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----------------I could have waited-----------------

The next morning I skipped breakfast, I took the time to reflect on yesterday's events. I lied down on my un–slept-in bed and closed my eyes. It wasn't long before I had drifted off into an un easy sleep and was dreaming the most freakish things.

I was in a house. I couldn't recognise it at first but as I searched deeper into it I recognised it as my Fathers old house. I had visited it once before as a small child when his brother, my uncle Ernie was still living there. But why was his house in my dream? Suddenly I saw my uncles dog Sunny at the top of the stairs…he was a friendly dog but at this moment he had a crazy look in his beady black eye, he leapt at me and as I backed away I fell through a cupboard door. I closed the door and on thanking God I was safe I turned round to face a corpse reaching out to touch me. I screamed and ducked beneath him. Almost immediately I started to spin through some vortex, swirling this way and that, I landed with a bang on a stone cold floor.

I saw a flash of red. Lily was in my dream. Now this was more like it, I thought to myself as she began walking closer and closer. I picked myself up and stood still while she kept towards me. Suddenly a piercing shriek rang through my head.

"HELP!"

"JAMES HELP!"

"SAVE HIM JAMES, LEAVE ME, AND GET HIM!"

"SAVE OUR SON!"

It was all coming from Lily's mouth, but Lily wasn't moving anymore. She was suddenly on the floor in a thriving position. What was going on? Who the hell was Him? Wait…did she say…our son?

"AVADA KEDAVRA!" Was the last thing I heard. A flash of red and…

I woke up panting, I hadn't noticed whilst asleep but I was clenching my fists so tightly that my nails had cut through my skin and my hand was bleeding.

I could see the spots of red and the dry blood that stained my wrists but for some reason I was numb. I couldn't feel the pain. I couldn't feel anything.

"James mate we missed you at breakfast, what's up?" Sirius asked me as I sat down in my seat for Charms.

"The sky" Hey I know it's lame but I wasn't in the best mood for small chat, I had too much on my mind. Like the fact that I dreamt me and Lily had a son.

"What happened to your hands?" Remus asked nodding at my bandaged fists.

"Oh…burnt them under the hot tap" Sirius took this with a roll of the eyes and Peter gave a small nod but Remus could tell this wasn't the reason.

"Bad dream?" He asked. Wow he was good.

"Hmm" I said simply. Well, grunted at least.

I received a sympathetic look from my friends but ignored it and got out my book and quill.

"We are focusing today on the levitation charm, you can practise along with me now, swish and flick" He forgot to mention that we were not yet supposed to use our wands so when little Peter swished and flicked he levitated poor little Flitwick so he was hanging a couple of inches above the ground in mid air.

"Oh Sir, sorry sir" Peter said franticly, thrashing his arm around. He brought Flitwick with him and sent him soaring through the air before finally dropping his wand and Flitwick with it.

"That's quite all right Mr Pettigrew", Flitwick said as Melissa helped him up from the floor and he brushed himself off, "Quite impressive actually, Humans are in fact very hard to levitate; I think it must be my light weight"

I chuckled slightly at this. You see to me light weight meant a different thing…but that's another story, which in fact is going to be explained later on in this story.

"There are various objects around the room for you to levitate, you must focus hard on the object, then swish and flick"

I decided to start easy, levitating a feather, but I just couldn't get the hang of it. I tried and tried but it just wouldn't work! I looked over to where Lily sat, half expecting her to be levitating Flitwick's desk but instead I saw an empty seat.

"Hey, Padfoot…where's Lily?"

"Lily? I'm not sure mate…I didn't see her at breakfast either"

"I expect she's still trying to get the honey out of her hair" Remus said, sounding a little guilty himself.

We stayed quiet for a moment…almost in mourning for Lily.

We continued the silence for most of the lesson; we only talked when packing up.

"Now who would like to take Miss Evans homework to her?" The Marauders looked at each other and without thinking each of our hands shot up.

"Oh well, Miss Evans is popular isn't she?"

"Sorry sir but what's wrong with Lily?" I asked a look of curiosity spread on my face.

"She's Ill Mr Potter. Woke up this morning feeling faint, then she collapsed"

We turned and looked at each other again. We didn't need to speak to know what each other was thinking.

What was up with Lily? Did it have something to do with us?

After morning classes we rushed straight to the infirmary.

"Madame Pomphrey, is Lily here?"

"Lily? Ah miss Evans, yes. Third bed on the left, next to the green 1st year."

"Thank you" Remus muttered before racing off.

She was lying down eyes closed. She looked so peaceful; I didn't know such beauty was possible on a human being.

"Lily" Sirius said gently shaking her.

She stirred a little before turning over on her side.

"Lily" Remus said, patting her lightly on the arm.

She mumbled something unclear and rolled back into her previous position.

"Lily" I said stroking her hair.

She made a sort of snoring noise and turned back onto her side.

"LILY!" Peter shouted in her ear giving her a push.

She screamed and fell out of bed.

"Are you trying to kill me!" She yelled. I stack out my hand for her to grab. She was about to take it before looking at me and helping herself up.

"We just wanted to bring you your Charms and Herbology homework" Sirius said sheepishly handing her the books and assignments.

"Well thank you, but you could have waited till I had woken up!"

"It was funner this way" I grinned. She glared at me.

"Remus will you please tell Mr Potter that I do not find his 'humour' very amusing"

My face fell. She wouldn't even talk to me anymore, and she was back to calling me Potter. Face it James, you've really cocked up this time.

"Err James lily says-"

"I know what Lily bloody said you moron!"

"Hey no need to get your ladies knickers in a twist" Sirius said.

"Oh and Remus would you also please tell Black that I am not talking to him either"

Sirius jaw dropped.

"But- But that's unfair!"

"So was pouring a load of sticky maple syrup over my head"

"But it wasn't meant for you!"

"Don't care" She said spinning round to face the wall, arms folded. She looked like a stroppy school kid.

"Well I do" I said making a grab at her arm.

"Get off me Potter! I don't know who you think you are but you sure as hell aren't special enough to tell me what to do!"

"I didn't tell you what to do!"

"Yeah…well" She mumbled folding her arms again.

"You are so…AMBIGUOUS!"

"Huh?"

"You are making me APOPLECTIC!"

"Come again?"

"I am getting extremely FRACTIOUS!"

"That's all very nice but I don't really understand any of these words"

"Oh that's too bad. Well here's two I'm sure you'll understand…BOGG OFF!"

"Ah, now that I understand" I grinned. Lily shrilled in frustration and stormed off out of the infirmary.

"But Lily you're Ill!"

"SCREW YOU POTTER, YOU'RE THE SCUM OF THE EARTH AND I HATE YOU!" She absolutely screamed the last part for extra emphasis and then slammed her foot hard on the ground, it was so hard in fact that we all heard her scream in agony as she cupped her foot in her hand and hopped down the corridor.

I wanted to die; my only life line hated me! Grrrr, I felt like breaking something, I felt like smashing something, I felt like screaming…instead I ate.

Luckily all my fat was muscle through all the Quidditch and stuff, if I didn't play Quidditch I would be as fat as that dude in Ravenclaw, the one that had to be smothered in butter so he could fit through the portrait hole. I ate tons, I mean in this story I've already pigged out twice in the kitchens, and both times were pretty much in the same day.

"Hello?" I called out as I reached the portrait of the fruit and entered the kitchens.

I heard some shuffling and a scurrying noise but I just assumed it was the house elves.

I wandered in and sat myself down next to the fire, the chair I was sitting on was teensy but I just about fit my (sexy) bum on it.

A house elf walked over to me and bowed its little head.

"A cookie for sir" He handed me a tray full of biscuits galore.

I took a Jammie dodger, because it reminded me of Lily, my little red headed Jammie Dodger…not that she was dodgy or anything!

Damn I was confusing myself, it must be the depression.

Anyway I was focussing hard at me feet when I noticed a glass on the floor, next to my shoe.

It had what looked like a fizzy orange drink in it but what really caught my eye was the little smudge of wet lipstick on the edge of the glass.

Someone was in here…and it wasn't an elf.

"Hello?" I called out again.

No reply.

"Anybody there?" I asked.

Nothing.

Suddenly I heard a small whimper and span round so fast I knocked over the little chair.

I saw a flash of blonde hair. I hoped it wasn't a Slytherin whore.

Nah, if it was they wouldn't hide from me.

I followed the shadow of a girl but it was suddenly lost when she turned a corner and disappeared into a dark corner.

"Come on this isn't funny anymore" I said quite irritated.

I heard nothing.

"Please just come out; I'm not going to eat you!" Ha the irony of that…in a kitchen and everything.

Still nothing. I was not in the mod to play games so I punched the nearest thing I could reach. A large shelf full of jars and some other dangerous things not meant to be tampered with.

When I punched it, it swayed a little before toppling over. It was about to hit me, I was going to die a virgin. At the age of just 15.

I closed my eyes and waited for the pain…but it never came.

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