No Excuses

Disclaimer: I don't own YYH or any characters in it.

A/N: The first YYH fic I've posted in a LONG time. Not going to be very long, and not necessarily a happy ending... Kind of basing this off of stuff going on in my life right now. Enjoy and review!

Kurama's POV (Just for this chappie)

The worst pain is the pain of loving in vain.

This is what my mother told me, once when I broke up with my girlfriend back in the ninth grade. We had loved each other, but she gave out towards the end.

I always think about this. It's probably the truest thing ever.

Death? Sucks, but once it comes, the pain's done. I should know. Suffering and making it out alive? We move on.

The death of a loved one... Having a bleeding chunk of your heart cut out and smashed against a wall until it's a pulp.

But it's only the second worst.

My name is Kurama, or Shuichi, Minamino, previously known as Youko. But enough about me.

Point is, when you're grieving over a dead relationship that has lasted for years, you have time to think - Your mother tells your aunt tells your cousin tells your grandmother, and when you go to the family reunions, everyone's like whoa, watch out, he's about to have a breakdown, be sympathetic, call the girl a bitch, stay out of the way, off up some cake, back off. So, basically, they want to give you space, and there's a lot of alone time.

So, me being the thoughtful person I am, I had a feeling there was something else my mother was trying to tell me.

The worst pain is the pain of loving in vain.

After repeating this in my head for days on end, I figured it out, but at the time it meant nothing to me.

There are actually two sub-forms of this pain - Loving someone while they love someone else, or the more discreet one - Loving someone while not telling them until the feelings die.

I am here to tell you about this second form of torture... and some of the first. It hurts more than having the Black Dragon unleashed upon you.

May you never feel this pain.

A/N: Short, but the plot will come into focus and it will get longer. Review!