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-----------I could have...-------------
I could have waited, I could have believed, but would that have ever got me anywhere?
Lily Evans was the most beautiful girl in school. Well, she was in my opinion.
She had fiery red hair long and sleek, most of the time she let it flow down, way past her waist, and when you had stared at her long enough, something I do frequently, it would create a blurry vision, almost like a blazing fire, one burning with a fiery passion. Right I know you might be thinking, "What the hell this boy sounds like a right bunny boiler, and a puffed up one at that" But it's just the way I feel about her, the way I FELT about her. Her eyes were emerald. A beautiful green colour. They sparkled and shined when she smiled, they glazed over when she was over whelmed or angry, and when she was sad, well, they were a dull shade then and most of the time I was the reason for that. Me and Lily never really hit it off, she was a hot tempered girl back in first year and disliked me and my friends immensely, well she disliked me and Sirius, my best friend, immensely, she didn't mind my other friends Remus and Peter. I guess that's what you get for being a prankster man hore. I mean here was James Potter literally begging for one lousy date off one lousy (but in my eyes wonderful) girl when he could have had any slut in the school. INCLUDING HALF OF THE TEACHERS! But then again I always was up for a challenge.
Wait a minute I'm talking about her in past tense aren't I? Well before you ask the poor girl isn't dead. Just the love I have for her, HAD for her. I mean she's got that Mary-sue boy from Ravenclaw now doesn't she? I mean I had my chance with Lily Evans the most perfect girl in the world but as usual I blew it, as I do everything.
Ok let me start from the beginning, way back in our Fifth year.
We were back at Hogwarts for yet another year of Pranks, Romance and oh yeah that thing called learning. I was seated at my usual seat with my usual friends on my usual Gryffindor house table. We were chatting away merrily when the girl of my dreams Lily Evans walks in chatting away to her own friend Melissa. When she saw me she gave me a look of most utter disgust and mumbled something to her friend just loud enough for me to hear her commenting on how
"She had hoped a man eating shark had torn me limb from limb and eaten me over the summer"
I was thoroughly disgruntled at the violence of her mind but decided ignoring it would be the best solution. I mean, maybe if I didn't retaliate she would realise what a nice person I actually am and consider going out with me. Nah.
Upon seeing my stare at the glamorous red head, who by the way had grown even more beautiful over the summer, Sirius slapped me round the head.
"Get over her mate, she's just a girl"
"She's not just a girl Padfoot, she's a goddess"
"Well get over the goddess then" Sirius had always found Lily attractive but not enough so to go cookoo over. He turned round to face her and his jaw dropped.
"What the hell happened to Evans? She got HOTT!"
"SIRIUS!" I whispered fiercely at him shaking his shoulders.
"Put your tongue back in mate" Remus added, chuckling lightly at the scene being made.
"What? Oh sorry, yeah what was it you were saying?"
"Padfoot, you just said Lily was hott!"
"Err, did I? System overload sorry guys, but just look at her, I mean I would NOT mind serving that on a stick!"
"Sirius, not only is that disgusting but it is a morally degrading and sexist remark"
"Oh come on Moony, don't tell me you weren't thinking it too"
"Actually, I wasn't"
"I was" I added in at this moment, still staring intently at the princess a little way down the table from me, now sipping pumpkin juice and laughing at a joke her friend Alice must have just made.
"Yes well you would wouldn't you Prongs mate; after all you have been pining after her affection for the best part of FOUR years!"
"She has curves, and a CLEAVAGE!" Sirius breathed.
"Sirius! You Pig!" Remus said, making a small and quiet Peter burst into a fit of giggles soon cut short by a glare from Sirius.
"Oh come on Moony, you know you were thinking it"
"For the last time Padfoot I was NOT thinking that!"
"Sure" He mumbled under his breath.
For some reason Lily had got up and was walking over to THEM! Had she heard them talking about her hotness? I hoped not.
"Umm, Potter, I just wanted to remind you that we have Prefect duties tonight. McGonagall wants us in her office at 7pm sharp so don't be late, I know you Potter"
"You would know me better if we went on a date" I said smirking, I just couldn't help it.
"As thrilling as that may, or as the case may be not, sound I would rather get to know you at a safe distance, say 10 mile radius, now if you don't mind I have somewhere much more interesting to be. Like in a store cupboard or something"
I didn't get the insult at the time but I soon worked it out by the end of the year.
"Want me to join you?" I added again raising my eyebrow suggestively.
"I would rather be joined by a pack of angry werewolves" I saw Remus flinch out of the corner of my eye and hide behind a 7 volume book he had already rented from the library.
"Well I expect you must get going on your merry way then mustn't you" She seemed rather shocked at this outburst and stormed off quite crimson in the face.
"Wow James that told her"
"Yes it did" I was quite proud of myself in one way, but in another I was shocked also at myself. This was the girl I had dreamed about for years, the one I planned my life with, and I had just, well, belittled her!
As I stalked off down the corridor at 6:50 I thought about her some more. What did I have to do to get her to just look at me differently? To call me by my first name? To just treat me like another human being?
I made it to McGonagall's office at exactly 2 minutes to 7; it was Lily who was late.
She ran in breathless hair wild and untamed, panting, with a red face.
"Sorry Professor, I was err, studying"
"Very well Miss Evans but you know how I feel about lateness, if you cannot cope with the pressures of being a 5th year prefect then I'm sure there is someone else out there who can"
"Yes Professor"
I smirked at her as we were assigned our floors. She returned favour with a nasty glare and a rude hand gesture she discreetly made to me under the table.
"Now you are to return to me after your duties are finished and report on all happenings, as this is your first duties as prefects I will remind you to not let the privileges get to your head and for your ego's to stay at a normal size."
"Too late" Lily muttered looking at me from the corner of her eye.
"And this means that you must NOT go haywire in the taking away of house points"
She eye balled me slightly before standing up from her chair and dismissing us.
"Wow so much power, but what to do with it?" I said as we were making our way to the 4th floor where we were to start our prefect duties.
"Maybe you could do something with your hair" Lily said rolling her eyes.
"Wow Evans, watch the temper, I know you're just a pussy cat really but putting on the tiger act, that is convincing"
Lily rolled her eyes once again.
"The only convincing you need is that the world is not in love with you"
"Ouch that was harsh, but I'll forgive it. For a kiss, just a small one" I said spacing out my fingers about a cm apart.
"Dream on Potter, I don't kiss peasant folk" She said flicking her hair.
"Oooh that's one fiery temper you have there, use that kind of thing in the bedroom and guys will be sticking to you like mussels to a rock" Hey I know it's corny but I'm a teenage boy with teenage hormones. Except I don't have an excuse for the dementedness of the mussels to a rock thing.
She gave me a long hard stare. Then she started…LAUGHING! Lily Evans was actually laughing at something I had said, not laughing at me. She was laughing WITH me! Except I wasn't laughing yet because I was really quite scared of her, you know just incase she was faking the laughter, but no, it was genuine! How could I tell this? Because her eyes were sparkling. She laughed so much and so loud she had to bend over to contain herself. She was red in the face and tears were forming in the corners of her eyes. She was making funny breathing noises and I wasn't sure whether she was still laughing or if she was now having an asthma attack.
"Umm Lily, are you ok?" She held up a hand and kind of waved at me, showing she was fine. I could hear her gasping "Mussels to a rock!" Under her breath and every time she said it she burst into another fit of giggles.
"Well, as much as I love to watch you laugh (and I really did) I think we better get going, a 3rd year could have already killed a 1st year by now and we wouldn't even know about it, and if you really do know me you'll know how much I love a good fight"
She stopped laughing and put her hand on the wall to steady herself. There were tears streaming down her cheeks and she was flushed. But she still looked beautiful, and come to think of it Sirius was right, she had got a cleavage! And a mighty big one at that.
We stayed silent for a while, talking only to stop little 1st years running down the hall ways and 4th year wannabes sliding down the banisters, let me tell you those little blighters have one heck of a trap on them, and I'll let it be known, house points were taken away. Suddenly as the silence was going right to my head I turned to Lily and asked the question I knew she was dreading.
"What were you really doing tonight that made you so late for McGonagall?"
She stared blankly at me for a second or two before slowly turning to face the wall.
"I told you already, I was studying"
"Wow then you must be one UN fit girl"
"Excuse me?" She said rather tartly.
"Well, the Library is just down the hall, if you were to run to McGonagall's office then it would have taken 1 minute at the most, and running one minute is barely going to make you run out of breath"
"You know what Potter, you are too bloody smart for your own bloody good you know that?"
"Well, I have been told. So where were you?"
"Who said I had to study in the Library?"
"No one, but who said you don't have to study in the Library?"
"What? That doesn't make sense!"
"Exactly" Ok so I was really losing it here but what could I do, being outsmarted by a girl isn't exactly the highlight of my day. She rolled her eyes and faced the wall again.
"I was with…Sirius"
"WHAT?" Now this I hadn't expected, and I was regretting asking the question instantly.
"Not in that way!" She said quickly reassuring me. Now this I was thankful of.
"We were just…talking, we called up this truce, you know, I respect him, he respects me. It was his idea actually"
"Oh was it now?" I said through gritted teeth.
"You see I didn't want to tell you because, well for some reason he didn't want me to tell you. I asked him why and he said 'I have my reasons' so I left it at that"
"Yeah and I know right were I'm gonna shove those reasons up…"
"James!" Lily said astonished, but what…did Lily Evans just use my first name? I think she did!
"You called me James"
"What? No I didn't" She said flushing slightly.
"Yes you did, you said 'James'" I imitated her voice, and quite well in my opinion.
This was it. If things carried on like this, she would be mine in no time. Trouble is nothing is that simple.
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