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Ch. 6 I'm Miserable Without You
Lex
I got out of bed reluctantly, feeling tired and sore.
"Lucas!" No answer, "Lucas where are you?" There was a note taped to the refrigerator door.
Lex,
gone to "fix" things
Lucas
Great what now? I reached into the fridge and grabbed a couple of beers, no scotch tonight, just beer. I collapsed on the couch and turned on the T.V. I flipped through every station and, finding nothing, I turned it off and flipped on the stereo. It was playing country, how quaint. Lucas had taken a liking to country. I sighed but didn't turn it off. I grabbed my beer and stared at a picture of Chloe on the end table. It was of her back in high school, Clark had given it to me. She was looking at something off frame and laughing, her hair around her face, her eyes sparkling. How a picture could capture so much spirit and fire and hold it in was amazing. Or maybe it was the beer. I tuned into the music and sighed, what a great song to be playing now.
(Tim McGraw - Old Town New)
On a lover's lee with a freeway view
Sittin' on my hood
Thinkin' bout you
Going over in my mind
Every kiss and every fire
Yeah the fool on the hill
Is leading down another night
I never stop thinking about you.
There were days so hard
I thought I had to go
I'd get in my car
And just follow the road
But this is my home
And it's who I am
And I know I'd stay
If I could make this old town new again
Metropolis is always old to me. Smallville is worse.
Color other than blue again
I'd have something to do again
Instead of thinking about you again
But the people I know
The places I go
Remind me of you
Oh, somebody come around
And make this old town new
Even going to visit my father reminds me of all the times I visited you in the hospital.
There were nights so long
I thought the sun burned out
And there were girls so wrong
I don't want to talk about
I was burning up the night
Yeah, in an alcohol flame
Lightin' up my way
Trying to make this old town new again
But it's not working!
Color other than blue again
I'd have something to do again
Instead of thinking about you again
But the people I know
The places I go
Remind me of you
Won't somebody come around
And make this old town new
This is crazy! How can everything remind me of you, Chloe?
(Keith Urban - The Hard Way)
You've
got your own way of looking at it baby
I guess that proves that I
got mine
Seems like our hearts are set on automatic
We say
the first thing that comes to mind
It's just who we are baby,
we've come too far to start over now
I know what you're thinkin'
; I'm not always easy to be around
I never was.
But I do love you
You keep me believin' that
you love me too
And I know it's true
This love drives us
crazy but nobody's walkin' away
So, I guess we'll to do it the
hard way
Chloe you're driving me insane!
If
I had a genie in a bottle
Three wishes I could wish for us
I
wish we'd live forever and get along together
Turn these tempers
into trust
With our tempers? That would be hard.
But
I do love you
You keep me believin' that you love me too
And
I know it's true
This love drives us crazy but nobody's walkin'
away
So, I guess we'll to do it the hard way
I do love you Chloe.
Do
it the hard way
It's just who we are baby, we've come to far
to start over now
Believe me tonight love's the one thing in life
we can't live without
But I do love you
You keep me
believin' that you love me too
And I know it's true
This love
drives us crazy but nobody's walkin' away
So, I guess we'll to do
it the hard way
Do it the hard way
The hard way
The hard way? How much harder could it get? I started my second beer, not taking my eyes off Chloe's picture.
(Keith Urban - You Won)
There
was a world outside my door
I wasn't in touch with anymore
There
was a way I used to feel
I knew what was and wasn't real
You
built a bridge, I tore it down
I felt safe on shaky ground
And
I was a master of despair
Making believe I didn't care
I tried to pretend not to care, but you saw through it.
I
shouldn't be standing here today
After all the crazy things I've
done
I'm ready to fall and that's OK
I ran as far as I could
run
You won
You won Chloe, I'm not running anymore.
Out of a world turned
upside down
It took some time to come around
Out of a dream
you made me whole
Yes you did
You lit a fire down in my soul
I never felt so alive as when I'm with you Chloe.
I
shouldn't be standing here today
After all the crazy things I've
done
I'm ready to fall and that's OK
I ran as far as I could
run
You won
I've already fallen, all that's left is for you to pick me up.
I
shouldn't be standing here today
After all the crazy things I've
done
I'm ready to fall and that's OK
I ran as far as I could
run
You won
And you won
I'm ready to fall
I
thought I knew what I was doing
I thought I was in control
I
thought nobody could slow me down
But what did I know
I was
just a kid, a motherless child
No one to watch over me I was
runnin' wild
Free of all responsibility 'til my life
And my
love for myself caught up with me
Yeah, it caught up with me
And
now I'm (ready to fall), yes I am
So ready
I'm ready to love you again Chloe. Please understand that. I picked up my fifth beer, swallowing tears.
(Keith Urban - She's Gotta Be)
So
much for never makin' the same mistake
I can't believe I'm here
again
So much for ever thinkin' that I could change
My good
intentions still remain in chains
I tried to start over, tried not to hurt you. But it just didn't work Chloe.
She's gotta be over me now
Probably moved on
with her life
Found someone she knows she can believe
God I
would give anything if I could just go back again
And be the man
she needed me to be
If I could just go back to that day I left the hospital, or the day I drugged her, or the restaurant,
I would change everything!
I
thought I was a hero
I played him well
He saves the day but
not himself
I acted out the lover
My finest part
Had all
the lines but not the heart
Now look where we are
I do love you Chloe, but now you'll never come back to me.
She's gotta be over me now
Probably moved on with her life
Found
someone she knows she can believe
God I would give anything if I
could just go back again
And be the man she needed me to be
She needed me to be there for her, and I left.
Be
the man that she could trust, who put her first
Who tamed his
demons, who healed her hurts
In health and sickness, who helped
her grow
With no resentment, true repentance, God as my witness
If I could just have trusted myself not to hurt her, none of this would have happened.
She's
gotta be over me now
Probably moved on with her life
Found
someone she knows she can believe
God I would give anything if I
could just go back again
And be the man she needed me to be
She's
gotta be over me now
Probably moved on with her life
Found
someone she knows she can believe
God I would give anything if I
could just go back again
And be the man she needed me to be
She needed me to be
She needed me to be, oh
Whoa,
hallelujah
Yeah, I could be that man she needed me, she needed me
to be
This was crazy! Nobody can change the past, not even a Luthor.
(Keith Urban - Tonight I Wanna Cry)
Alone
in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down
and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls
around me the way that it was and should have been surrounds me
I'll
never get over you walkin' away
I'll never get over you.
Well I've never been the kind to ever
let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never
losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my
pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my
eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.
Tears slowly started to fall down my face. My love for Chloe was slowly starting to break my heart, she was gone, and there was nothing I could do about it.
Would
it help if i turned a sad song on
"All by Myself" would
sure hit me hard, now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old
yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets
better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way
I can't hide my pain anymore.
Cause I've never been the kind
to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong
meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to
let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain,
from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.
oOOo
Well I've
never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought
that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm
just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this
pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.
mmhmm mm
To
hell with my pride! I'm alone, I can cry. And I did, I cried until I
thought all my tears had dried up, and then I cried some more.
(Keith Urban - Nobody Drinks Alone)
You
brought that bottle home in a paper sack
Drew the blinds and
locked the doors
And there's nothing but empty there inside that
glass
So you pour a little more
And there's no one there to
judge you
At least that's what you tell yourself, but
There is no one here to judge me.
Don't you know
Nobody
drinks alone
Every demon, every ghost
From your past
And
every memory you've held back
Follows you home
Nobody drinks
alone
The only memories affecting me are my memories of Chloe.
You
remember whiskey on your daddy's breath
So you always stick to
wine
And you scared your little brother half to death
You just
kept it all inside
You can hear your mama cryin'
Only now she
cries for you, and
I can't keep it inside anymore! I finished my seventh beer and opened my eighth.
Don't you know
Nobody drinks alone
Every
demon, every ghost
From your past
And every memory you've held
back
Follows you home
Nobody drinks alone
Though you're
lonely
Hey don't you let that feelin' fool ya
I'll always be lonely without Chloe.
Don't
you know
Nobody drinks alone
Every demon, every ghost
From
your past
And every memory you've held back
Follows you
home
Nobody drinks alone
Nobody
drinks alone
No when I drink, Chloe haunts me.
(Tim McGraw - It's Your Love)
Dancin'
in the dark
Middle of the night
Takin' your heart
And
holdin' it tight
Emotional touch
Touchin' my skin
And
askin' you to do
What you've been doin' all over again
Oh,
it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
I
just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go
It's
your love
It just does somethin' to me
It sends a shock right
through me
I can't get enough
And if you wonder
About the
spell I'm under
It's your love
Chloe you affect me like nothing I've ever known.
Better than I
was
More than I am
And all of this happened
By takin'
your hand
If I'd have just never met you, none of this would have happened.
And
who I am now
Is who I wanted to be
And now that we're
together
I'm stronger than ever
I'm happy and free
I'd be happy if you were with me, if you loved me.
Oh,
it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in, no
And
if you asked me why I changed
All I gotta do is say your sweet
name
Chloe you changed me, and I can't forget you.
It's your love
It
just does somethin' to me
It sends a shock right through me
I
can't get enough
And if you wonder
About the spell I'm under
It's your love
Oh, baby
Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
I just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go
It's your love
It
just does somethin' to me
It sends a shock right through me
I
can't get enough
And if you wonder
About the spell I'm under
It's your love
It's your love
It's your love
This was insane! Why did Lucas have all these sad songs on here? He was going to pay for making me feel this way. Wait it wasn't him, it was Chloe. Oh shit! I finished my ninth beer and passed out gratefully.
Lucas
I secretly watched Lex from the other room, when he passed out with tears streaming down his face, I figured that had to be enough. I flipped open my cell phone.
"Clark? It's Lucas, I think it worked, he looks pretty miserable to me. What's next?"
"Really? Great! Now here's what you do..."
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