Disclaimer:Don't own a thing.
Pairing:Speed/Calleigh friendship with a little romance
Rating: P-G 13 (I never know)
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"Why'ed she have to die?" Calleigh asked in a very vunerable voice breaking the silence that had settled upon the room.
"I don't know," he said sadly as he kissed the top of her head
" Why does anyone have to die for that matter," he asked a minute latter.
Something in his voice told Calleigh that she was not the only one in the room that had lost someone close to them. She just needed a way to get him to open up to her.
"We all have to die at some point Tim. Its just even more heart breaking when it happens to someone who had so much a head of them," Calleigh said through a new wave of tears.
She couldn't help but think of everything that Janet had going for her.
Calleighs words hit home for Tim. Thoughts of Tony came to his mind. He had had so much life left to live, and one stupid mistake took that all away.
Even though the accident had happened over ten years before, Tim could feel angery tears coming to his eyes. But he told himself to buck up. This was Calleighs time to grieve. It was her time to be comforted.
And thats why he cuddled closer with her. Silently letting her know that he was a safe place to go. That he was someone she could depend on.
That was how Calleigh felt too. That she was safe with him. She realized that she had ruined her I'm-strong-enough-to-handle-anything-on-my-own image, and frankly, at that moment she could care less.
She was wrapped in the arms of a man who cared enough about her and her well being, to come and see how she was, and cared enough to stick around when he saw her world crumbing at her feet.
The only way she could describe him was, her hero. And she didn't know how to pay back the favor.
But as she sat there, thinking over what had happened that evening, she remembered that something was eating at him.
She knew it had something to do with having losted someone close to him. She just needed to find out who and when.
"Tim?"she said his name quietly, but loud enough to get his attention.
"Umhum." He was too lost in thought, and the feel of having Calleigh curled up next to him to form a coherant response.
"Have you ever lost a bestfriend?" she asked sadly. She didn't know where the question had come from,but all in all she was glad she asked it.
Tim was taken aback by her question, but chose to answer it anyway. He knew he would be opening old wounds, but something inside him told said that if he did now, the wounds would be healed better to some degree.
"Yes. I have lost a bestfriend." he said slowly, pausing before he continued." His name was Tony, and he died when we were 18. We were on our sinor trip to Aspen, and there was a snowmobil accident and he was killed,"he didn't go into much detail, but still felt like he has revealed so much about himself.
Tim had no clue where the courage to tell all of that came from but he was glad that he had.
"I'm sorry. I can honestly say that I know how much that must have hurt. How much it must still hurt."she said quitly as she looked up into his misty eye's that mirrored her own.
"Yeah, it still hurts,"he said with a small smile as he cupped her face;caressing her cheek with his thumb."But you find that you have to grieve and then move on. You realize there are more important things in this world, people, to focus your energy on.There does come a point where life becomes easier to handle." he said knowingly.
This tid-bit of information made Calleigh feel hopeful,yet fearful at the same time, making more tears pool in her eyes.
He saw a tear spill from her puffy eyes and gentally whipped it away. He felt her do the same to him, and only then did he realize that he had been crying.
She saw the embarrassment flash across the soulful eyes she had been staring into, and leaned forward to kiss him lightly on the cheek,before whispering into his ear.
"There's nothing to be ashamed of Tim. Everyone has to cry at some point in their lives.Espeically after such a lose."
She pulled away enough to look at his reaction to her words.
She saw a rainbow of emtions flash over his face, before it landed on slightly unreadable.
"Calleigh..." he tried to reason with her. To tell her that it was her time to greive, not his, but she wouldn't let him even start.
"Tim...Shhhhh." she said as she straddled his waist and put a finger to his lips." We BOTH are grieving, and dealing with these loses.So let's be there for each other." She begged him ,as tears once again streamed down her face.
Tim understood that this was what she needed, and complyed to her wishes, with a simple ,"okay," as he brushed away her tears and fixed her hair.
"Thank you," she sofly drawled as she searched his eye's for an indication that her next move would be recipriacted. When she found it she leaned down gentaly, lightly kissing Tim's lips.
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Don't kill me for leaving it there. I promise to work on getting another part up soon. I hope you enjoyed it and as always please review!
~Dorothy