Title: Falling Through
Author: alienangel19852003
Summary: Phil and Keely are best friends, and they've been that way for three years. Despite the fact that both of them want to be so much more. Keely decides to go out with someone else just to shake Phil up so that he'll admit his feelings, it ends up scarring the both of them more than they can ever imagine. The secret they have to live with ends up bringing them closer than ever.
Rating: M, rape, violence, teen partying, teen pregnancy.
Disclaimer: I do not own POTF, I cannot stress that enough. Title comes from Over My Head (Cable Car) by the Fray.
Author's Note: Thanks for the reviews, this chapter is rated HARD M toward the end, if it's not your cup of tea please don't read. But for everyone else, finally, we're nearly at the end of a twenty chapter journey, and it's been super fun, I doubt I'll finish this in one month, but I came pretty damn close and I'm proud of myself.
"Everything"
Keely couldn't believe the day had arrived so quickly, it was the end of March and the day that she and Phil were to be married. She was so happy she felt like she was gonna bust. She'd never been more excited about anything in her life.
"Keely are you sure you have everything?" Barb asked for the fifth time as they were getting ready.
"Yes, I have something new that would be the underwear I bought special for today. Something borrowed would be Pim and Via's clips. Something blue would be the sapphire necklace Phil gave me."
"You've got this all figured out don't you. But where are your shoes."
"I'll wear sandals on the way over there, but I'm walking down the path way barefoot. I want to feel natural and in touch with the ground." Keely said.
"Have you written your vows?" Via asked.
"Jason Wade wrote my vows while back, we're using a Lifehouse song for our weeding vows." Keely said.
Pim burst into the room, which was technically hers but it was where they'd ganged up to do the prep for the wedding.
"Keely your dad's here with the limo it's almost time to get this show on the road." Pim stated.
"Well, I'm nearly done with your hair." Alicia said adding another puff of hairspray to Keely's head and to the Ozone.
"I can't wait to see Phil." Keely gushed.
"I know he's all you talked about at the bachelorette party last night." Via said dryly.
"Yes, and after mom and I went through all the trouble of renting strippers that resemble Keanu Reeves." Pim shook her head.
"Well, you guys had still fun." Keely smirked.
"Yeah we certainly did." Via said.
"How were things at the guys' party?" Keely asked Alicia.
"Did Owen get Phil some cheap cabaret girl?" Keely asked.
"Yeah, he didn't pay her any attention, don't worry." Alicia said.
"I'm sure Owen paid her enough attention." Via scowled.
"V…you don't know that." Keely said.
"But I know Owen and so do you. How bad was it Alicia? I need to know." Via asked.
"Not that bad, he was pretty well behaved given his track record." Alicia said.
Phil was already at the vineyards, sitting with Cadence in the gardens. He knew he was having a full scale conversation with a two month old, it was more Keely's style than his but he continued anyway.
"Today's the big day, your mommy is gonna finally marry me. I've never been more nervous about anything in my life; I hope I make a good husband. What if I'm not cut out for it? What if I'm not ready?" Phil asked the baby as if she would give him an answer.
"I think you're ready."
Phil turned at the sound of his father's voice.
"You think so Dad?"
"I know it son. You've had a lot to deal with, it's amazing how you've grown up in this past year. You're more responsible than I am now and you're not even eighteen yet. I'm proud of you son."
"Thanks Dad." Phil smiled, "I just hope I can be half as good of a father as you are."
"Thanks son, like you kids say these days. I've got mad respect for you G…."
Phil watched as his father pounded his chest and made a peace sign.
"Right back at ya Dad, have mom and the other's got here yet?" he asked.
"Yeah they got here a few minutes ago, I came to get the baby and let you go up and take your place." Lloyd said.
"Here." He passed Cadence off to her grandfather and she cooed and tried to yank his tie off she was so excited.
"I'm glad you approve" he told her.
Phil got off the bench and followed his father out of the groves, he loved way the sun glinted off the trees and how green the grass was. He was glad they'd chose to have the wedding here, it was such a beautiful place.
The chairs that were mostly empty before he and Cadence had gone on their little walk through the groves were now filled with family and friends. It was a small wedding only thirty people or so, just the families of close friends. Owen's parents were there, along with Tia and her parents, Seth's family had come and Via's father was even there.
He greeted the guests and made his way up to where the priest was standing.
"Keely, there's something I've been meaning to tell you." Jack began.
"What is it? Is it bad?" Keely asked, they were still sitting in the limo long after everyone else had gotten out taking their seats.
"I think that you are an amazing young woman. A lot of people would buckle under the pressure you see everyday. I just wish I could say that I had something to do with shaping the person you are. I'm proud of you pumpkin. And if Phil doesn't treat you right, you just let Daddy know and I'll take care of it."
"Thanks but I know Phil will treat me right. And you not being there did help shape the person I am." Keely told him, "Don't feel guilty are make excuses, what's done is done. I'm over it and I forgive you for walking out." Keely said.
"You don't know how it makes me feel to hear you say that." Jack smiled.
"I'm glad it helped you too. Come on, I want you to walk me down the pathway. I know it isn't what we rehearsed but it would make me really happy." Keely said.
They got out the limo and Keely grabbed her flowers. Pim started the music, and they walked down the hill arm and arm.
This time what I want is you
There is no one else
who can take your place
This time you burn me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away
I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you
Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away
Halfway through the crowd of people standing on either side of the pathway Keely was crying. She never would have guessed that at the end of her nearly four year journey with Phil she would end up walking down this pathway to meet him. She couldn't see spending the rest of her life with anyone but him, and she didn't know how she got through her life up until she met him. He was her anchor, the only thing that kept her steady. She needed him and wanted him more than anything.
I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away
They finally reached the end of the pathway where Phil was standing with the priest, Keely saw that he was crying too. Her father kissed her on the cheek, and put her hand in Phil's.
"Dearly beloved we are gathered here today, for the binding of these two hearts in holy matrimony." The priest said.
A terrible hacking cough came from where the guests were seated. Keely wasn't surprised by the fact that the person coughing was Pim.
"Libation for my sweet lady?" Little Danny asked.
"I'm okay…" she said.
"You are not okay, you coughed up smoke. That does not constitute okay," Barbara Diffy told her daughter.
"I always knew she was a dragon!" Keely couldn't help saying.
Phil laughed, "That's why I love you Keel." He said tucking a fly away hair out of her face.
His touches made her forget all about Pim's smoky coughs, she was in a world were there was only the two of them.
"If you're done dying of lung cancer, can we pick up where we left off? We came here for a wedding not a funeral!" Lloyd said.
"We are gathered here today, to join Keely Leighanne Teslow and Phillip James Diffy in holy matrimony. The couple has prepared their own vows which will be read at this time. I'm sure it's far better than anything in my hymnal…"
Keely smiled.
"Find me here and speak to me I want to feel you I need to hear you. You are the light that's leading me to the place where I find peace again." Phil said taking her hands in his.
"You are the strength that keeps me walking. You are the hope that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul. You are my purpose...you're everything." Keely said her voice breaking.
"How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?" they both said.
"You calm the storms, and you give me rest. You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall. You steal my heart, and you take my breath away. Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?" Keely asked looking up at him through her lashes her words were nearly a plea.
"How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?" Phil shuddered the intensity of the moment was almost too much for him.
"Well, I'm sure no one here has any reason why these two shouldn't be–"
"Ackackheemmmm…." Pim cleared her throat loudly releasing more smoke into the atmosphere.
"Please continue…" she apologized; Phil could almost swear his sister was blushing.
"Be joined in marriage please say so now or forever hold your peace."
Phil looked around ready to choke anyone who dared challenge this.
"Well, you may now kiss the bride. I now present Mr. and Mrs. Phil Diffy."
Before the priest's words were even spoken Phil's lips were on Keely's. He pulled her closer to him molding their bodies together as his tongue slipped past her lips. She moaned into the kiss, as she threaded her fingers though soft hair at the back of his neck.
The dreadful cough came again they stopped kissing and turned to look at Pim.
"Is the fact that we are sharing our first kiss as husband and wife cutting into your painful death?" Phil asked.
"Pim would you like some bubbly water?" Vice Principal Hackett asked offering her his champagne flute filled with bubbly water, "It always helps me during sneezy season."
Pim just touched her throat and shook her head, "No thank you. I don't drink after anyone."
"Sweetie would you break your rule and have a sip of my wine?" Barbara asked.
Phil rolled his eyes, his sister reached for the flute so quickly and chugged it with in seconds.
"Could we hurry this up? The foods getting cold and you two have been making out for five minutes." Pim said.
Everyone nodded in agreement. Phil could feel himself blushing. He definitely needed some alone time with Keely. Now his thoughts weren't on being a good husband, he had realized somewhere during the ceremony that he'd been doing nearly everything a husband did already. The only thing he had yet to do was consummate his marriage with Keely. Which was easier said than done, he had limited experience in this arena and Keely had been through a lot in the past year he couldn't rush things.
And still he couldn't keep moving at the pace of a distance runner with a walking cane and peg leg. It was gonna be tough to move forward and try not to rush all at the same time, all while being so turned he can't really focus on much else.
"Well, I think we should take this party back to the house. The caterers are waiting with the wedding cake." Barb suggested.
"Whenever there's cake involved with whatever me and Phil are doing I always kind of get covered in it." Keely said.
"Save the kinky sex details for your honeymoon." Pim said.
They posed for pictures at the vineyards after Keely threw the bouquet, Alicia caught it by accident, and her uncle elbowed her and took it away. It was decided that Phil and Keely were to have the limo to themselves.
"You know…" Keely said in between kisses, "If we keep this up we'll never make it through the reception."
"Well, we have the whole limo to ourselves; you don't have to sit in my lap." He rubbed the inside of her thigh through her dress.
"Are you complaining?" She whispered her eyes closing as she obviously enjoyed his touch .
"Nope, it was merely an observation." Phil said.
Keely smirked before leaning in and kissing his neck, he moaned his head falling back against the seat.
"Keely…baby…slow down, you don't want this to be over before it begins."
She lightly bit his ear and he shuddered.
"I asked the driver to circle the block a few dozen times. We have time to do something..." Keely purred.
"I think we've used up all of that time. He's pulling into the driveway." Phil said.
"Rat snacks." Keely whispered getting off his lap.
"We'll stay for cake few dances pose couple of pictures then we're out of here; we have a long ride ahead of us." Phil said.
They got out of the limo and walked around to the backyard where everyone was gathered.
"Would you two come and cut this stupid cake already?" Alicia asked, "There's only so long I can be forced to wear a skirt without being extremely cranky and that time has passed."
"Fine, I might as well go smear it all over my face. It's gonna end up all over me anyways." Keely said.
"I've always wanted to see you with chocolate in your hair." Phil said sliding his hand down her hip.
Keely smiled and leaned into him, thinking about the new possibilities for their relationship.
They managed to cut the cake with little damages. The first dance with smoothly, Phil's father insisted on playing November Rain.
Keely managed to slip away while Phil was dancing with Batina Messhersmitt and changed clothes. She put on a pair of ripped denim jeans a tank top with a blazer over it.
"Keely…I was wondering where you'd gone." Phil whispered from the doorway.
"I was changing clothes; I didn't know where we were planning to go, so I dressed for skyaking." She took a step toward him.
"We're going to an ocean front hotel in Malibu; the suite we'll be staying in has huge windows facing the ocean. It's really a spectacular view." He said walking toward her.
"I've got all my stuff packed." Keely said.
"Keel, I just want you to know that I intend to keep you pretty much naked the whole weekend."
"I didn't buy all this cute lingerie to leave it here." Keely said, "And I need my guitar."
"It might be fun to take it off you." He smirked.
As soon as Keely's suitcase was packed they walked out of the apartment, after giving Lloyd and Barb the details about Cadence they left.
She was a bit nervous about her first night as Phil's wife, but more excited than anything. The ride to Malibu was a blur of poorly veiled sexual innuendo. Once the two hour drive was over, she held tightly to Phil's had as he led her into the hotel.
She couldn't hear anything Phil said to the guy at the front desk over the sound of her own heart beating; the anticipation was a turn on. She'd never felt like this before in her life. She felt ready, she watched as the concierge handed Phil a room key. She followed dumbly as Phil led her to the elevator, he may as well have been leading her off a cliff into a snake pit, the promise of what was going to happen was all Keely could think about.
He spun her around and kissed her hard, she returned this kiss with some fierceness of her own and pressed him up against the clear elevator wall, aware that everyone in the hotel could see exactly what they were doing.
Phil unbuttoned Keely's blazer and she moaned twitching a little as his mouth descended onto her neck. She needed so much more, and this time he wasn't going to turn away. The ding of the elevator prevented things from going any farther in the elevator.
"Keely, you know that if you don't want to do this we doing have to."
"I want to do this more than you can imagine." Keely said.
"Good." Phil said scooping her up in his arms and walking down the hall with her.
Keely giggled as he fumbled with the keys, "Phil, let me do it." She said.
He handed her the keys, and she managed to unlock the door.
The view of the room was absolutely breath taking.
"Phil…we can't afford this…." she whispered.
"This one is on Mrs. Collins she owes me big."
"What did you do?" Keely asked.
"I introduced her to Seth Wassumer." Phil smirked.
"I take it they really hit it off…" Keely said.
"Hopefully, we'll hit it off too." He kissed her.
"Mmmm…definitely looking forward to that." Keely said.
"You've got to see this view it's amazing," Phil whispered carrying her over to the enormous window beside the bed, it took most of the wall.
"It's beautiful," she said as he set her down on her feet, she couldn't help but pout about that.
But he put his arms around her resting his chin on her shoulder and whispering in her ear, "I want to strip you in front of the window."
Keely moaned involuntarily, "There are people walking on the beach, do you think they can see?"
"No. Would you let me?" He asked his hands sliding across her waist down to grasp the button and zipper on her jeans.
She nodded slowly biting her lip. He flicked open the button and slid down the zipper at the same time. Then he ran hand up her now flat stomach, tracing her flesh under her shirt. She gasped; he'd never touched her in that manner before not noticing he'd completely taken of her tank top.
"Now," he said spinning her to face him.
She looked at him through her lashes, drunk with love and lust. She had never felt so exposed and he wasn't finished yet.
"I believe this," he said taking a hold of the clasp on her bra, "hooks in the front."
With a flick of his wrist the material fell away and she was completely naked from the waist up and she had never felt more comfortable, she knew Phil wasn't going to hurt her, he was going to make her feel so amazingly good.
"Keely, you're so beautiful…" he moaned sounding like he'd run a marathon and he'd barely touched her.
He kissed her; she didn't know it was a distraction. She would have willingly let him remove her jeans, but he had to go and be sneaky about it.
"I just want to look at you," he whispered pushing her jeans down her legs.
She stepped out of them shaking at the intensity of the look in his eyes. She never thought she'd see anyone look at her like that, there was not a trace of malice on his face he just wanted to love her. And she was going to let him.
"I–if you don't want to do this, we–we could go sight seeing or something." Phil whispered.
"I thought you were sight seeing?" she asked.
"Oh I am," he said, kneeling and placing his hands on her thighs.
She realized she was only left wearing her white lace boy shorts and he was completely dressed.
"Your skin is like silk, I don't think I can get enough of touching you." He slid his hands down to her knees.
"I don't want you to get enough, I like it when you touch me like that." She said.
"Keely, you do know that once this starts there will be no going back for us?"
"I'm ready. I'm glad we waited. The anticipation, it's making me so…" Keely didn't want to use the adjective on the tip of her tongue to describe the feeling she felt.
"Me too," he said licking his lips, his eyes falling on the only part of her anatomy that he had yet to see.
"May I?" he asked.
She nodded closing her eyes; she could feel his hands rubbing through the thin lace of her panties. She blushed realizing that he could feel how turned on she was.
"Keely," he gasped, "Mmmm, so moist."
"Oh…" she moaned, "No one has ever touched me like this Phil."
"I need you Keel." He gave her firmer strokes.
"Phil…" she gasped, something amazing was happening to her she could feel the waves of pleasure, crashing against the tide of her heart.
Before the waves reached a crescendo Phil stopped and removed her underwear. She groaned at the lost of the friction.
"Keely, you're so beautiful…" he slid a hand up her thigh as he stood up.
"I want to see you Phil…" she whispered opening her eyes to gaze at him.
"I'm not really all that special," he said averting his eyes.
"I bet you're gorgeous," she said.
He gave her a shy smile and fumbled with the buttons on his white dress shirt.
"I wanna do it." She said sliding her hands from his shoulders to the buttons on his shirt.
She stared into his eyes as she undid the buttons, then she ran her hands down his chest. He was tan all over, and she had no idea how toned he was.
"Phil…" she whispered, caressing his six pack abs, "You're beautiful."
She slid the shirt off his shoulders; she trailed her hands down his arms following the shirt.
Her eyes roamed his body, following the trail of dark hair down into his jeans. She needed to see more of him her shaking hands went instantly to unbuckle the belt on his jeans. She could see his erection straining against the zipper of his jeans desperately needing to be free.
"Baby, is that for me?" Keely asked stroking him through his jeans.
"All for you…" he panted.
She slowly popped the button and slid down the zipper, she yanked down his boxers with his jeans and he kicked out of them along with his shoes. His erection stood out straight, brushing at her belly.
He kissed her deeply, before biting her jaw line venturing lower to her neck. Keely felt like she was going to faint, fortunately he held her.
"Did you swoon?" he asked.
"A little bit." She admitted.
"Bed now…" he said, "Lay down…"
She did as she was told, he climbed on top of her.
His hands cupped her breasts, he seemed timid almost afraid to touch her.
"You can touch them, it won't hurt."
He tentatively squeezed them. She groaned.
"Will milk come out of them?" he asked.
"Yeah…" she said as he traced a finger across her nipple.
She shuddered arching up into his touch.
"Would it be okay if I…?"
"Phil you can do anything…"
"Anything? Oh the possibilities." He said.
He smiled kissing her neck and shoulders. She moaned, his lips were so soft she would never get enough of the feel of them on her skin. He kissed each breast tenderly before taking each nipple into his mouth.
She groaned, she'd never felt anything like that it was amazing his tongue swirled around the sensitive bud as he greedily sucked it. He stopped suddenly again leaving Keely wanting more.
"It's sweet…" he said, "I like it."
His lips descended on the other breast giving it the same treatment only a bit rougher, making her twist and pant. He slid down her body kissing her belly.
"You are so sexy…" he said.
"Phil….your teasing me." She chastised.
"It's called foreplay Keel." He said.
"All we've ever do is play, well playtime is over Philly-Willy." She reached between their bodies taking him in her hands.
"Ooh…Keels…" he moaned.
"I need you Phil." She whispered batting her eye lashes.
"Aye I need you too." He said.
"Did you just say aye?"
"I think so…I can't even think." He whispered.
"All your blood seems to be residing in another part of your body." She observed.
She watched as Phil reached behind her under the pillow and pulled out a condom.
"Sneaky devil." Keely smirked.
"I just want to protect you Keel. As much as I want us to have more children, it's just not a good time for that right now."
She bit her lip, "So are we really going all the way this time?"
"Mmmmhmmm…" he said intent on tearing open the foil package.
He kissed her slowly one hand moving up her thighs, as he entered her.
She moaned, it hurt a little. No where near as badly as giving birth but it still hurt.
"Are you okay…" he asked.
She nodded.
They began to move as one. She discovered quickly that sex was something she liked, Phil was an attentive lover. She kissed him, the sensations she'd felt earlier returned. His hands roamed her body, exploring, as they moved faster the crescendo reaching epic proportions and the most marvelous thing happened it was like her heart stopped for a few seconds as her orgasm washed over her. Phil thrust into her a few more times, before screamed and buried his face in her neck.
Phil couldn't believe they'd made love. He lay there beside her after the shaking had stopped.
"Wow…" Phil whispered.
"Yeah…" Keely said.
"Did you…"
"Uh huh…it was great…good job,"
"Good job?" he asked.
"I don't know what else to say, I've never done this." she said.
He smiled, he liked the way she looked swollen lips, flushed cheeks, and tousled golden hair.
"I love you so much Keely, I'm glad we waited."
"Me too, wanna go again?" she asked rolling over on her stomach.
"Keely…you gotta give me a minute. You nearly killed me with the screams and fainting…"
She smiled, "Good, I want to be your only…everything. I really want to be a good lover to you."
"You are…" he rolled over kissing her neck.
She moaned, he liked the fact that she was very vocal. All the breathy moans and occasional screams that can wake the dead were very fulfilling for him.
A little while later and several new and exciting discoveries later, Phil had finally fallen asleep. He'd fainted more than anything, they were trying to make up for lost time and it wasn't working. They were both exhausted in no time.
When he woke up he found Keely sitting in a chair naked strumming her guitar. She didn't notice he was awake at first.
"Don't let nobody tell you. Don't let nobody tell you….yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Don't let nobody tell you your life is over be every color that you are. Give into the rush you don't have to know how know it all before you try. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah…"
He clapped his hands.
She looked up sharply, startled a bit.
"I finished it!" she said excitedly.
"You finished your song that's great." He sat up.
She moved the acoustic revealing her nude form.
"Yeah and think we should celebrate." She put down her guitar and made her way over to the bed.
Phil bit his lip, and rolled over onto his back he was content to just watch her. She smiled and crawled over him straddling his waist. She slid her hands up his stomach and chest.
"Celebrate how?" he asked.
"However you want me…" she whispered.
"Like this is fine."
"You want me to…"
"Yeah. Keely, I hope you know how to ride." His hands gripped her hips.
She grinned.
The weekend passed all too quickly for Keely, they never left the hotel room until it was time to check out. She couldn't help the dopey smile permanently imprinted on her face as they walked out the car. Phil smiled shyly at her once they got in the car, she smiled back and he blushed and took her hand as they drove back to Pickford.