I'll Be There For You – Chapter 5

The Failed Attempt

I closed my eye with a smile, and I let my mind wander. I was jumping up and down with happiness inside that she let me get so close to her. I heard her leave the room, and close the door behind her. My insides were squirming too much to go back to sleep. Thoughts kept running through my head. Like, what caused the explosion? Did the explosion have a purpose? Was it meant to permanently hurt, or even kill someone? Was that someone me, or was the blast meant for Rikku?

Then on a completely different train of thought! I can't believe Rikku let me do that! Does she like me like I hear she does, or is it just gossip? I never listen to gossip, let alone believe it. The fact that I'm listening and believing it when it concerns Rikku is scary. Since when am I this uncertain of women? Since Rikku came… oh man, I'm messed up. I've got to sort this out, and I need to do it fast.

I heard the door open, and it disrupted my thoughts. I pretty much figured that it was the doctors, and I really didn't want to talk to them right now, so I faked being asleep. Turns out, it wasn't a doctor. I felt someone sit down on my bed, and lay down next to me. I opened my eye slowly to see a mass of wheat colored hair resting next to me. I smiled, it was Rikku. To her surprise, I moved over slightly so she had room to lie down. She smiled up at me, and I smiled back.

"Oui fanah'd ycmaab, fana oui?" ((You weren't asleep, were you?)) She asked me.

"Huba." ((Nope.)) I replied, and wrapped my arm around her waist. She didn't pull back, but she smiled her heart stopping smile at me. (Yes, I'm not kidding.It really isheart stopping.My heart always stopswhen she smiles at me like that.) She hesitantly rested her head against my chest, and I sighed happily.

"Cu, fro yna oui pylg rana?" ((So, why are you back here?)) I asked quietly.

"E dumt dra tuldunc dryd E fuimt syga cina dryd oui kud cusa cmaab." ((I told the doctors that I would make sure that you got some sleep.)) She replied.

I chuckled, "Huf ruf ys E cibbucat du cmaab huf dryd oui'na moehk haqd du sa?" ((Now how am I supposed to sleep now that you're lying next to me?)) I whispered in her ear.

As I thought she would, she blushed. "Oui'mm vymm ycmaab, un E'mm tnik oui cu oui kad cusa!" ((You'll fall asleep, or I'll drug you so you get some!)) Rikku threatened.

I frowned. "Dryd'c hud jano hela." ((That's not very nice.)) I told her.

She laughed quietly, "Ku du cmaab kebbym. Oui haat ed. Bmayca, vun sa?" ((Go to sleep Gippal. You need it. Please, for me?))

I kissed the top of her head. "Yhodrehk vun oui, so payido." ((Anything for you, my beauty.)) I whispered, and closed my eye. Having her so close really wasn't helping me fall asleep any faster. Slowly but surely, her steady breathinglulled me to sleep.

Within a week, I was up and walking like nothing had ever happened. Rikku had done a wonderful job running the Faction while I was recovering. She managed to get all of my paperwork done, and my desk is actually clean! Now that's a big deal for me, my desk is never clean. When I saw it, I starred slack jawed at it for a few seconds, then turned to Rikku.

"You need to do your work before it piles up like that. Do you realize how long it took me to get through all of that?" She scolded me, but I cut her off. I picked her up, and spun her around the room. She was laughing, demanding that I put her down. I complied, and she smiled up at me. "Well! That was something I wasn't expecting!"

When I set her back down, and looked into her shinning eyes, it was like I didn't have any coherent thoughts anymore. I snaked an arm around her waist, and pulled her close to me.

"Gippal… what are you do-" she asked, eyes wide. But I cut her off before she could finish her question. I cut it off… with a kiss. Why? Don't have a clue. She stiffened for a second, and then leaned into me. We stayed like that for a few seconds, and it was heaven. But Rikku broke my heavenly moment. She pulled away sharply with a gasp, and glared up at me. I looked at her in confusion, and then I realized that I wasn't looking at her anymore, and my cheek hurt like a mother. Then it hit me. Rikku just slapped me! I turned my head back to look at her. I was even more confused now. What did I do wrong, and was it really worth a slap?

"Fryd eh Spira tu oui drehg oui'na tuehk?" ((What in Spira do you think you're doing?)) She shrieked.

"Cyoehk dryhg oui?" ((Saying thank you?)) I said, not really thinking about a good answer.

"Dryd'c hud cyoehk dryhg oui, dryd'c geccehk sa!" ((That's not saying that you, that's kissing me!)) Rikku cried.

I furrowed my brow, "Yht dryd'c... pyt?" ((And that's... bad?))

Rikku blushed a deep red. "Oac!" ((Yes!))

Now I was really confused. What happened to the sweet and kind Rikku that visited my room for the past week? Was it just because I was unable to get up? Or did Rikku develop some seriously big mood swings over the past two years? "Cehla frah fyc geccehk oui pyt? E drehg E seccat cusadrehk rana Rikku..." ((Since when was kissing you bad? I think I missed something here Rikku...))

"Cehla oui MAVD! Tu oui naymewa ruf silr oui rind sa? E ghuf huf fro oui mavd, pid dryd cdemm tuach'd anyca dra rind, yht ruf tyna oui yccisa dryd? Oui lyh'd zicd lusa pylg yvdan dfu oaync yht aqbald sa du famlusa oui pylg fedr ubah ynsc! Frydajan rybbahat padfaah ic pylg drah, tuach'd ybbmo huf, yht ed hajan femm!" ((Since you LEFT! Do you realize how much you hurt me? I know now why you left, but that still doesn't erase the hurt, and how dare you assume that? You can't just come back after two years and expect me to welcome you back with open arms! Whatever happened between us back then, doesn't apply now, and it never will!)) Rikku cried, tears pouring down her face. With her speech done, she dashed out of the room, slamming the door behind her.

I stood there for a few minutes, trying to grasp everything she had just said. When I gathered my thoughts, I rubbed my head and sat down behind my desk. First, I kiss her, and she enjoys it. Then, she freaks out and pulls away, and slaps me in the process. She then takes the liberty of telling me that what happened between us years ago doesn't stand anymore…

Woah, that's a lot to take in at a time, especially when you don't like the information. I don't hold her affections anymore? She doesn't like me? After I've tried so hard to become her friend, I've ruined it all just because I wanted a kiss. All because I wanted her to laugh with me again… have her flash me her heart stopping smile again… have her love me again.

I slammed my fist against the desk. Once again, I've messed things up between us. But this time, I know it won't be as easy to repair then when I yelled at her a few weeks ago. This… this might not be able to be repaired.

And that scares me.

A/N: Another chapter… oh goodie. There was a little fluff here, but it wasn't happy fluff, and I'm sorry. It's important later, I promise! Don't hate me, and don't poke me with any pointy sticks! ((lmao))

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