Ok...so this chapter just kinda came to me...it's a little weird...and a little annoying, but I swear it was the effects of the 10 cups of coffee I had this morning...anyway hope you like it chums :D

I own no one

Lily is in bold

James is underlined

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"James mate, who are you all dolled up for?"

"I've got a date" I said smirking. I slapped some cologne onto my neck and ran a hand through my messy mop of hair.

"With who?" Sirius asked, genuinely surprised.

"Rebecca O'Connell"

"No way Prongs!"

"Yes way"

"That's awful!"

"Why?"

"Because if something happens between you then you could be kicked off the team"

"First of all, I highly doubt that, and secondly you of all people should be happy, it means you can have Evans" I said nonchalantly, like it didn't even bother anymore.

"But James I-"

"Look will you just leave it Sirius I'm free to date whoever I want, so are you, now I'll back out of your business if you just back out of mine" I snapped, grabbing my wand and exciting through the door.

It was a Hogsmeade weekend and I was taking my Quidditch captain, strange really, but she did look really hot in a mini skirt. I held out my arm and she latched onto it. I was so glad she was short for her age, because it would have been strange being loomed over by your date, who happened to be the girl of the couple.

I had erased Lily Evans completely from my mind…well…almost completely, because I would have had to thought of her before erasing her…I hope you know what I mean, because I don't have a clue.

We walked to the Three Broomsticks and I ordered us two butterbeers.

"Maybe after, if you feel like it, we could go get that coffee we talked about" I asked her, grinning.

"I have a lot of better things we could use our time with" I felt her leg rub against my own leg. She must have been pretty damn cold in that tiny skirt and bare legs, but who am I to complain, she definitely looked hot.

"I would like to hear those ideas" I said leaning into her, but I never got to hear what she was about to say because I was suddenly distracted by a laugh I hadn't heard for so long, yet remembered so distinctly, what was Lily doing here? Or what I really wanted to know was, who was she with?

"James?"

"Remus?" I said astonished.

"I…err…didn't know you would be here"

"Yeah, I'm here with Rebecca, my date" I drawled out the word date just in case they didn't get the message. Lily didn't look at me; instead she seemed to be having a very interesting discussion with her shoes, as they were the only thing she was focussing her attention on.

"Well we're just gonna go" Remus said, gesturing weakly to a table. How could one of my best friends have betrayed me like this? No, it wasn't Remus fault, it was my fault, he probably assumed I didn't like her anymore…because I didn't…did I?

Of course you do you idiot.

Oh no not you again.

Excuse me! Yes it is me, and I would remind you to keep your manners to yourself, if I wanted to I could make your life a living hell.

And you haven't already.

Good point, but at least you still have nice arms.

I do have nice arms don't I?

They're gorgeous.

Thanks.

You're welcome.

So anyway, conscience, aren't you going to say something useful to me that will end up making me feel guilty about the whole Lily situation, then tell me to confess my undying love for her and not to stop until I get her?

Actually I was just going to suggest trying the roasted peanuts; they taste great with a swig of fire whisky.

That's it? I've been arguing with myself and looking like a complete prat for the last five minutes and that's all you can say, try the roast peanuts?

Pretty much yeah.

Oh…well thanks for the advice anyway.

You're welcome, good bye.

Bye conscience, wow I love that guy…sometimes.

"James are you alright?" I was jogged back into reality as Rebecca patted me on the hand.

"Oh yeah Rebecca I'm fine"

"Good, you were starting to worry me there…so where were we?" She asked, smirking and leaning closer "Oh yeah" I smirked as well and leaned in, I don't think I really have to explain to you what happened next, except maybe I should, because it had nothing to do with me kissing Rebecca.

"James!"

"Lily?"

"How could you James?" I looked around bewildered, Lily was there alright, but she wasn't talking to me, she was laughing at something Remus must have said.

"What did I do?" I asked, scared at what was going on.

"James I trusted you, I told you, you would hurt me, and you go and prove me right" I looked straight in Lily's direction, she looked like she was having a great time, a stab of jealousy hit me hard in my gut and I felt instantly sick.

"James, I don't know what's wrong with you but I think I better be going" I saw Rebecca get up quickly and grab her things, with a quick 'good bye' she left the pub.

I still hadn't taken in what was happening, but I could still hear Lily's voice fill my head.

"If you still love me James then you'll fight for me, get me back, woo me James"

"Lily of course I still love you, but it's not that simple, Remus is my friend"

"He's mine too"

"I wouldn't be surprised if he wanted to be more" I looked over in Lily's direction again, Remus was at the bar and Lily was focussed completely on me. Could it be that she could…no…she was a muggle born…still it wasn't impossible for us to communicate…telepathically?

"Yes James, I took a potion this morning if you must know"

"But why Lily?"

"Because I needed to talk to you somewhere were I wouldn't have to speak to you"

"You are a clever one aren't you?"

"Only the cleverest"

"So what is it Lily?"

"I want to know what you were doing with that trollop O'Connell"

"You know you sound a lot ruder telepathically"

"Just answer the god damn question Potter"

"Why are you concerned?"

"I'm not, I'm just curious"

"That's what Peter said when we accused him of being gay"

"Potter stop being so crude and answer my question"

"So you love me too then?"

"What? Where the hell did you get that idea from Potter?"

"Well if you want me to fight for you so much I take it there is a reason behind it"

"Not really, I was just sick of you moping around"

"Then you must not have noticed the beautiful girl on my arm whom I happened to be on a date with"

"It was probably a pity date"

"Why? I have no reason to pity her"

"No I meant for you"

"Oh jeez, thanks a bunch"

"Look Potter why were you on a date with her if you still like me?"

"Because I wanted to give my other two friends, who also happen to be head over heels for you a chance!" I mentally screamed at her. That certainly telepathically shut her up. I looked away and tried closing my mind of my thoughts. It was no use; I could still hear a little voice nagging in my ear. I looked up; someone was nagging in my ear.

"Mr Potter could you please stop talking to yourself, people are worried and are leaving, if you turn down business once more then you will be escorted from the premises" Madame Rosmerta looked down at me with glaring eyes, I shakily got up and walked straight out the door.

Lily was right, even telepathically she was wise beyond her years. I needed to get her back, I loved my friends, but Lily was my ultimate reward, my true soul mate. Plus I had just lost my current date and was now alone.

I hadn't even gotten a kiss out of it. Life was being oh so cruel to me today, and yesterday, the day before, all the time really.

I decided I might have another little chat with Mr Conscience on my way back to the castle, and trying to ignore the strange looks and taunts from my fellow peers I made my way back home with a heavy heart and an aching brain.

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