Title: Anchored
Pairings: implied HakkaixGojyo, HakkaixSanzo
Warnings: Angst
Spoilers: Not really
Disclaimer: no, no, and no, I don't, although I would if I could, that's for sure!
Notes: Written for Linda who asked for introspective Hakkai
Anchored
Sometimes he doesn't think he can go on.
When the tingling in his finger tips where the claws threaten to break through is almost unbearable; when the itching of his ears, straining to form into sharp points, and the dull ache in his teeth, ready to shape into fangs, are driving him insane. When the only restraint, the thin metal attached to his ear, seems to burn itself into his skin, until he wants nothing more than to give in, rip it out, and follow his body's command.
At those times his heart clenches in horror of what he is, and what he is about to become.
Every time seems worse than the last.
And every time they are there to catch him, touch him, assure him, save him.
Gojyo, surprisingly gentle, but persistent in his approach; a reliable source of calm.
Sanzo, rough and demanding, but with fierce sincerity that never fails to surprise him.
Their touch keeps him grounded, and holds him back. They are the reason he can endure the pain, resist the urge, and keep going.
Anchored within their hearts.