Okay ppls heres my next chap! I have up to 8 done and am working on the 9th, i have so many ideas bouncing around in my head! I have to get them out! thanks for all the reviews!
meeaz:hey he is gonna fight hard! but will it work?...
IluvSmallvilleDBZSailormoon:hey good luck with the hurricane! u'd better not stop writing My Love! lol that was kind of stalker-ish of lex! lol
Eviv:Truth is one of my fave episodes!
bluengreenswmer94:that is my fave new show! the horse thing will definently continue! horses r the best! o and u better put up ur next chap! i did my part of the deal!
Nicki-hunny:i love love love kelly clarkson! i'm going to her concert this summer! i'm so excited!
Kit Merlot:heck yes he'd gonna have to work hard! i like my new title too! lol
Disclaimer:dont own smallville or the songs! duh!
Ch. 3 Songs of Torture
Chloe
I opened my e-mail, it was from Lex and audio only. I smiled slightly, knowing he was only playing my game with me. Too bad Lex, your gonna lose this one, music is my turf. I opened the message and was surprised at the song he chose.
(Hoobastank--The Reason)
I'm not a perfect personThere's many things I wish I didn't doBut I continue learningI never meant to do those things to youAnd so I have to say before I goThat I just want you to know
You didn't mean to do those things? Well nice timing telling me now!
I've found a reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over newand the reason is you
What? Me?
I'm sorry that I hurt youIt's something I must live with everydayAnd all the pain I put you throughI wish that I could take it all awayAnd be the one who catches all your tearsThats why i need you to hear
This is crazy! Absolutely nuts! You can't take away all the pain! Can you?
I've found a
reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over
newand the reason is Youand the reason is Youand the reason is
Youand the reason is You
He was starting to get to me.
I'm not a perfect personI
never meant to do those things to youAnd so I have to say before I
goThat I just want you to know
Everyone knows you're not perfect. But you're the perfect man for me.
I've found a
reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over
newand the reason is you
I've found a reason to showA side of me you didn't knowA reason for all that I doAnd the reason is you
Wow, that was unexpected, but if he expected to win me over that easily, he was mistaken ... even if that song had almost reached my heart, it wasn't enough to pierce my armor I picked my next weapon and sent it. How long can you keep this up Lex? Chloe why are you doing this to yourself? Why are you torturing yourself like this? It's not me being tortured, it's Lex. Yeah sure that's what you tell yourself.
Clark
I sat in my loft, thinking. And I was thinking about Chloe. Chloe and Lex. I couldn't figure out why they kept denying the thing that would make them happy, kept denying themselves each other. It was completely crazy. I needed to fix this, needed to fix them. Chloe was miserable, Lex was miserable, I had to help. But I was going to need some help. I ran to the house and picked up the phone, dialing the only person I could think of to help.
"Lois?"
"Clark?"
"I need your help with something..."
Lex
I signed on to my e-mail, hoping that she had responded. And, sure enough, there was the message. I pressed play and a song came through the speakers. But it wasn't the kind of song I was hoping for.
(Three Doors Down--Let Me Go)
One more kiss
could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And
all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I
deserve
Chloe I promise I'll never lie to you again.
In my head there's only you
now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make
believe
And this seems real to me
You love me but you don't
know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I
stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go
Chloe you're wrong, I do know you.
I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I
turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When
I know what I'm goin' through
This love could be a
great thing! You can't turn your back on loving me, it doesn't work
that way.
In my head there's only you now
This
world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And
this seems real to me
You love me but you don't know who I
am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love
me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me
goooooo...
Let me go
I can't let you go Chloe.
And no matter
how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I
knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only
one who knows
Who knows
You love me
but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and
where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So
let me go
Just let me go
Chloe I can't just let you go, it would kill me.
And you love me but you
don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know
who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you
don't
You love me but you don't know me
I'm sorry Chloe, but there's no way I can do that, I can't just let you go. I searched the Web for the perfect song to fit...and found it. Almost perfect.
Chloe
I had sat at my computer doing nothing except listening to music and waiting for a response all night. I couldn't sleep, all I could think about was Lex. And then it came in, his e-mail. I pressed play...and my breath caught in my throat. This was one of the most romantic songs on the radio.
(Frankie J--How To Deal)
Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do
Do I live my life with you as my wife
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I don't I'll probably regret it
But if I do I'll probably regret it
How do I cope
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you
You don't need me Lex.
It's killing me to know
That your heart hurts with me
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry
Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life that I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime without you
I'm sure you'll find some other girl.
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you
how
do you deal when you can't be with the one you love
and the one
that you love is with somebody else (i don't know, i don't know)
and
what do you do when you know she don't love him and she loves me but
she just can't stand loving you far away
guess I'm gonna have
to..you just \ deal with it (deal with it)
i don't wanna have to
live with it...you just deal with it (deal with it)
oh no no, you
just deal with it (deal with it)
i don't want nobody else lovin
you...you just gotta deal with it (deal with it)
i don't want
nobody else lovin me
how
do you cope when
the one you love is
with somebody else
and
there's nothing you can do about it
how do you deal with
the
fact that you had a chance
but you chose to turn away for your
career
i gotta take it
though its heartbreakin
its
something that i had to do
but nobody said that it would hurt so
bad
so how do i live
how do i deal without you
Oh wow. Did he really need me? I sat there for a moment, stunned. Wake up Chloe! You can't let him win! I shook my head, thinking, mentally going through every song I knew. And found the perfect one.
Lex
It was one in the morning, I had to be at work by five, but I knew there was no way I was going to sleep, so I'd just call in sick. Chloe's response came and I listened, surprised that my choice of romantic apology song hadn't won her over.
(Alicia Keys--Karma)
Weren't you the
one who said that you don't want me anymore
And how you need your
space and give the keys back to your door
And how I cried and
tried and tried to make you stay with me
And still you said your
love was gone and that I had to leave
Now you're Talking bout a
family
Now you're saying I complete your dreams
Oh
Now
you're sayin I'm your everything
You're confusing me
What you
saying to me, don't play wit me, don't play wit me
Cause...
Chloe I would never play with you, you're too important to me.
What goes around
comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin',
desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What
goes up must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin', to come back
You're right Chloe.
I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin
for you til 3 o'clock in the 'morn
And when you came home you'd
always have some sorry excuse
Half explaining to me like I'm just
some kind of a fool
I sacrificed the things I wanted just to do
things for you
But when it's time to do for me
You never come
thru
Now you wanna be up under me
Now you have so much to say
to me
Now you wanna make time for me
Whatcha doin to me, you're
confusin me
Don't play with me don't play with me cause
I don't want to confuse you. I'll say it straight.
What goes
around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's
cryin', desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes
around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin',
to come back
What goes around
comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin',
desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What
goes up must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin', to come back
You're right, I got what I deserved.
I remember when I was sittin home
alone
Waitin for you till 3 o'clock in the 'morn
Night after
night knowing something goin' on
Wasn't long before I be gone
Lord
knows it wasn't easy believe me
Never thought you'd be the one
that would deceive me
And never do what you're supposed to do
No
need to approach me fool, cuz I'm over you
Chloe you can't be over me, I didn't want to deceive you.
What goes around
comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin',
desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What
goes up must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin', to come
back
Gotta stop trying to come back to me
What goes
around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's
cryin', desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes
around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin,
desirin', to come back
It's called Karma baby and it goes around
I sighed, she still hadn't forgiven me. What was going to take to break through this armor she had built? I had to find something...Oh this one's good.
Chloe
It was almost 2:00 AM, but tomorrow was Saturday, I didn't have any classes. My computer beeped, another e-mail.
(Jesse McCartney--Beautiful Soul.
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Oh so this time I should believe you.
I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
You already were the one I always needed.
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I felt the music beginning to work, but I couldn't let that happen. Yet I couldn't stop it.
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I want the same thing Lex.
You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me that chance
I will never make you cry
C'mon let's try
You already made me cry Lex. You are making me cry. A tear slowly slid down my cheek as the soft lyrics worked their way into my heart.
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Okay Lex, okay. More tears followed the first, he had gotten the right song, that's for sure.
Am I crazy for wanting you?
Maybe do you think you could want me too?
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do?
I just wanna know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide
You are crazy for wanting me and...I already want you.
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Your beautiful soul, yeah
Lex I just can't give up that easily, I don't want to get hurt again. I needed a good song to respond and once again Kelly saved the day.
Lex
I hoped my song worked, it just had too. I stared at the computer for about five minutes, my mind going crazy, I couldn't stop thinking about her. I needed her back. And until I had her there was nothing to do but try. All I could do was sit here and wait...until she responded. I recognized the song, it was her favorite artist, Kelly Clarkson.
(Kelly Clarkson--I Hate Myself For Losing You)
I woke up today
Woke
up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I
have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now
dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to
say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
Chloe you can't blame yourself, everything is my fault!
I
hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate
myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the
mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
Chloe it's not your fault!
You got what you deserved
Hope
you're happy now
'Cause every time I think of her with you
It's
killing me
Inside, and
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I
can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And,
oh
I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I
wish you knew
Now I know Chloe, and I want to save you.
I hate myself for
losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing
you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at
you is why he's not here?
I hate myself for losing you
And
oh, I don't know what to do
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't
know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
No, no
I
hate myself for losing you
(I'm seeing it all so clear)
I'm
seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you
do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not
here?
What do you say when everything's said?
Is the reason why
he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you
shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving
you
Chloe please don't say that, please don't say that. She can't hate herself for loving me! Wait...she loved me! I had to convince her that it wasn't her fault, that I wanted her back, that she was all I ever thought about. Was there a song that could possibly convey all that emotion? There had to be, and if there was, I would find it.
Haha another cliffhanger! aren't I evil? well this isn't a big cliffhanger...i know exactly what the next chap is going to be, just wait! i want at least 5 reviews! or no more chaps for a week! haha! lol, o and I'm going to be gone for a week at soccer camp so u'll have plenty of time to get those reviews in! if u do review, i promise to post a chap as soon as i get back!
