…then again, maybe Iris is wrong. It's happening isn't it?
"I've been thinking" Chaos rubbed the back of his neck in bashfully, and grinned weakly.
"Yes?" Fenris gave an awkward look to Chaos, sort of distant. Ever since days filled with Chaos and Iris together all the time, Fenris is trying hard to forget everything about Chaos, their past and all around it by avoiding him.
"Remember when we…umm…reacquainted in Fayon?" Chaos gave another idiotic grin that suddenly turned to a smirk.
Fenris nodded, wishing Chaos would hurry up with his sentences, so she could get over the look, the situation, the past, everything. What made her hurt is the way he looked at her, his eyes; those were the most hurtful sense, she thought. The sight, Balder's sight.
"What you said…was it true?" Chaos looked deep into Fenris' eyes.
"Pretty much" Fenris shrugged, she couldn't believe her ears. Maybe Chaos isn't that childish as she thought. But him, acting up every day, complaining, making a fool of himself is not quite the person she knew before.
"Can I ask you something, something, I never got the courage to ask too" Chaos licked his dry lips and cleared his throat.
"Whatever it is, I'm sure-…" But before Fenris could finish her sentence, Chaos cut her off and asked the impossible.
"Did I love you?"
Fenris' heart stopped beating, her veins stopped flowing blood, her head was above the sky, her hands were freezing, her ears were ringing with silence, her lungs were out of breath. All of a sudden, everything felt surreal; it was a trance, a huge mistaken trance, it was unanswered.
The fair-haired girl looked at her beloved, she tries so hard to cast away her feelings in battles, concentrating on destroying Freya, and not concentrating on him. She closed her eyes and faced the Goddess. Her body was so fragile now, everything was indignant, even the God next to her, they were weak but determined. They were both Gods, but somehow, there was something different with this one. She knew she was way stronger than them both, but there was no choice, dead or not, they're both on thin ice and will eventually die anyway.
"Balder" she softly whispered, but enough to be heard over the rain, and thunder, the growling of the monsters, and everything else.
"Yes?" Balder looked up to her, and tried to give a comforting smile.
"I have to know something"
"What is it?"
"For everything that we did, we've been through…and what we have…"
Balder gave a confusing look, once every second worrying the Wolf God's heartrending and concerned eyes, it was almost as if she's dead.
"Do you love-"
"Fenris! Look-…" But before Fenris could finish her sentence, Balder jumped down to Fenris' body, as though he's protecting her from something. Fenris was confused, she looked at the God, lifeless and suddenly, blood was flowing from the right side of his mouth. The God looked at her helplessly but peacefully, she still didn't get it, she looked up front, and all she could see was the blade of Freya struck down the middle of his back, penetrating him. Fenris still didn't understand, how did she- the rest was tears, tears, blood, and raindrops falling, down everything, to the soil, to the ground, right to the grave, to Hel, to death. She felt dead.
"D-do I?" Balder gave her a last look and smiled at her, suddenly, his head fell on her shoulders, empty, meaningless, and so Freya took her blade, still with the lifeless God on the edge, tears falling down of his eyes, still alive but somehow dead.
"Say goodbye to your God, little Wolf" Freya cynically hissed, and with her strong self, she picked up the blade, and struck it down the soil, penetrating down below, with the God still dangling and now buried alive, bleeding, and…dead.
"You…never answered" Fenris gazed at his eyes, and saw the lost God in him, her God, her only God, the God she loved…she knew.
"Why?" Chaos gave a puzzled look.
"I…don't know"
"Don't do this to me Fenris, what happened? Why didn't I answer?"
"You…well, were, sort of…lifeless…"
"You mean, dead?"
Fenris nodded silently.
"…how?"
"You were trying to protect me from Freya's blade, and her blade ended up penetrating…you"
"I see, well then…I answered"
"…what?"
"I wouldn't risk my life for someone if I didn't had enough compassion for them, I loved you then"
"I guess…so"
"Did you love me?"
Fenris couldn't stop thinking about that one image, 'did you love me?'. 'Of course I did, Balder, I loved you then, you're the only one I get to love'. Fenris neared the Knight to the point that she could feel his breath, his warm breath, just like before, like always, before there was anything, no Iris, no Loki, no…madness. Just them both, putting up through the world with their hearts. She neared him even more, their lips brushing gently and so they did what they always use to do. They kissed. They kissed, like they never kissed before, she waited long to feel his lips once more. The kiss was different, it was hectic, rowdy, passionate, burning, wild, havoc and confused, it truly was Chaos.