Title: Falling Through

Author: alienangel19852003

Summary: Phil and Keely are best friends, and they've been that way for three years. Despite the fact that both of them want to be so much more. Keely decides to go out with someone else just to shake Phil up so that he'll admit his feelings, it ends up scarring the both of them more than they can ever imagine. The secret they have to live with ends up bringing them closer than ever.

Rating: M, rape, violence, teen partying, teen pregnancy.

Disclaimer: I do not own POTF, I cannot stress that enough. Title comes from Over My Head (Cable Car) by the Fray.

Author's Note: Another night awake, not because of my two main hobbies writing and drinking, no because I was wilding out in the wal-mart supercente (it don't have no "r" at the end so it's the supercente') Not the best chapter this one but I hope you'll like it I swear the next one will be loads better. It's were the angst really comes in.

"Miss you, I miss you so bad"

A week had passed and Phil saw even less of Keely, they were speaking at least but nowhere near as close as they were only a week before. Keely was quieter and she seemed to have lost some of her spunk. He thought that was strange and he wasn't the only one, Via and Owen both flanked him in the hallway.

"Phil," Via said seriously as she linked her arm through his and Owen did the same on the other side.

"Another intervention?" Phil asked.

"The last one didn't go so well did it?" She asked.

"I guess not." Phil mumbled.

"Phil, something is really wrong. Keely is not talking to any of us." Via said.

"I've tried calling her she won't take my calls. I've tried talking to her in the broadcast lab, and she would barely say anything. She wouldn't even look me in the eye." Phil said.

"What are we going to do? I miss my Keely." Owen whined.

Via and Phil looked at him and then back at each other.

"I miss her too." Phil said, he'd been going through the motions from day to day he felt like he'd lost a part of himself when Keely pulled away.

"You've got to do something. Or we'll lose her…to them." Via said cocking her head toward some jocks and their trophy girlfriends.

"Would it really be so bad if she were happy? Even if she's not our best friend anymore she should be happy and if she is well…I can't ruin it." Phil said.

"But she's not happy Phil. You know how Keely is when she's happy, remember the day you guys decided to go to the dance and you guys were dancing in the hallway. We all really thought you guys were really going to get together then." Via smiled.

"I know, I'm just scared. What if telling her how I feel pushes her even further away?"

"Is she worth the risk?" Via asked.

"She's everything to me." Phil admitted.

"Well, there's your answer." Via said, unlinking her arm and Owen did the same and Phil was alone again.

It was the last day of school the jubilant cries of the other students and the banging of lockers wasn't enough to bring Keely from her troubled thoughts. Phil had tried talking to her, she couldn't bring herself to say anything she'd never been more ashamed of her own actions in her life.

She walked the halls of H.G. Wells Jr./Sr. High Schoollike a zombie. She stared ahead unblinking not caring about her surroundings when someone grabbed her hand and pulled her into the janitor's closet. Her body tensed, she hoped it wasn't Bruno trying to cop another feel before class.

The light clicked on and it was Phil standing in front of her. Looking at him made her heart ache, she missed him. He looked so cute standing there.It was taking everything in her not to throw herself in his arms and beg him to make it all go away; she knew he would take care of her no matter what she'd done. But she couldn't ask him to do that, she'd gotten herself into a mess and she would have to get herself out. She didn't deserve someone like him.

"Keely, we need to talk." Phil said.

"I know I haven't been hanging with you, or the others–"

"That's part of it but it's something else that I should have told you a long time ago. I know you're with Bruno and I don't wanna mess that up for you but I…have felt this way for a long time." Phil said.

Keely couldn't breathe, a sob caught in her throat she could feel the tears starting.

"Keely, I love you. I don't know when I fell so hard for you but it happened, and I always thought that we'd eventually be something more. These past few days have been hell for me I've never missed anyone the way I miss you." He admitted.

"I love you too Phil…" she said before she could stop herself.

"Then why are you with him?" he demanded.

"I've got to go…I'll be late for Chemistry." Keely whispered crying so hard a whisper was all she could really muster.

"Damn it! Keely just tell me why." Phil said, looking like he was going to start crying too.

"You wanna know why? I don't deserve you Phil you're perfect and I'm just not." Keely said simply as she opened to door to the little room leaving him in there.

She ran as fast as her legs could take her, she ended up outside by the batting cages, she fell to her knees on the soft grass and cried. She had never fucked up so royally in her life, she'd walked away from the best friend she'd ever had and so much more. She just didn't deserve him after what she'd done, the way she let Bruno treat her.

Finally, she got to her feet and started back toward the school. The tear tracks were clearly visible on her face, under normal circumstances she would have immediately gone to clean herself up, but she didn't care anymore. Her white tennis skirt had about a million grass stains on it, so many that it might as well have been green, but she walked on like a zombie ignoring the dirt on her knees.

She ended up running into someone she really didn't want to see right then. She didn't see Bruno coming until his large hands were on her wrapping themselves around her waist; he spun her and made her face him.

He bit his lip as he took in her appearance before leaning in to whisper, "You have no idea how bad I want you right now."

"Bruno…" she whispered, trying to squirm out of his grasp but he pulled her tighter against him his hands moving down her hips to finally rest on her behind grabbing her bottom pushing their hips together.

"I wish we had more time right now, I'd teach you a few things. But we've got to go for a beer run."

"Maybe I should go home I'm all dirty and gross." Keely said.

Bruno let her go she took a step back, and he gave her a once over finally seeing her disheveled appearance.

"Have you been crying?" Bruno asked noticing the tear tracks for the first time.

The gruff tone of his voice caused Keely to back up against some lockers, he reached out and grabbed her chin tilting her face upwards so he could see her clearly, and she knew he could hear her heart beating from where he stood. The inner voice was telling her to run to get away, but she stood there petrified.

"Have you?" he whispered.

She nodded.

"Go wash your face, and get that dirt off your knees, I'll be in the car. Oh and don't take too long." He told her as he let go and started away.

She nodded watching him walk off she knew she had to get the hell away from that man, but she didn't know how it seemed like Bruno and his friends mate for life when they seriously start dating someone. It was gonna be pretty damned hard to get out of this, but she was going to have to tell him tonight after the party.

She knew Bruno had been around, but she also knew he'd never asked a girl to go steady before so this was pretty serious as far as Bruno's relationships went. She didn't know what she was getting herself into, all she wanted was to be loved. And she was…by the most amazing boy she knew but why was she here with Bruno?

Phil stood there for a long time after she'd left, he couldn't believe this had happened. He couldn't stop the tears from coming, he hadn't cried like this since he was nine and Pim killed their puppy.Keelywas gone; it hurt so much more now than it did hours earlier because he knew how she felt. He knew he should go after her and tell her that he wasn't perfect and she didn't have to be either.

Finally, he left the janitor's closet and went looking for her. He had no luck finding her once the final bell rang and students were running around everywhere, dancing and chatting and he could swear someone was bumping Kenny Loggins in the parking lot. And Phil had never felt more lost in his life.

"Phil!" he heard a female voice shout.

He turned in the direction of the voice, he wasn't expecting Keely, but he wasn't expecting Alicia.

"Alicia?"

"I came by to pick up Uncle Neil." Alicia told him, "What are you doing? You look like someone kicked your puppy."

"I told her how I felt. It didn't go well." Phil said.

"Oh, she didn't feel the same?"

Phil shook his head, "Actually she does feel the same. But she's…I don't know…she thinks she doesn't deserve me."

"Well, what are you doing standing here? You need to find her."

"That's what I was trying to do until the herd got re-released into the wild."

"Yeah, I heard Footloose playing outside." Alicia laughed.

"Yeah." Phil sighed, he had watched that movie with Keely, she loved that kind of stuff.

"Alicia, what did I tell about associating with boys like Phil Diffy?" Hackett's voice floated toward them.

"You told me that it might be good for me to meet some of the boys in the neighborhood." Alicia said putting her hands on her hips.

"Yes, I did. But this boy? There are so many to choose from, and he's practically married to that annoying Teslow girl." Hackett whined.

Phil rolled his eyes, "Keely is not annoying, if anyone here is annoying I daresay it's you." He told Hackett.

Alicia laughed so hard she fell on the floor but Phil was extremely serious.

"Phil!" Pim screamed running down the hall, "We've got to go!"

"What did you do?" both Phil and Hackett asked.

"I didn't do anything. Why do people always assume I've done something? You've just wasted the first five minutes of my summer vacation. I can never get that time back." Pim said.

"Could you take her home? I've got to find Keely." Phil said.

"Sure." Alicia said.

"Cool. I call shotgun!" Pim said.