Erm.. I give this chapter a high rating (flushes) it's very smexy XD It is so heavily implied.. Very very implied (ducks under the counter) IMPLIED XD

Reverie
Chapter Three: Fantasies

When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby, don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're
making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go,

So simple and clean
The daily things
Like this and that and what is what,
That keep us all busy
Are confusing me
That's when you came to me and said,

Wish I could prove I love you
But does that mean I have to walk on water?
When we are older you'll understand
It's enough when I say so,
And maybe some things are that simple,

His hands had wound up in my hair, twirling it around aimlessly. The passion that lay in his eyes was unmistakable, and he wanted me as much as I wanted him. A beautiful soul he was, on the inside and out. And it was irresistible to see the way his blue hair dangled freely upon his clothes, for once not being tied by a piece of elastic. We were both tempted for too long, and the emotions just let themselves out.

It was there and then when he aggressively meshed his lips against mine, in a sign of ecstasy. Eyes glazing over, I pulled him closer to him to me, tasting what he had to offer. Was it truly a sin to love? Was this truly the right thing to do? When something was so wrong to the world, but to you it felt so damn right, do you go through with it? Nothing else mattered as I held him tightly in my grasp, wanting to show him just how much I did care about him. And to thank him, for the countless years of strive to keep me going.

I watched as his tongue traveled from my mouth down to my neck. Sure, this was a simple gesture. Nothing that would lead to anything more... right? I wasn't quite if either of us were ready for that big hurdle, to commit sweet love to each other, so for now this was enough. Enough to satisfy my craving. Yet... as I watched him go farther than I ever dreamed up, my hopes of slow and steady melted. I just melted in his grasp.

Pulling his face off from it's travels, I gazed deeply into his eyes, and leaned against it. My breathing was becoming rapid, for the strangest of reasons. Something just felt so different, and any goals I had set for myself were slowly melting, when I felt the heat of his body near mine. And those clothes he wore... they never looked so, handsome on his firm fit, and yet so... wrong to be on.

Maybe I was being to detail-ish, even if that's a word. But I wanted to remember this, remember the lustful look in his eye, the way his lips fitted mine, and the taste that lingered on his tongue. Each thing told me the home I was searching for countless years was him. And I had finally found it my oldest friend.

He returned my gesture with a chaste mesh of the lips. His face was sweating intensely, and I guessed he was going to lead us. Becoming weightless from the high bliss, I watched as he nagged at my armor and clothes, with a hint of annoyance in his eyes.

"You know... it's rather difficult to continue when you're wearing that." He snickered. Blinking a few times, I stopped him from talking more by toppling him over on the bed. He squeaked from the sudden weight change but the look in his eye remained the same.

"Come now, Yuan. Do you really want me to remove them?" I replied in the same tone as him. He reached up to my shoulders, and drew me back down onto to him, with a blissful kiss, searching me for any signs of how much I wanted this. His hands soon begun to fiddle with the armor, and it fell to the ground with a 'clank'. But before he went any farther, onwards to the clothing that stood in his way, he stopped and glanced up at me.

"Do you really need me to answer that?"

I awoke with a feeling I had never felt before. My whole body was sweating increasingly, and a chill rushed over me. Breathing rapidly from the shock of finding myself alone.. after such a great thing was a bit sudden. Glancing around, I searched for wherever Yuan was. Wasn't he just here... underneath me?

And it hit me like a ton of bricks. It was just a dream, wasn't it? I never really did kiss him, and I probably never would. The whole idea seemed so unbelievable hours before, but now the path was set in front of me. It felt so right in the dream, but would it be right in this life. Maybe I should spend more time thinking about this before I commit to something I can only fantasize about.

Pushing my body out of bed, I grunted and pushed open the door leading to the hallway. Once there, I found it to be the middle of the night, around midnight I assumed. It was still raining, and the only light to guide me was the occasional lighting. But I was okay with that.

Extending a hand to my messy auburn hair, I wondered why I had dreamed of such a thing. I mean, I'd understand if I dreamed and was resisting but... I actually enjoyed it. Stomach lurching, I continued onward to the kitchen. My ruby eyes glanced around the darkened room, searching for a glass of water. Finally finding a cup, I took it with my left hand and turned on the faucet. The gentle swush sound of running water soon overcame me as my legs turned to jelly.

"Kratos?"

Heart jumping out of my skin, my already displaced heart skipped a beat. Eyes widening as I starred at the window reflection in front of the sink, I began to wonder why Yuan had woken up. Scuffling my voice a bit so I sounded more relax than I really was at the moment, I whispered.

"Why are you up so late?" I dared.

"Goes the same to you." Yuan replied, taking a step over as he stood next to me.

Once more I felt a sudden uneasy presence with being around him. Daring a spare glance at him, my heart dropped when I saw him in this blue bath rode that was two sizes too small. It was so hard not to look, especially after that dream. Why must dreams be cut off at the good part!

"Well, if you must know, the pipes in this place make loud sounds at night." Yuan explained, reaching for a glass on the other side of the sink. And that meant his hand brushed against mine as he reached for the cup.

Face turning a deep scarlet, I pushed away the thoughts that had entered my mind. Deal Kratos, get him out of your head! I reminded myself brutally.

"Kratos? You're looking pale, you're not going to faint again, right?" His voice snapped me out of my thoughts within a moments notice. Shaking my head violently, I put on a pleased look, just to hide the nerves that were building inside.

"Of course." I scoffed, looking away.

"Well, I gave you my excuse, what's yours?" Yuan asked, taking a sip of water.

Oh terrific. This was going to be hard, and not the good hard either. How could I just come out and say that the only reason I was up at this hour was because of my wandering mind. Yea, that's a Kodak for you. Tell Yuan I was having pleasent dreams about him, more pleasant than I ever thought was possible.

"Are you even paying attention?" Yuan snapped.

"Wha-? Oh yes. About that-" I began, and peeled my eyes onto the cup I held with my ever-tightening grip.

"So? What's your million dollar reason?" Yuan nagged. I could feel his eyes starring intensely upon my figure. Oh dear goddess, this wasn't going good.

"Night-sweat," I grunted. I wasn't exactly lying, seeing it was a night-sweat, but I'd never tell him the reason. If he ever learned those thoughts that ran through my mind, and the way I felt about it, he'd never speak to me again. And this growing friendship we had was something I didn't want to lose.

"No wonder you're acting like every word I say is going in one ear, and out the other." Yuan began but I was beginning to space him out once more. How was I ever going to look at my friend again when I had these thoughts about him.

These thoughts. Perhaps they were telling me that I had to confess, tell Yuan that I was acquiring feelings for him. Feelings I vowed never to acquire over human nor half-elf. Especially those of the opposite gender. I was really driving myself insane.

"Kratos! Pay attention!" Yuan glared, grabbing me by my shoulders and turning me in his direction. Oh dear, this wouldn't work at all. I could feel my mind spinning off again. How could I, stern and unfeeling Kratos Aurion be persuaded to become embarrassed. This truly wasn't going well.

"This is pointless." Yuan grunted, letting go of my grasp and heading back to the stairs. My reflex was telling me to grab him, lift him off his feet, and place a most-wanted kiss upon those lips. But I'd never let me reflexes get the best of me, especially seeing I just now had started to feel this way towards him.

But... was this really the first time? There had been countless before when I had felt this strange connection to him. Yet I shoved it out of my mind, and continued on with work. Never would my one-track mind stray onto a second path, and take the exciting left on the fork in the road.

As I snapped myself back into reality, I felt myself grabbing Yuan and spinning him around. He starred up at me, unsure what I had intended my this. I was going to, I really was, but I chickened out and let go. This action earned a swift smack in the face, and a most aggravated look. And this look I found so adorable on his fa-... GET A GRIP KRATOS! I mentally smacked myself.

"You're acting really oddly. Is this some sort of way of trying to make me mad?" Yuan muttered in a very loud voice, which went against the rules of muttering. Flexing my eyebrows, I breathed deeply, realizing I had just grabbed Yuan out of nowhere.

"I just wanted to say sorry." I grunted, thinking of something to say to explain my current situation.

"Oh, well, ok." Yuan stuttered by hearing the words 'sorry' escape my lips. I let go of him, but he remained in front of me, watching my every move. "Um, well, good night." Yuan added in, and walked over the stairs. I heard the usual creaking and I turned my head back to my room.

"Yuan..." I called out. The creaking stopped for a few moments, and I swore it was so silent I could hear Yuan's breaths. "Come back down for a minute." My sentence was cut short with more creaking and his entrance back into the room.

"What?" He asked, as a yawn escaped his lips.

"The rain's finally subsided. You can't hear it anymore." I whispered. Furrowing his eyebrows, Yuan walked back over to me, stretching weakly, knowing he probably wasn't going to be going back to sleep for awhile.

"I see." Yuan replied vaguely.

"And I haven't been outside star-gazing since the war." I stuttered. Me? Stutter... what is going on.. I'm supposed to be cool, shallow, and yet sophisticated.

"And you're suggesting?--" Yuan wondered, with surprise filling his emerald eyes.

"Would you care to come outside for a few? I'm quite aware that you don't have to, but if you wanted to." Even at times like this, even though I sometimes stuttered, I always managed to hide my feelings and remain calm and unchanging.

A few moments passed before Yuan made a sign of movement, showing he was still awake.

"Sure, why not." He basically grumbled. I led us outside, hiding the creeping smile upon my face. Each step I took was another step closer to sorting out my feelings. I promised myself that by the end of this night, I will know how I actually feel about my friend. Is it just some hormonal accident, or do I really have feelings for him I have been denying all these years.

As I stepped outside onto the wet grass, I felt a gentle breeze ripple my auburn hair. Cold air kissed my sensitive skin. I wasn't one to change at night, so i wore my usual clothes, minus the shoulder plates and sword that is.

We were silent as we passed across the grass. I sat myself on the wet surface near the ever raging river. The way the moon glistened on it's small rapids was awe inspiring, even to someone like me. Sitting cross legged, I look down at my reflection in the river. Who I am, who I was.. and who I wish to be all filled my senses.

As if I wasn't relaxed enough, Yuan took his seat next to me. I had now noticed his aqua hair was dangling freely upon his shoulders and onto his robe and chest. Of course, I didn't directly look at the half-elf, just peer mildly at the river to see him.

"Thought we were looking at the stars." He whispered.

"I can see them perfectly in this mirrored reflection." I advised. Another moment passed before I glanced over at Yuan who was gazing up at the stars intently. He must have seen me look in his direction out of the corner of his eye, because he took his stare off the stars and placed it upon me.

"Are you positive you're okay?" Yuan asked. I was about to answer but I saw his flustered look and he cut in. "Not like I care or anything." He was such a bad liar...

"Yes, Yuan I am fine." I reminded him and watched as he brushed his hair out of his face, in an annoyed matter.

"My hair hates me," He muttered, blowing a piece of it out of his face. A snicker passed my lips and I turned away sharply, as if to hide my amusement in him. "Uh, what?" Yuan asked.

I didn't reply at all.

"Kratos?" Yuan placed a hand on my shoulder, showing a real worry for the first time this night. And that sent a shiver down my spine as blood rushed south of the border. Dear Goddess, what has come over me!

"What?" I answered.

"You've been acting odd lately, is something wrong? Even though you probably don't believe this, but you can trust me, okay?" The thing was, I believed every word that came out of his mouth. I did trust him, probably more than he'd ever know. But this wasn't a game of trust, this was far more.

"We're friend's, correct?" I asked timidly.

"Of course, you were there when Martel died... you stopped me from killing myself, and stopped Mithos from taking me prisoner. So, yes." Those words sounded so sincere, and I knew they were. Martel was a painful subject around Yuan, and for him to speak so openly about her, I just knew he meant what he was saying. Thing was... friendship wasn't really what I was aiming for.

"Oh yes, silly of me to ask. I apologize." I murmured. Suddenly he straightened his face and glared at me. Alarmed to the idea that I had upset him, I crossed my arms and shook my head so my eyes were concealed. I didn't want him knowing what sins that bore.

"You see! You're too serious sometimes. Can't you just loosen up?" Yuan urged, with a slight smile.

"Loosen... up?" I asked dreamily. Oh I did hope he meant clothes.

"Take life as it is served to you. Stop worrying so much about the future and past, learn to live for today, and try to make a difference. Just like us... we're going to stop Mithos." Yuan snickered, then smiled, then did something I never expected. He took my hand in his, probably intended to be a friendly gesture, and whispered. "And we're going to do it... together."

"Yuan, I." Now was the chance, he was here in front of me, pledging himself to never leave. Maybe not as a lover, but as an understanding friend.

"What, what's wrong?" Yuan asked.

"I.." I began.

"Nah, tell me in the morning." Yuan yawned and hung his head sleepily. I just sat there, gazing at him. The way the moon shimmered on his skin was dazzling. And the way his eyelids covered his eyes in such a gorgeous way. Yuan... why do I care so much when I know what I feel is so wrong?

"Yuan... I have something to tell you." I spoke silently. He didn't answer, so I knew it meant to keep going. "I... think there is something wrong. I've been having this feeling lately."

No reply.

"No, not feeling. Emotion. It's something I've never dreamt of having.. and something I've fought against. But I can't hide it any longer. Yuan.. you're more than a friend to me... I.." I began and was shocked to see he still hadn't reply. I glanced over to see what was wrong, and my heart sank when I realized he had been asleep during my whole confession.

"Oh... right." I grumbled. Everything I said had been in vain.. I worked up my courage for nothing. But what I saw when I looked back over at him was heart-warming. He was asleep, but slowly leaned back and forth, then found himself my shoulder as a pillow.

"Humph..." Was all I said, as I sat there, with Yuan resting to me. "Sleep tight... my angel."

AN:

Heheheh, thought the confession would be that simple, neh? We have awhile to go before that. Anywayz, next chapter is filler-ish but light implied fluff I suppose. This one was fluffeh and smexy. hahah. Well, hope for updates soon!

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