Thanks again for reviewing! The OC was on last night and its such a shame that there arent more Kandy moments in the new season. Anyway I hope you like this new chapter. I'm trying to update reguarly as seems to be coming to me so hope am not doing it too quick!
Sandy didn't know what to say. I mean the fact that she had told him had to be a good thing right? He just felt fear though, not like the fear he had felt over the summer while she was gone. When Kirsten was in rehab he could got to see her and when he spoke to her he knew she wanted to come home. Carter was much worse than rehab. If she went to Carter he wouldn't be able to see her, it would be her way of saying she never wanted to be at home, be with him.
"Sandy?" He hadn't said anything since she told him. She could see that he was visibly shaken by the news she had given him. If anything this was worse than the shouting and arguing she had expected. "I ran into him at the mall I didn't know he was back over here and it was really a good job that I saw him or our bank account would be looking much worse right now." She tried to lighten the mood and he knew what she was trying to do.
"Yeah well make sure you thank him, honey. Is he back for good?" Please say no, say no! "I don't know we didn't get a chance to speak much. I'm meeting up with him tomorrow." It just came out Kirsten hadn't even been sure she was going to tell Sandy about their arrangement but it just came out. He looked towards the door he just couldn't deal with this anymore. "Make sure you thank him for me then. We should go and get dinner ready. The boys will be starving by now." With that he walked for the door. She called after him but he couldn't look back orthe tears in his would flow down his face if he did. He couldn't lose her but he couldn't force her to stay. He wanted her to be happy; he thought she'd been happy with him.
Kirsten didn't know whether to follow him or not. She wanted to talk about this more. She needed to reassure him that this wasn't going to affect their marriage in a bad way. That Sandy was all she needed but she didn't want to run the risk of the boys hearing any of this there was no need to have them worry too. She decided to talk to him later when they were on their own. The last and only time they had spoken about Carter since rehab had ended well, back in their bed, Kirsten was hoping this conversation would end in similar fashion.
During the evening Sandy had done his best to avoid being alone with his wife. After dinner he had gone to his office only leaving for bathroom breaks and to get coffee. Eventually though he had to go to bed he was just too tired to concentrate on work anymore and he wasn't sure how much concentrating on work he was doing anyway. He entered the room to find Kirsten already in bed he was hoping she would be asleep. She wasn't.
"I thought you were never going to come to bed." She said smiling at him. "You get all your work done?" he sat on the edge of the, far enough away that there could be no physical contact between them. "Yeah got most of it done was getting too tired to concentrate though." He left to getwashed and ready for bed hoping that she would be asleep when he got back, again though she wasn't. "Sandy we need to talk about this. About carter being back." She could see the pain in his eyes she never saw him like this he was usually so strong.
"This doesn't change anything. I love you. He means nothing to me. I haven't even thought about him since I went to rehab. Tomorrow is just about being polite because we were friends and it would be nice to think that we could have a civil chat about what we are up to now. When I kissed him it wasn't about him it was about what was going on in my head I'm not in that place anymore. You and I we are so much stronger now it wouldn't matter if he offered me the earth I still wouldn't leave you. Ever."
Sandy was sitting on the edge of his side of his bed, he was listening to every word she said and he believed her. He just couldn't trust Carter though. Who could blame any man for being attracted to Kirsten? He knew she was trying to reassure him and he loved her for it. "I love you Kirsten" he got into bed and slowly put his lips to hers. Hiskiss was filled with passion and emotion. He turned over and switched his light off while she was trying to get closer to him. He pulled her in for a hug, letting her fall asleep on him. He knew he wouldn't sleep until he knew what Carter's intentions towards her were.