"Me and Shinji? Everyone else is dead? Kaji-kun?"
"It is how it is. Now you and Shinji will determine the fate of humanity. I give him to you, and you to him, so that your numbers may mult - "
"What the HELL! What are you trying to say mama?", Asuka demands, no longer seeing this woman as a mother, but as an outsider.
The woman, now a young girl, steps back away from Asuka.
"I tended to your wounds, and now you think to inflict violence upon me. It won't solve anything. I'm not forcing you to do anything against your will. If you choose to let all of your race die with your last breath, I won't intervene. Humans were given free will for a reason. I won't take that back."
With those last words, the goddess disappears.