R.6

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Reverie
Chapter Six: Confessions

I Woke up this morning
With this feeling inside me that I can't explain
like a weight that I've carried
Been carried away, away

But I know something is coming
I don't know what it is
But I know it's amazing, you save me
My time is coming
And I'll find my way out of this longest drought...

It feels like today I know
It feels like today I'm sure
It's the one thing that's missin'
The one thing I'm wishin'
Life's sacred blessin' and then
It feels like today
Feels like today

You treat life like a picture
But it's not a moment thats frozen in time
It's not gonna wait
Til you make up your mind, at all

So while this storm is breaking
While there's light at the end of the tunnel
Keep running towards it
Releasing the pressure, that's my heartache
Soon this dam will break

When we arrived back home after our little dilemma back at Heimdall, a new bond was apparent between myself and Yuan. Something different, something I had been aiming for, for awhile now that is. The way he let me request his help, and his presences. I couldn't help but smile as we walked along the path that lead directly to our house. The rushing river whipped next to us as the house came in sight. Oddly, the river was becoming more rapid then usual. To think when I first came here, by force from Yuan, it was so small. And now?... wow, this river has too much in common with me.

We entered the house, and I did a congratulatory yawn and took a seat on the coach in the living space. Yuan glanced over and snickered a bit.

"Home for a minute and already relaxing." Yuan sighed, but then turned to the kitchen and went to getting something to drink no doubt. Shrugging, I crossed my arms and starred around the room. The familiar smells of home and Yuan lingered in my nostrils, with a slick grin crossing my face.

"Hey Kratos, can I talk to you?" Yuan appeared at the doorway. Giving him acknowledgement, I signaled for him to sit down next to me. Taking the sign without a second thought, he plopped down next to me and closed his eyes for a moment. Unsure, I starred over at Yuan.

"You ok?" I asked, unsure what to say at his moment.

"I just wanted to thank you." Yuan whispered. A bright smile crossed my face but I hid it once more but Yuan didn't smile. Raising an eyebrow, dread loomed across me as Yuan sighed hopelessly, as if something big was on his mind. "For helping me with the Renegades I mean." It was the name Yuan had decided on with me a few nights ago.

"Oh, that. Yes, of course." I had a tendency of remaining cool in these situations. But Yuan seemed to have something much more biggeron his mind, but I doubted he'd ever tell me. I dreamed he'd tell me, in my dreams he'd confess anything because he trusted me with all of his heart And I valued that more than anything in this world.

"Do you really think we'll be able to beat Mithos?" Yuan asked, with a hint of hope flickering in his bright emerald eyes.

"Yuan... can I tell you something." It wasn't the something that had been on my mind for awhile, but something I wanted him to know. Yuan gave an agreeing nod and turned to face me. Clearing my throat, I repaired myself to explain this, slowly and surely. "Before I started living here, Yggdrasill demanded me to aid him in Cruxis. He said if I didn't comply he'd kill me. I stopped going after he sent me crashing back to Teth'alle during the storm...I saw the error in my ways, and I am ashamed to say that I was trying to help him." Every word I spoke was true. The good and the bad.

"You..." Yuan gasped in surprise and turned away sharply.

"I understand if you hate me, Yuan. I didn't want to tell you, but I found it fitting to." I mumbled along with the words. Our friendship had grown so much, and at this point, I wanted to tell him everything. Even that big something. There was always that hope. I also looked away from him, fearing he'd tell me to leave. Leave this place I've grown to love.

"I don't hate you." He whispered breathing into my ear. Shocked, my pulse went spiraling up. I glanced over and saw him with a deep, profound look upon that mysterious look. Relieved once more, I nodded and brushed my auburn bangs out of my face and cleared my throat.

"But now I will stand by your side, fighting against Mithos. I promise you that, with all my heart and soul." I was pledging myself to him, and I hoped he wasn't as dense to ignore it.

"We will beat him. Especially after what he did to Martel, and you." Yuan whispered, looking downward. I tried not to smile, but to be in the same sentence as Martel made me crack a smile. Maybe he did take my many hints I had laid down for him.

"You seem pretty determined, why?" I asked. Was it just because he wanted revenge, or was there something else. Yuan glanced back up at me, mystery shrouded in his emerald pools.

"I want him to pay. But I don't want to do it alone, so now I know I have the courage to." Yuan whispered, voicing his opinon for once. It was as if butterflies had been set free in my soul as I sat there, next to the person who I really could connect with. And that was when I knew it. After my weeks of wondering if I truly did care about him, I finally knew my answer.

I was in love...with Yuan.

"Your hair looks nice today." I wasn't afraid now, now that I knew not to be afraid of my feelings, I didn't have to be afraid of rejection. I knew where he stood in my eyes, and that's all that mattered today.

"Hmm? T-thanks." Yuan tried to say smoothly but squeaked in mid sentence. He turned away in a violent shade of velvet. Cracking a smile I yawned and looked at it. Truly, his hair did sparkle this morning in a way I never saw it before.

"It matches your eyes." I whispered softly.

"T-than-" Yuan began but was too shy to actually reply. "I'll be in the kitchen!" He announced, getting up off the coach and scampering into the kitchen. Trying not to laugh, I shrugged and walked in behind him. He was too busy getting a cup of coffee to notice me take my normal perch and stare out the window at the river. That river, it was the perfect way to tell Yuan. It was... just meant to be.

"I'll be outside." I spoke, got up, and walked outside. Yuan glanced at me, unsure of my motives. I stepped outside in the bright summer day and took a deep breath. The smell of fresh, rushing water filled me as I took a step closer to the river. It hadn't rained for a few weeks, so the grass made that crunch sound when you stepped too aggressively on it. Kind of like love..

Everything pointed me on my way to the river. As I took a seat next to it, I placed a hand down into it. Unlike my first visit here, my hand barely remained in position as the rampaging rapids attacked the hand. A smirk rolled across my lips as I took in the fumes of home. My first real home. A gentle breeze passed my face, making me appreciate everything I had in this life. Hearing the crunch of grass, I turned my head and saw Yuan walking up to me. He took a seat next to me and gazed at me.

"What are you doing?" Yuan asked curiously, looking at the river alongside me.

"Just looking. It's amazing, isn't it?" I spoke, keeping me hands in the rapids. Confused, he extended his hand and felt the rushing water rush past it. It seemed like whenever a half-elf got in tune with nature, a part of them awakened and glowed. And I knew that, so that made this moment even better.

"I guess?" Yuan spoke, watching a few fish scurry past. A chuckle passed my lips as one hit Yuan's hand. He whooshed his hand out, alarmed, then stifled a laugh and looked over at me. He must have read my mind because I was starring intently t him. "Something on your mind?"

"No. Just wanted some time to relax. Especially after yesterday." I was lying. I didn't just come out here to relax, but to reveal my feelings and motives to a certain half-elf that sat inches away from me. Show him something that spent countless years to grow.

"Yea." He shrugged then looked at me.

"I remember this river when I first came here." I began looking at it with a simple smile. It told me everything was perfect. Now was the time. No other chance would be better. "It was such a small stream, when a single stone could cause a problem with the ever-violent cascading rush. But now, now it's a powerful river, rushing past, stronger than ever. It went from stream to river in months." I smiled, Yuan just starred at me. "And I'm glad I came." I added in.

"Yea, I remember to." He replied, in a real short and simple reply.

"When I first came here, I wasn't quite sure how everything would happen. What trials would face this river, and it seemed like a pathetic excuse for a stream. But now.. I'd never thought it's transform into something this.. entrancing." I continued. Yuan tilted his head curiously and nodded in agreement.

"Heh, me either." Yuan beamed at me, and then turned away sharply, as if he had said too much. Cocking my head, I pushed away any sudden regret and filled it with determination.

"Yuan, I was wondering, you still love Martel, don't you?" I asked. Yuan glanced at me with wide eyes, He looked downward, as tears formed in his eyes, But he didn't let them fall, something kept them back. Crossing his arms he recollected his thoughts then looked back at with an intense stare.

"Of course I still do, Kratos," he whispered then fell quiet. Now concerned, I wondered what was on Yuan's mind.

"Is something bothering you?" I asked casually. Something definitely seemed to be on his mind, so I didn't feel as bad about having him on my mind. If you had told me that Yuan was the only thing that was going to be on my mind when I first arrived, I would have never believed you. I never thought how much he meant to me, and how much he put on the line for a sorry excuse like me.

"N-no." Yuan stuttered.

"Liar." I grinned them crossed my arms. "I can always tell when you're lying." I voiced, watching the river continuously rush galloons of water past us within every second. It was relaxing, especially for someone as tense as me, or Yuan. However, even after I called Yuan a liar, he did not respond. Something as on his mind and I dead set on figuring it out before I confessed my feelings.

"Yuan, what's wrong? Just tell me. I did promise you that you could tell me anything." I spoke, reminding him of my promise.

"It's nothing." Yuan stuttered, looking away from me again. Puffing out my cheeks I rolled my eyes. He was making this harder than it had to be. I was so certain of myself before we broke into conversation. Now I was unsure, unsure whether he was going to accept me or not.

"Yuan.." I sighed. Yuan glanced up over at me with surprise shining in those emerald eyes.

"What?" Yuan asked uneasily. I just starred at him. Remembering how innocent and nervous he was. It was rare to see Yuan act like this around anyone except Martel. Every breath I took caused my heart to pitter patter and I was more determined, but yet even more nervous.

"Have you ever had the chance of meeting someone who's connected with you on levels far more then you'd ever expect? And sometimes you start to become attached to them to a whole new level." I decided to pursue my confession. Yuan looked over, interested, and he twitched uneasily, and took a deep breath.

"Yes..." He was obviously thinking of Martel and I felt unsure. "Once.. or possibly twice." I bet he could tell my eyes had lit up when he said the words 'two'.

"There was someone other than Martel?" I almost gasped, but tried to stay cool. I was slowly starting to think of my dreams, but I pushed them away. I wouldn't be tempted by lust. Even Yuan in my dream had said it was built on a true love, not temptations. And I was slowly understanding. You couldn't build a love off something that.. small and unvital.

"Yes... but I never thought it to be possible." Yuan almost squeaked in words. He clasped his hand across his mouth, blushing a deep dark red. I was sure now... and I felt like the happiest person alive. But then again, I would claim my true prize before this conversation was over.

"Kratos, what is the purpose of this discussion?" At first I thought he was mad, but he was shaking intensely. Slowly, I placed a hand on his shoulder and breathed heavily.

"Well, I just wanted to see your views.. before-" Now was my turn to share the embarrassment.

"Kratos.. are you saying?" He was surprised and yet happy all wrapped together.

"Well," I began and took his hand in mine. I saw him gulp, but not from fear. But from what he knew was coming. Slowly I continued on. "I... just." I began to stutter. When it came down to it, it became hard.

"Just say it." Yuan whispered. My eyes lit up when I heard Yuan's soft and sweet whisper.

"Yuan, I think I have... grown far more attached to you then ever imaginable. Yuan I..." I began but leaned in and pressed my lips against his. For once this wasn't a dream I would be rudely awaken from. This was really happening, and he was accepting me. I felt him lean closer to me and extend his hands to pull me closer, deepening the kiss. I never wanted to let him go. The countless years I spent searching for the special someone, that special meaning in life, and he was right in front of me, fighting beside me. And now more than ever did I appreciate it.

After each kiss, he leaned in for another, and I felt weightless. Hell, it felt better than any dream ever would, and I knew that for a fact. I had Yuan, and he had me. He whispered and leaned his head against mine.

"I'm so glad.." Yuan whispered and a single tear fell from his face. "That you're here..." he ended and brushed his face against mine. I reached out and whipped the tear from his face. He was too beautiful to cry.

"Yuan..." I whispered and held him closely in my arms, in a tight hug. His grasp was never ending and I didn't want to end ever. I could feel the relief and happiness in his weeps, and the desperation he had over the past months to tell me the same.

"Don't ever leave me.." Yuan whispered, holding me tightly. "Don't ever leave me..." he pleaded.

"I won't... I promise you, Yuan." I felt his body shake intensely as I just held him like this before he retreated his head and starred me in the eye.

"Kratos..." He whispered, trying to find the right words.

"Yes?" I asked, seeing how much he struggling with everything.

"Thank you..." and he kissed me again. I couldn't have asked for a better confession. After a few more moments we both went back inside to discuss matters of Cruxis and have some lunch. We had a better understanding of each other... and now we could possibly live together.. not as friend's but as people who shared a mutual bond with each other. For every word he said to me, and every touch kept telling me I was home. I was finally home...

AN:

So much more emotional than COAA, isn't it? I loved writing the ending, it was so angsty and fluffy, I was nearly crying. Try wriitng a fanfic and not having KratosxYuan tell eaach other they care or kiss for the first time for six chapters! It's brutal! Anyways, the next chapters will be more kxY before the first plot twist and released. And trust me, if you think the whole thing coming up will be boring, don't suspect that. This is Kratos POV after all :) By the way, drop me a review!