Rory carried a tray past a table.
"Miss, miss, where's our food?"
"On its way."she sighed and blew a piece of short hair out of her face as she delivered the tray to a waiting table. She cleared another one and basically worked her butt of for the next two hours. Finally she ditched her apron and clocked out. It was already 10 pm. She'd been working since 6 that morning. She did a morning shift at Starbucks from 6 until 10 and then worked at a bookstore from 10:30 till 4. At 5 she started her shift at Applebee's and that didn't end until 10. On weekends she would head over to her job at a bar from 11 until 3 AM. Then she'd head home for two hours of sleep and do it all again.
She hated her life the way it was. She opened her apartment door and glanced around. All her things were in boxes and her bed was unmade. The walls were a dingy white and there were 7 locks on the door, if that said anything. The only window opened to a fire escape. The apartment was one small room. She hadn't even bothered to hang a curtain in front of the shower and toilet. No one ever came over anyways.
She was a shadow of her former self. All her clothes fell off of her. Mostly because she didn't have time to eat, or didn't feel like it. Tonight she was starving. She opened the small cube fridge and found a bottle of soda and a Snickers bar. Otherwise it was empty. She ate the candy and drank the soda before falling into bed, fully clothed.
She curled into a ball under the covers making herself as small as possible before taking a deep shaky breath. THen the tears began to fall. They did every night. She hated her life, her apartment, her body, her job, everything. She hated that she and Lorelai weren't talking and that she had yelled at her grandparents. She hated that Jess turned her down when she went running back to him and that even Logan left her. She buried her face in the pillow and let out a muffled scream before gasping softly for air and drifting off to sleep.
Catch Me When I Fall-Ashlee Simpson
Is
anybody out there
Does anybody see
That when the lights are off
something's killing me
I
know it seems like people care
Cause they're always around me
But
when the day is done and everybody runs
Who
will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's
there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when
I fall
When
the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face
going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything
to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
Who
will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's
there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when
I fall
It
may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When
the ride that you been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you
feeling lost
Is
anybody out there
Does anybody see
That sometimes loneliness is
a part of me
Who
will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's
there
Who's
Not Ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
Who's
Not Ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall