I own no one at all apart from the gryffindor at the end...who btw is supposed to be very good looking ;) but anyway...

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"Lily" I said again. She stared straight ahead at me with a far away look in her eye, she was really scaring me now.

"Lily?" I said once again.

She kept staring at me, suddenly her arm swung down by her side, it crept behind her back, she brought it back up so I could see it, she was now holding a pillow.

"POTTER!" She suddenly screamed, she flung the pillow at me with all her might and got me right in between the eyes.

"OUCHIES EVANS WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT FOR!"

"That was for being you!"

"Well that was a civil reason, thanks"

"You are so not welcome!" She huffed and folded her arms.

"You are just sooo…unbelievable you know that?"

"Don't know, don't care"

"Yeah…yeah well…maybe I do" I said also folding my arms.

"How very nice for you" She said tartly.

"Well maybe it is" I said. This was turning into one childish argument.

"Look, all I know Potter is that I'm stuck here for the whole day due to some 'illness' of some sort and I don't want you even breathing the same air as me let alone using that air as a way of talking to me"

"Oh" That was all I said, my face fell and I could feel tears welling up in my eyes.

"Yeah…well…look I didn't mean it like that, it's just that…"

"No…I understand, it's just that I'm not good enough for you right? Not worthy enough to even grovel at the feet of Princess Lily, not even fit to be a slave boy" I spat, venom searing out of the corners of my mouth, I was so pissed off. I had tried everything to get her to like me, but maybe it just wasn't worth it anymore, maybe I should move on. Wait…what was I saying? Of course I can't move on…I love this girl.

I now had a completely constipated look on my face because I was inwardly arguing with myself.

"James…I don't want you to think that at all" I looked at her.

"You called me James"

"Oh…yeah…I guess…I…did" She said with a few pauses in between.

"And you didn't deny it" I added…just to make sure it was real.

"Yeah…spose I did" She was rapidly going red.

"Well…thanks" I smiled so wide it felt as though my smile was escaping my face.

"So…about those flying lessons…" She said turning away, "When do we start coach?"

Yes, Yes, YES! Lily Evans was sooooo MINE!

We were getting along just fine that day, no arguments, a few minor disagreements but all together it was very…comfortable.

We talked about so many things my mind went into over load, there was so much this girl wanted to talk about, so much she wanted to share, but why did she share it with me? Just hours ago she was trying to kill me with a pillow. And hours before that she told me she hated me. Women, I throw my hands up to them!

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"So…weren't you scared when you got your Hogwarts letter? I mean you must have thought it was a hoax of some sort right?"

"Not really. I mean at first I was freaked out, big time, but after a while the idea of me being a witch just kinda sunk in, the owl that delivered it stuck around for a while until I sent a reply back to whoever had sent it, and well, here I am today" She smiled. I smiled.

"You know Lily; I never quite got my head around why you didn't like me, I mean it can't have been that I wasn't good looking, because come on just look at me" I said grinning, running my hand through my hair.

"No it's not that Potter…it's just your bloody AROGANCE" She yelled throwing a pillow at me again and just missing by inches.

"Ok, ok no need to start throwing things again…I don't want you messing up my perfectly formed face" I smirked; she picked up yet another pillow and aimed it at my head.

"Maybe if you weren't such an ignorant prat I might have liked you!" She shouted, picking up the pillow from another bed near by.

I ducked as she started to bombard me with pillows from all over the ward. She didn't look that ill as she sped up and down the infirmary with her Ammo.

I suddenly felt a burst of energy, must have been the vast amount of sweeties I scoffed down at breakfast.

I jumped up from my bed and also went off racing down the ward picking up pillows, she saw me and quickly threw a pillow in my direction, but being the swift and agile mover I am I dodged out of the way and instead sent one soaring threw the air at her.

It got her in the knee and she sort of stacked over it. When she fell over though she landed on a pile of pillows, lucky I guess because I did NOT want to be the reason for her getting a smashed in face.

I burst out laughing as she hurriedly picked herself up and collected her pillows.

"Oh you are sooo going down for that Potter!" She laughed chasing me up the isle.

"I don't think so Evans, in case you hadn't noticed, I OWN pillow fights!"

"Oh, did you use the money you earned from being a male prostitute to buy them then!" She said still laughing hard.

"Hey I resent that, I earn all my dosh selling dodgy gear to old men in alleyways" She burst into another fit of laughter, then suddenly picked up speed on the chase.

I was backed into a corner.

"Now you have two options. Take this like a man…or take this like Potter" She said quite threateningly but with a slight smile on her face.

"Well then…I think I might have to take it as Potter" I dropped the pillow I was holding and grabbed her arm, then I slid my other arm around her waist and pulled her into me, I looked down at her flushed face, her eyes were flashing a bright emerald green. I closed my eyes and leaned forward, I could feel her hot breath against my skin, I waited for her, she leaned closer and our lips connected.

I could swear I heard fireworks in the background, and I could see a bleary vision of those little fat babies in nappies with bows and arrows in the pitch black.

Butterflies swarmed my stomach as our kiss deepened, it was always as I had imagined, but…better.

It felt as though I was now whole, that there was a part of me before that was incomplete. This was the best kiss I had ever had; it was the best moment of my entire life.

I didn't want it to end, but I was running out of oxygen.

We slowly parted our lips and inhaled a few times before leaning in again.

It was even better this time, if that was possible. She tasted of cherries, and slightly of mint. I slid my tongue deeper into her mouth. Wow was she a good kisser. I just hoped she hadn't had too many occasions to practise here snogging actions.

It was time to part again, this time though we didn't kiss again.

"James we shouldn't be doing this" Lily whispered, tears swelling up in her eyes.

"Why?" I said softly, stroking her cheek.

"Because" She was in tears now, she pulled away from my grasp.

"Lily, there's nothing wrong with it, it was perfect"

"I know"

My face lit up, she had said it was perfect.

"So what's the problem?"

"I don't want to get attached James, I'm scared, I don't want to be hurt"

My smile faltered, she thought I was going to hurt her…how could she think I would hurt her?

"I…what do you mean? I won't hurt you Lily…I would never hurt you"

"I'm sorry James" She whispered backing away from me; tears were now streaming from her eyes. "I'm sorry"

She turned around and ran out of the room in hysterics. I suddenly didn't feel so good anymore and fell back on my bed again.

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I lay staring at the ceiling for what felt like hours, trying to gather all my thoughts. What had just happened?

Why was she scared I would hurt her?

What time is lunch because I am STARVING? Ok straying a bit off subject here, but all the sugar from those sweets had now burned away and I was as tired and as hungry as a…hippo!

My thoughts were suddenly disturbed as I heard a cry and a lot of shouting from outside the door. The next thing I saw was a Gryffindor 7th year I recollect meeting carrying someone into the hospital wing in their arms.

He laid her down on the nearest bed and I saw that the person he was carrying was actually Lily.

"What happened to her?" Madame Pomphrey asked nudging the boy out of the way so she could see Lily.

"I don't know, she was just standing up in the common room completely fine when all of a sudden she collapsed, I didn't know what to do"

"Don't worry you did well, just give her some space"

It looked as though Professor McGonagall had followed the boy as she was now standing franticly beside Lily's bedside.

"Poppy do you think she'll be quite alright?"

"I don't know Minerva she's been quite ill, I don't know why she even left the ward, I don't think I gave her my permission" I felt a sudden twinge of guilt, after all I was the reason Lily even left her bed this morning.

"What is actually the matter with her Poppy?"

"That's the whole problem Minerva…we don't know, there has never been a case like this before, muggle or otherwise and this means that there is a chance that she can not be cured"

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