I know it's been forever since I updated and I apologize. I have been so busy with school during the last month that I've barely had time to sleep so my mom decided to take my computer away from me. But moving on to the reviews...

To You/Kai fic fan: Yes, fluff is interesting and sweet but don't die. Really enjoyed it, huh? You're definitely going to enjoy the future chapters. grins

To luvkai: Obstacles? Don't worry about those dear, they'll be coming.

To ERALDA: What's up with Kai? You could say he ain't quite in control of himself in all ways. Maybe she should slap Kai...

To Torri-Chiobie: I was thinking how your name could be pronounced and it sounded cute.

To -Dark Pheonix Angel Nami-: Oh! Another new reviewer with a cute name. You high recommended? Thank you!

To haishi kana: I'm so sorry for updating so late – it's not my usual habit.

To Kanilla: If you wanted to get to know me better by reading another one of my stories then you couldn't have picked a better one then this story, it's quite personal. I actually laughed too when I was writing the part where the book fell. Things are moving sort of fast because this story isn't so long. I can tell you it will get kinda interesting when Tamara faces her parents.

Chapter 5:

Soundtrack: Weak by Jennifer Brown

I watched as the morning sun came up slowly above the horizon. I was sitting in Kai's kitchen, eating breakfast. I had been able to find a box of cereals after looking around for a while. There was a crunching sound heard as I chewed while different thoughts circled in my mind. Last night had brought much of my old memories that I had burried to the surface. I was about to take another spoon of cereal but I noticed my bowl was empty so I got up and washed it along with the spoon.

I was dealing with the tangles in my hair as the door to the bedroom opened and Kai came out. I saw his eyes lock on to me, making me confused.

/Why is he staring/ I asked myself in confusion.

Suddenly I realized that I wasn't wearing my shirt, only my bra.

I felt the heat rise to my face and I knew I wash blushing. A grin flickered on his lips but teared my eyes of him as I scanned the room to find my shirt. It was on the couch behind me. I reached quickly for it over the back of my chair. Just as I got a hold of it I felt the chair start falling and soon I crashed with it to the floor.

Luckily I didn't hit my head, preventing another possible migraine. As my vision sharpened again I saw Kai approaching me and an old memory flashed through my mind.

Flashback

I grabbed one of my dolls and held it against my chest as a lightning struck through the sky. I heard a door open somewhere and after that footsteps from the stairs. I saw the figure of my step-father appear to the doorway. There was a smell of alcohol and it was obvious he was drunk. I got up from my bed as he started walking slowly towards me. He was about to say something when I dashed out of the room as fast as I could. I couldn't hear him as the lightning struck again. I continued my way downstairs and I went to hide in the living room.

For ages all I could hear was the thunder but soon enough there were the familiar footsteps again, closing up on me. I dash out off my hiding place but slipped on one of the toys that were on the floor. I landed on my butt. I started kicking furiously as I felt my skirt being lifted.

End of flashback

I felt someone grab a hold of me and my eyes snapped open as I slapped the person. A second later I realized what I had done. A visible red mark appeared on one of Kai's cheeks. I gasped for air.

/What have I done/ I said to myself.

I got up from the floor and grabbed my shirt. I rushed to the door of the department while putting my shirt. I got my bag and disappeared out of the door. I started to run. It didn't take long before I saw the school ahead and I slowed down.

Later that day at school I ran into Kai as we shared one class that day – the last one.

Once again we were sitting next to each other in the last row. This time I couldn't look at him but he was still on my mind and I felt his presence. There was a tension between us that was almost touchable. Neither one of us said anything. I was relieved as I heard the bell ring last time for that day. I had been afraid I would start to scream any minute.

I caught up with Kai in the corridor. For a moment I walked behind him, thinking what I could say. I came to the conclusion there was only one thing to say and so I walked next to him.

"Umm...Kai?" I said.

He stopped and looked at me.

I got caught up in his gaze as was searching for my voice that had disappeared somewhere.

"I'm sorry," I apologized, looking him into the eyes. "I'm sorry about what happened this morning. I don't know what came over me."

I continued looking into his eyes, waiting for him to say something.

It almost seemed like he wasn't going to say anything.

"You think a sorry is enough?" he asked and my jaw dropped.

"Kai, I mean it. I really am sorry," I apologized again with a pleading look in my eyes. "I never meant to hurt you."

He started walking away, leaving me standing there alone in the corridor. For a moment the whole thing seemed so unreal. I just stood there, not moving. Then it started to sink into my brain slowly.

/What have I done/ I asked myself.

I felt my legs give away under me and I fell to the cold floor. I fought against the tears that were threatening to come. My heart was hurting like hell and I wished someone would pull it out of my chest. Why did I need the stupid thing anyway? All it got me was a lot of misery and pain.

I got up from the floor and started making my way out of school and back home. I had to clear my head 'cause I knew what would be ahead when I got home...

There! Hope you liked it. Review and tell me.