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"James, would you die for me?"
"Lily!" I sighed in a frustrated tone.
"What?" She asked innocently.
"Why won't you just believe me when I say I love you" I cupped her face in my hands and kissed her softly. She looked at me with glazed eyes and rapidly turned red. She span away from my gaze and began to pack away her books.
We were sitting in the library during one of our free periods together.
She had before been doing her charms home work. I had been watching her, now she was stuffing her charms things back into her bag and I was still watching her.
"Lily where are you going?"
"I just have something to do" She mumbled, making a dash for the door.
"No you don't" I called, running in front of her and blocking the door way.
"James
just let me through please"
"Nope"
"James" She warned.
"I'm not moving until you tell me what everything these past few days have been about"
"What do you mean?"
"You know what I mean Lily, you've been acting strange recently and I want to know why"
"Thanks James"
"Lily you know I didn't mean it like that so just tell me before I have to tickle it out of you"
"Do that James and you'll get a mouth full of teeth"
"Oh Really?" I asked smirking.
"No James…NO!" But I had tackled her to the ground already. Earning me a death glare from Madame Pince. I smirked evilly and went about to tickling her mercilessly on the floor.
"So what is it?" I asked, as I stack my hand up her arm pit and tickled her there.
"Nothing James, now get off!" She giggled.
"Tell me Lily"
"It's nothing ok!"
"It isn't nothing and you know it, now tell me or I'm going for the feet"
"No!"
"Why not?"
"James I can't tell you ok"
"Yes you can"
"No I can't"
"Can"
"James you wouldn't understand"
"Yes I would"
"James!" I was tickling her sides now and she was turning a vivid red.
"James I have a boyfriend already" She gasped. I instantly stopped and stepped away from her.
"You're lying"
"James…James I wish I were but I-"
"No…No Lily I'm your boy friend"
"James I know it's bad but I can explain"
"You're lying"
"James don't"
"Don't what Lily? Don't tell myself the girl I'm in love with isn't cheating on me"
"I didn't mean to get so attached to you James. I wasn't supposed to fall in love with you"
"But you did. Or haven't you Lily? Is that it? You don't love me?"
"I do James" I couldn't understand why she was saying this. I didn't understand anything at that moment. I just wanted to run. How could she have another boyfriend? I was with her all the time.
"So who is he?"
"Excuse me?"
"Who is he Lily? Is it that Richard guy?" She winced at his name. "Because I know about that time you two timed me with him" I was going red myself, and beginning to raise my voice.
"No James. You don't know him. He's a muggle"
"And you didn't mention this earlier because?"
"Because I hadn't heard from him for ages"
"And all of a sudden, you have? This doesn't piece together Lily"
"He sent me a letter James"
"When?"
"A couple of weeks ago"
"And how did he send it to you Lily? He's a muggle"
"Look he came round my house. Asked for me and then when he learned I wasn't there, gave my parents a letter to send to me"
"So when did you start 'going out'?"
"James, I've known him since I was 5. I started going out with him 2 years ago, and then we kind of lost touch. He moved, and I didn't hear from him for ages. But we were always, like, together"
"So you're telling me this guy just came traipsing back into your life all of a sudden and you're still his girlfriend"
"James, I don't know what to say"
"Well I do Lily. Piss off"
"What?"
"Look Lily, I don't know this guy, but I'm sure he's a hell lot smarter, better looking and funnier than me, so why don't we just call it a day then yes? After all, you're already tied down to this guy, who just appeared spontaneously out of nowhere and claimed your heart" My own heart was now in my throat. I was numb all of a sudden, and didn't even realise the tears flowing down my cheeks.
"James-"
"I have to go" She had gotten up from the floor during our little 'heart to heart' and I pushed past her so she nearly tumbled back again.
I raced down the corridor and noticed that she didn't even try to stop me or call me back. What had happened? It was surreal. It was fake. I couldn't believe all of a sudden a boy she hadn't seen for years was now her boy friend. They probably hadn't even been out properly. I didn't know what to do. Suicide wasn't an option. As I was scared of dying. Tracking this boy down and killing him instead was also not an option. Because I was scared to kill him. So what was an option? Sit in my room all day and feel sorry for myself? Yep, that's pretty much all I could do. And it's all I did, for the rest of that day.
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"James mate Lily's at the door"
"Tell her I'm not here"
"Sorry Lily, he's not here"
"James I can hear you"
"Damn it"
"He says damn it"
"I can hear what he says dumbass"
"Oh well sorry; someone has a bad case of PMT"
"James can I talk to you?"
"I have nothing to say to you Lily"
"Well I have plenty to say to you"
"Fine, let her in Sirius"
"Thank you, finally"
"Look Lily I don't feel much like talking at the moment so-"
"That's fine. I'll do the talking then. Look James I've been a fool to even consider still carrying any emotions for Jim"
"Jim?"
"That's his name"
"Oh you mean you're boyfriend's name?"
"James that's why I'm here. Because he isn't my boyfriend"
"Then who the hell is he Lily because you keep changing your mind"
"Ok James, he used to be my boyfriend yeah, but you're my boyfriend now, and I love you James"
"Then why the hell did you even bring him up?"
"Because you tickled it out of me remember"
"And this is what was bothering you?"
"I wanted to see if you loved me enough to forgive me"
"Well Lily, it's something very hard to forgive"
"I know James, but I promise you there's nothing going on with me and this guy. For all I know he could have sprouted an extra head since last time I saw him. It was just too much for me to handle. And you're right. He can't just come traipsing back into my life without explanation. Especially seeing as I haven't even seen him recently"
"Lily…I just don't know if I can-"
"James I love you" And with that she had jumped on me and began kissing me. Suddenly feeling a little turned on I began kissing her back, and it surprised me just how far she was all of a sudden willing to go. She had already tugged my shirt off before I could stop her.
"Lily this isn't what you want"
"Yes it is, I want you" She kissed me roughly on my mouth and began unbuttoning her own shirt.
"Lily don't"
"But I though you wanted to" She gasped between kisses.
"But not because you want to please me"
"Why else would I do it James?"
"I didn't mean that kind of please. I meant that you're just doing it because you feel bad. I don't want to pressure you into anything"
"You didn't seem to mind before James"
"I didn't mind before because I knew it wouldn't hurt you afterwards"
"That doesn't make any sense James"
"Look Lily, let's just slow down here yeah. Don't do anything you don't want to" But she just continued to unbutton her shirt. I grabbed her hand and stopped her. "No" She dropped her hands and I could see her eyes well up with tears. She collapsed against my chest and just sobbed into it. Totally relaxing herself.
"I'm sorry James. I'll never do anything ever to hurt you again, I'm so sorry"
"Shh, don't worry, I know you won't. I was just a little bummed out about the whole thing. That's all. Don't worry" I comforted her and stroked her gently. I cupped her face again in my hands and kissed her softly on the lips. "Forget about that Jim guy, let's focus on us, all on us" I kissed her gently again and she fell silently asleep on my chest. I didn't wake her again till morning.
Sorry this chappie was rubbish but ooooooooooooo well, please read and review thankees! There will be more about the bird thing later I promise lol!
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Simle :D It confuses people...