The Plan
Disclaimer – Guess what? I don't own Sailor Moon… someone already beat me to the punch.
Part 2"That asshole!"
"Usagi, why didn't you tell us earlier?"
"Are you okay?"
"Let's go bash his brains out! Make him see exactly what he's missing!"
"Makoto, I don't really think that's the best way to handle the situation right now." Ami shyly suggested.
"Oh, I know, but this whole thing just really pisses me off!" Makoto grumbled.
"Well, did he show any signs of wanting to break up?" Minako felt like she had to get to the bottom of this.
"No, none at all. He just…" Usagi looked down trying to hold back the tears she knew were coming, "It seemed like everything was going so well, perfectly well… I just thought that maybe after all this time, he would want to…" She covered her face with her hands and began to cry lightly.
"Usagi!" Minako and Makoto threw their arms around her.
"That's pretty serious Usagi, you're only 17!" Rei reasoned, knowing that expecting so much from a person and then being let down could only hurt her more. "He probably didn't have that in mind, I mean sure he's 20 and it would be alright for him, but you're too young to be in such a commitment."
Understanding what Rei was trying to explain, Ami nodded her head, "I completely agree. You haven't even finished high school yet."
Usagi looked up, "Well that doesn't matter anymore, I know you guys are right and it was just naïve for me to think of that." She paused and then continued, "Doesn't matter now because he said it was over."
"Kind of sounded more like a 'break' to me. Like you said, all he kept saying was "I'm confused about my outlook on my future right now, right now right now, blah, blah, blah!" Minako said trying to mimic his voice. "I swear! I'll never understand men!" She yelled.
"And they say women are confusing! Yeah right!" Makoto agreed.
All four girls started to talk about how men were just as confusing as women, all of them were trying to change the subject and bring it into a lighter conversation. This mechanism had always made Usagi look on the brighter side of things and cheer up.
But what Minako just said hadn't escaped her mind just yet.
"Wait a minute you guys!" Usagi spoke up after a minute for all of the bantering in the room to quiet down. "Minako, can you repeat what you just said?"
Minako took a bite off her sandwich, "Mamoru is a dick-head?"
Usagi's eyes popped out a bit and with a crooked eyebrow she asked, "Could you repeat what you said before that?"
She took another bite off her sandwich, "Makoto, your sandwiches are amazing?" She said with her mouth full.
Usagi banged her head on the table. "I meant... what were you saying about it sounding like a 'break'?"
Minako looked up in thought then looked down, then looked at Ami who was sitting next to her. Eventually she stared at Usagi for a moment and sighed closing her eyes, "I have no idea what I said... I forgot!" Taking another bite off her sandwich, flashed Usagi a toothy grin while the other blonde gave her a deadpan look.
Ami then gave her a frown, "Usagi... I don't think it's as simple as this all being just a break, Mamoru seems to be really determined for his future and is taking matters seriously. He probably just isn't capable of having a relationship right now."
"Especially not a serious relationship like you guys had. I mean - you dated for a year!" Rei also tried to make Usagi face the reality of this situation.
Usagi slowly shook her head and looked down, "Exactly. We dated for a year, a full year. I thought I was coming over for another wonderful day with him but instead -"
"- Instead he dumped you like yesterdays garbage. So I say, forget about him, if you didn't add up to what he wanted, then so be it! You deserve better!" Makoto said triumphantly.
Usagi gave them all a hesitant look, "Although, Minako, you were right, he did talk about how all of this was for now... maybe this just is a break?"
Minako gave her blonde companion a reassuring pat on the back, "Who knows Usagi, but I agree with Makoto, just forget about him for now. Consider him yesterdays news and move on from now because like they say, "there is more fish in the sea"."
None of this was really convincing Usagi that she shouldn't have another shot with Mamoru and Rei could sense this.
"What you really want is closure." Rei said.
"Closure? Why would I need closure?"
"Because you left without getting all the answers and you're left confused. You want to know if there is another reason why he could have ended it so suddenly... am I right?" Rei asked.
For once Usagi completely agreed with what was being said and nodded her head.
Then Ami slapped both hands on the study table, "Now! I think we have researched this topic enough for tonight. Usagi, this just happened, and who knows, maybe some answers will pop up later on, but for now -", she gave them the 'look' and proceeded to dig into her school bag to reach texts and notebooks, "We can now continue with the other important topic now, shall we? If we don't study for this Math test -"
" - Usagi is gonna have another problem to deal with aside from her break-up." Rei cut in.
The glare that Odango Atama gave her could have frozen her into an ice cube at that moment, if Rei were to bother looking at her.
After the exhausting day of on going studying, Usagi walked home feeling relieved having told her friends about her break-up. She walked past an older couple who could have been in their 20's. When they passed by her, she turned around to look at them... and then the empty feeling returned.
That could have been us...
It was almost 10:30 pm when she checked her watch. Her parents were probably tucking into bed right now.
The streets were dark and Usagi fully realized that the streets were deserted and she was completely by herself.
Completely by herself.
She couldn't have felt more alone at that moment, but she wasn't scared. She was just hurt and the pang in her heart returned full force.
Eventually she just plopped herself down on the nearest bench and decided to cry there. There was no point in holding onto the tears till she reached home. She felt miserable at that moment and since she was alone after all... why not?
After some time of crying she could feel her eyes getting red and puffy and her nose turning red also. Usagi quickly rubbed her eyes and started to walk home at a faster pace. It was nearing 11:00 pm and she was now becoming afraid of bad people on the street. Although if someone were to try and mug her, the only thing she had in her briefcase was her math textbook.
She instantly imagined herself being mugged by a stranger and actually begging him to take her math book away from her. She stifled a little giggle, then there was a cold breeze in the wind and decided she didn't want to freeze to death either, so she picked up the pace again and eventually reached home in ten minutes.
Reaching her bedroom, she changed into her pyjamas and set her alarm clock because tomorrow would be another day.
Well, she tried to sleep at least. When she looked over to her alarm clock it was nearing 11:45 pm. Picking up a picture beside her bed, she sat up and just stared at it. This was the most recent picture of her and Mamoru and they were smiling and looking happy. She even remembered that taking the picture was his idea because he said he didn't have enough photos of them together. Usagi couldn't believe that it was over.
That very same pang in her heart returned and she put a hand to her chest while starring at the picture intently. This was barely a month ago, what could have happened that made him change his mind so suddenly?
Unless...he could have fallen in love with another girl?
At that thought, Usagi threw the picture frame across the room and it hit her door. When it fell onto the floor the glass had cracked but didn't brake into pieces.
She plopped her head back on her pillow and covered her face with her bunny and moon decorated blanket.
She knew that no matter what she did, her heart would still be broken. The pain didn't want to go away because she knew that she still loved him now as much as she did the day before.
"Usako, I can't say that I love you... I wish I could say the same thing to you."
Slowly, she pulled the blanket away from her face and gazed at the ceiling with glassy eyes. Her mind hadn't processed it before, but now she clearly understood.
Now she felt a lump growing in her neck and her breathing was becoming a little bit harder to control because she understood that he didn't love her at all...
She gave her all into the relationship and did whatever she could to make him happy... but in the end it didn't matter because he never cared for her as much as she did for him.
She rolled over to the side but her expression hadn't changed. She just stared off into space as she was still grasping her epiphany. Her eyes had become watery enough and several tears rolled down her cheek.
She looked at the picture on the floor one last time before closing her eyes not wanting to think about him for the rest of the night.
"Dearest Odango:
I wanted you to be the first one to know that I've changed my mind. This summer vacation will be spent at home instead of staying here like I first planned. So, I'll be seeing all of you soon! But I'm not coming home alone; I'm going to bring my cousins Yaten and Taiki Kou with me too. You remember Yaten don't you? He spent the summer with us one time when we were 12. The platinum blonde, spoiled, rude, ugly brat, you remember, right? Don't worry Taiki is the exact opposite.
Anyways, I'll be coming home to see you most of all...I've missed you more than you can imagine...
Although, I know you're with your boyfriend and you must be as happy as ever to be with him.
If you're wondering why I never called you, it's because all you ever talk about is him, and you have no idea what that puts me through to know that you love him as much as I love...
He withdrew the pen from the paper.
No this won't do.
He crumpled up the peice of paper. There was no way he was going to confess that much to her, especially on a letter.
Although it would be easier, he couldn't bring himself to do it. Instead, he grabbed another sheet of paper and started all over again with the same beginning.
He expressed to her how boring the campus grounds could be and if he weren't with his cousins to keep him company he would go insane.
She would learn that Yaten sometimes drove Seiya crazy with his habits of leaving the place a mess and never picking up after himself, but he never did have to because he had maids picking up after every mess that he made.
Lucky son of a bitch, I wasn't even that privileged.
And as much as he didn't want to, he left out the part about loving her.
She had claimed many times to him that she was perfectly happy and completely in love. So why ruin a great thing? After all, her happiness was what mattered most at the end of his day.
And everyday was agony without her, and the only thing that hurt more was the fact that she didn't return the same feelings. She may have loved him tremendously... but in a completely different way. Not the way he loved her; tremendously.
Running his hands through his hair, he tried to think of the perfect way to end the letter.
And it couldn't have been more simple...
So until I come, I hope to have a big welcome home from you guys! Bring me lots of presents and ask your parents if it's all right to spend the summer at their place again. Write back to me as soon as you can for the answer and remember, no pressure! If they can't it's all right, staying at home just won't be as much fun as staying with you guys.
Love, Your One and Only Seiya
He had to throw in the word love somewhere in there to subliminally express how he felt about her.
Folding the letter and licking the envelope, he stood up and readjusted his signature ponytail.
Well, it would've have been his signature look on campus if Taiki and Yaten had decided to change their looks for his sake. Too bad life was too cruel.
Since Seiya had nothing else to do, he decided to mail the letter right then and there. He walked casually do the end of the block and placed the letter in the mailbox.
It was almost the end of June so school would be let out soon. The moment he pulled his hand away from the mailbox, his mind toyed with the idea of spending his summer with his Odango. He wouldn't have minded spending everyday with her.
Instantly his grin faltered. What if she decided to spend everyday with Mamoru?
At that moment, he regretted ever mailing the letter.
As he made his way back he imagined her ditching him to go spend her days with her beloved and how he would be left behind with the family; helping around the house with the mother, play video games with the brother, and have her father give him 'useful' advise about what career path he would choose.
At least he would have their company; he always considered them family anyways.
As he entered the house, Seiya contemplated the idea of whether or not to write Usagi another letter telling her to forget the whole thing. But he knew that he had to see her, regardless of how much it would hurt him.
He heard his stomach gurgle and decided he should eat whatever there was to be in the fridge.
When he opened it, he wasn't surprised to see that it was empty except for a carton of milk that had probably been there longer than Seiya had. Grimacing the idea of the carton growing a whole civilization inside, he decided that Yaten should be the one to throw it out. With that thought in mind, he picked up the phone to contact Yaten so they could eat out instead.
"Hello?"
"Yaten, we're short on food again so wanna get dinner at that Chinese place again?"
"Oh, I hate that fucking restaurant! The food is disgusting and 85 grease!"
"Better than 100."
"Don't start with me, why can't you just go out and buy groceries instead?" Yaten had always preferred to eat at home since he didn't know the Sapporo district well enough to know which restaurants were good or not. Even if it had been 9 months, he was just so damn picky.
"I'm too lazy and I'm hungry now. If you don't want to eat with me, fine, find you're own food." Seiya was always short on patience, especially with his older cousin.
"Damn it, I'm on my way home too... well I'm heading to the grocery store right now and I'll buy the groceries then -"
"Bring me back -"
"NO! Since I'm the one doing the shopping, I'm getting whatever I like, so live with it." Yaten spat out.
"Come on Yaten, I only want some burger patties and buns with fresh lettuce, tomatoes, mayonnaise -"
"No, I hate the way you make hamburgers. You know, not everyone likes them."
Seiya made a frown at the phone; he always hated being denied of his favourite food. "As long as it's good then get it, and don't try to buy anything useless and we have enough cleaning products by the way, if you think the house is too dirty, then clean it!"
"As if you do anything special! You know I was going to consider bringing you some western foods, but you've changed my mind!" Yaten wasn't going to take Seiya's attitude.
And Seiya wasn't going to take Yaten's attitude either. "Fine! And don't buy anymore Thai food, I'm sick and tired of it and don't you have any other tastes? You'd think that after all that spoiling when you were a child that you would have been exposed to other foods! Man, you really are a one track minded brat aren't -"
"Fuck you!" Yaten snapped and hung up his cell phone.
Seiya glared at the phone and hung up. Well at least he got something accomplished - Yaten was bringing home dinner.
With a confident smile, he sat down and decided to wait for when he got home. Yaten always seemed to do things faster when he was frustrated.
He turned on the TV and started to watch a comedy variety show. With his mind being preoccupied, he forgot all about Usagi for the time being
While at the end of the block, the mailman came by to pick up any letters that were longing to be sent.
AN – There you go Jasmine ;;;
And about the last chapter… well the borders weren't working so I hope you were able to read it with some ease… come to think of it… I hope the borders in this chapter works as well.