Title: Falling Through

Author: alienangel19852003

Summary: Phil and Keely are best friends, and they've been that way for three years. Despite the fact that both of them want to be so much more. Keely decides to go out with someone else just to shake Phil up so that he'll admit his feelings, it ends up scarring the both of them more than they can ever imagine. The secret they have to live with ends up bringing them closer than ever.

Rating: M, rape, violence, teen partying, teen pregnancy.

Disclaimer: I do not own POTF, I cannot stress that enough. Title comes from Over My Head (Cable Car) by the Fray.

"Everything changes but beauty remains"

The month of June was coming to a close, and Phil was slowly but surely showing Keely that they were meant to be together. They'd both gotten summer jobs Keely was working at The Gap and Phil was working at the Pickford Country Club. They both had their nights free to spend time together.

Phil was waiting for the other shoe to drop; it was so hard to hope that things would go smoothly after all of the things they'd been through. Keely was working late and he was waiting for her in the food court. He had to give Pim and Little Danny a ride from the movies as well and they were off somewhere wandering the mall parking lot as Phil sat o the hood drumming his fingers on the hood of his car, discovering it was coated with some sticky confection.

"That is the last time Curtis borrows my car." He stated to no one in particular,

It was the perfect cap off to a horrible day, he'd spent the day running back and forth at the Country Club, he did just about everything from golf caddy, to janitor, to lifeguard, to waiter all while warding off the advances of middle aged women. He'd been hit on by Mrs. Collins the Chair of the Pickford Social Committee, chased by Mrs. Gonzales the young Spanish divorcee, and he'd been threatened by a psychotic Cuban waiter. He needed to hold Keely, to remind himself why he was working so hard.

Keely had just cleared out her register. It had been the toughest day she'd had so far. She had been sick for the duration of the day, running to the stock room at regular intervals to throw up in the employee bathroom. She'd got yelled at by a ten year old girl, and she'd been on her feet for twelve hours. She was looking forward to spending some quality time with Phil.

Their relationship was perfect, Phil was so sweet and he was content just to hold her and kiss her. He catered to her every whim even if he was just as tired as she was, and she loved that, he was truly perfect. It was hard for her to believe at times that she did something to deserve someone so wonderful.

She grabbed her purse and exited the shop through the back door as she dug through her purse for her phone. Finding what she was looking for she quickly typed out a text message. She couldn't type on a computer to save her life but she was a text messaging queen.

She heard some crying as she walked around the side of the building. Little Danny was sitting on the ground laughing hysterically and Pim was doing the same as she leaned on a post.

"What are you two doing?" Keely asked.

"Pim…tried to…" Little Danny couldn't finish he was laughing so hard.

"I tried to kiss him…we tried to kiss…angles were all wrong…"

"I see. Where's Phil?" Keely asked.

Little Danny stopped laughing long enough to point right.

"Oh okay," Keely said walking across the parking lot.

She couldn't help but smile thinking about Little Danny getting a kiss from Pim who was usually chasing older boys and over looking her best friend.

"Hey Keely," Phil said from where he sat on the hood of his car.

"Hey." Keely walked up and gave him a hug and a kiss.

"How was your day?" she asked.

"Intolerable. And yours?"

"Just plain sucky." Keely poked out her lower lip because she couldn't think of a better adjective, "I just wanna like sleep for like a century or two."

"Me too…" he said gently caressing her back.

She sighed enjoying the feelings he gave her; he was the only person she allowed to touch her. Her manager had made the mistake of putting a hand on her shoulder and she'd nearly knocked him unconscious with a mannequin she had been dressing.

"So I guess we'll be sleeping through the movie tonight." Keely said.

"Most likely."

"Are we gonna go on a Taco Bell run?" she asked excitedly.

"If you want." He said.

"Mmm…I can taste that nacho now…of course I will have to make some alterations to it first, add some things." Keely said daydreaming about her enhanced nacho.

She had the weirdest cravings and she could never really keep anything down and she was barely a month along. She was apprehensive to see what she would be like at five months pregnant.

"Oooh… and I want a milkshake." Keely said.

"I can make you one at my house; I doubt anything other than Taco Bell is open right now.

Keely kissed his cheek and he walked her around to the passenger side of the car and opened the door for him.

"So…kisses are the new kind of thank you's?" he asked.

"Yes…" she told him.

"Oh…"

"Where are Pim and Little Danny?" Phil asked starting the car.

"They might need a minute. They tried having their first kiss and the angles were all wrong. I found them laughing hysterically on the other side of the parking lot." Keely explained.

"Well, it's about damn time."

"You know some people say that about us too." Keely smirked.

"Yeah…I'm sorry it took so long."

"I don't know if it would feel this way if everything hadn't happened the way it did." Keely said.

"How does it feel?" he asked his heart skipping a beat.

"It feels like everything is right, like we're meant to be. I don't think we'd know if all stuff wouldn't have happened. I think it's amazing that I have a boyfriend that would give up so much to be with me. To go to work everyday at job he hates, just so—"

"Keel, you know I wouldn't have it any other way." Phil told her.

"Oh Phil," she said her chin trembling as she started to cry.

"Keely, baby don't cry," he cupped her face in his hands.

"Phil, I'm not crying because I'm sad. I'm happy, for the first time in a long time I'm truly happy."

"I want you to get used to being happy, 'cause I'm gonna make sure you stay that way." He told her, "You and this child are gonna want for nothing. I don't care how hard I have to work."

"I'm gonna make sure you're happy too." She said as the car door opened.

Phil and Keely turned to regard the younger couple as they slid into the backseat.

"Pim are you blushing?" Phil asked.

"Shut up and drive." She told him with a dopey smile on her face.

Phil had never seen his sister like that before. He laughed; love was the one thing that no one could escape not even Pim, because once you got into it you didn't want to get out of it.

Half an hour later they were all back at his house and he'd finished making Keely her milkshake and they were up in his room watching a DVD and lying in bed.

"So what are what's the plan for Tuesday?" he asked.

"Tuesday?" she said looking confused.

"The Fourth of July picnic." He told her.

"Oh yeah, I was last years Pork Queen. And I have to give the crown to this years winner." Keely said remembering, "The really sad thing was in May this was huge deal to me. Prom was over, and it was another excuse to get all dressed up and be seen."

"Keely, that's a good thing your life has turned a 180 on you and your still standing. So what if things like dances and picnics don't seem so important to you, you have a lot of other things to look forward to." Phil said.

"You're right. My mom is gonna make me wear that star spangled ball gown. And you're going to have to dress like a pirate to walk me to the stage." Keely said.

"Yeah I noticed this years theme was Pirates of the American Revolution while I was helping some of the women from the Social Committee put together the set."

"Aww…you poor thing, I hope those old hens didn't rough you up too much." She said.

"Mrs. Gonzales kept dropping her pens and I had to pick them up for her. Mrs. Collins was bit more subtle today, she's still trying to get me to come to her house to help move that dresser thingy." Phil explained.

"Get Owen to do it." Keely snickered, "He might actually have fun."

"He would. I think I'll introduce him to Mrs. Collins." Phil smirked, pulling Keely closer.

"Is your dad gonna be mad if I sleep over again." Keely said her eyes falling closed as she nuzzled closer to Phil.

"Yeah, but my mom will deal with him."

"I'll send my mom a text and let her know so she won't freak out." Keely said pulling away to get her phone.

Phil watched as she dug in her purse for her phone and typed a text message at the speed of light. Keely sighed when she finished and curled up in his arms again.

"I could get used to this…" she said.

"Mmmm…me too."

"Is this what it would feel like if we were married?" Keely asked.

Phil smiled, "I don't know…Do you think you'll ever be ready for that feeling?"

"Yes. I understand that there are thi—things that we would do if we were married…things that we aren't doing now…"she said.

He could tell from the terrified look on her face that she wasn't ready and wouldn't be for sometime.

"Keely, you know I'd never hurt you…and I'd never rush you into marriage so I can have sex with you." Phil explained.

"I know that… but sex is something married people do…" Keely said.

"When it's right it'll be right Keel." Phil told her.

She kissed him, and decided to take his word for it. She was terrified of the possibility of marriage, for the simple fact that married people have sex. And she was afraid to allow anyone to touch her intimately after the way Bruno had violated her. She knew that Phil must want something from her, some kind of gratification. He would always pull away and stop their make out sessions when they got intense probably hoping she wouldn't notice he was getting aroused.

She noticed and it didn't bother her, she liked knowing that he wanted her like that after everything that had happened to her. She still couldn't bring herself to do more than kiss him, and hold him even though she loved Phil with all of her heart.

"I know you have to want to go farther with me sometimes." She said in the darkness, long after they had put on their pajamas and he had turned out the light.

"Keely…"

"Phil, I know you'd never ask me to do anything and that you'd never—do anything. But I'm not ready, I love you more than anything Phil and I wish that we could explore that world together but it's still too soon." She whispered.

"I understand, and baby I'm not rushing you...when I have my first time it'll be with you and it'll be when the time is right. I don't care if we're sixty and the kid you're carrying right now has grandkids." He told her.

Keely smiled in the dark and turned in the circle of his arms.

"Does this make you feel uncomfortable?" she said gazing at his moonlit face.

"No," he said pushing some of her hair out of her eyes.

"Good, I like being close to you. And I know that one day soon I'll be ready to make love." Keely told him.

She kissed him again harder offering up more emotion that before, the lust and the passion she didn't allow herself to feel for him. He moaned and threaded his fingers through her hair. And she knew that she was with her soul mate that there was no need to be scared of anything anymore.

She pulled away breathless, and gazed at him with hooded eyes, "Yeah…I don't think it'll long before I'm ready…"

"Keely…" Phil panted, "You've never kissed me like that before."

"I just realized that I want all of you…heart, soul, body, and mind. I want you Phil." She said.

"I want you too Keely. Let's just give it some time before we rush...ah fuck it…" he said kissing her again.

Keely finally feel asleep on Phil's chest after seemingly endless kisses that left them both wanting so much more from each other. Keely was finally looking forward to the day when she and Phil made love instead of dreading it.