Stolen Dreams

Disclaimer: Since I hate writing these things this one will last the entirety of this fanfic. I don't own anything of or pertaining to the television show, The O.C.

Chapter 1: Lost

Marissa sat on her bed crying. Her mother has pushed yet another guy out of her life. Although Marissa was just using DJ, she stilled cared for him. He was the first guy she even talked to since her break up from Ryan.

Marissa was in love with Ryan and she still is. He will always be her first love, maybe even the love of her life. With his help she felt like a better person. She felt like she could stop the drinking and stealing. She could actually try to get along with her mother. She felt like she could do anything because he believed in her.

"Marissa! Summer's on the phone!" She could hear her mother scream up the stairs. She hated it when her mother tried to be nice. She knew the real version of her mother. Her mother was a cold-hearted bitch without a soul. There was a reason nobody liked Julie Cooper. Why should Marissa have to like her just because she family?

'I got it," Marissa yelled back down to her mother as she rolled over and picked up her pink cordless phone. Summer was the one person who was always there to understand her. They were more then friends. They were soul mates, but that doesn't mean they want to be romantically involved. They just got one another perfectly.

"Hey Coop!"

"Hey Summer!"'

"I was wondering if you think I should wear my little black dress or my new sundress."

"Where are you going?"

"To meet Zack's family."

"I thought you already did."

"Not his dad. Now that his dad is back in town, he wants me to meet him."

"Wear the sundress with your white shawl. That should look great."

"What's wrong? You sound a little sad Coop."

"I just…. I miss Ryan a lot. I loved him, I still do. When I see him with Lindsay, It's hard to handle that he's moved on."

"Tell me about it… Can you believe Cohen?!"

"I love him! I really do."

"Seth?"

"No Summer…Ryan."

"Oh."

"I wish I could just talk to him. I know that he has to have some type of feelings for me."

"Good luck! He's always with that Lindsay girl."

"I know. I have to go over there."

"You can't just go over there. You have to make him come to you, Coop."

"I have to talk to him. I can't wait for him to come to me."

"Fine, but don't say I didn't warn you."

"What could possibly go wrong?"

"You could walk in on Ryan in the bed with Lindsay. I can't believe Cohen had sex before I did. I have to have sex with someone."

"Aren't you supposed to be waiting for the right time?"

"And tonight is the night."

"You're meeting his family."

"Then we can come back to my place. I gotta go Coop. I have to make everything perfect! Bye!"

Marissa rolled her eyes as she hung up the phone. Summer had no idea what she was doing. She was about to make a big mistake. Marissa should know. The two relationships she had sex in ended terribly. Sex is meant to be with the right guy. Now, Marissa wished that she waited until she got married to have sex.

She crawled out of bed and walked to her closet. If she was going to talk to Ryan, she will have to dress to impress. She just wanted to kiss him again. They had such passion and chemistry every time they got together. She couldn't imagine him or herself being with anyone else. They belonged together. She knew they did. She just had to see where he stood on the issue.

She grabbed her practically see through white dress. It was loose and form fitting all in one. Everyone she knew said it looked great on her, especially Ryan. It was his favorite of all her dresses. It left just enough to the imagination to keep them wanting more without showing to much. She picked up what she called her porn star matching shoes and strapped them around her ankles. She called them that because no one else wears clears platform high heals.

She smiled as she sprayed Ryan's favorite perfume on herself. He loved it when a woman would wear glow the J.lo perfume. There was something about the scent that sent chills to every inch of his body. She was sure she could win him back like this. After all, Theresa won him back by being a slut.

She grabbed her white purse and snuck out the back door. She was in no mood for a heart to heart with her mother. In fact, she wouldn't be upset if her mother would just jump off a cliff and die. She hated her mother for everything she has ever done to her. What type of mother never supports her daughter's positions on life, Julie Cooper?

Marissa smiled when the only car that was in the Cohen driveway was Ryan's. That meant he was either alone or Seth was home. Either way she didn't really want to run into kirstan dressed as she was. She just wanted to see Ryan. If he was home alone, he would probably be expecting Lindsay. Well it was just a chance she had to take. She contemplated walking back to her house as she knocked on the door.

"Marissa? What do you want?"

"I… Ummm… I need to talk to you."

"I thought we were never friends."

"I thought we were trying to be."

"Well, I kind of had other plans."

"I wouldn't ask if it wasn't an emergency."

"It's not like you plan on killing yourself."

Marissa just looked at him. She couldn't speak. The truth was she was planning on killing herself, or she at least though about it. She had nothing left in life it seemed. Even her best friend seemed distant. The truth was the only person that could save her from destroying her own life more was Ryan. She needed him more then she need oxygen to breathe.

"Marissa?" Ryan asked as he pulled her into the family living room and sat her down on the couch. He had seen her to her fare share of stupid things. He just never thought things would get this far. He knew he couldn't cancel on Lindsay but Marissa needed him. He just looked at her confused, trying to figure out what the right thing to do was.

"I'm sorry. It was stupid of me for coming over. You know what I'll let myself out. Hey, tell Lindsay I say hi. I'll be fine, really."

"You're not going anywhere. Go in the pool house and wait for me there. Lindsay should be here any second. I'm going to try and get rid of her for now. Just don't do anything stupid," Ryan said carefully grabbing her arm. He wasn't going to let her kill herself. He would be the one left with all the guilt. He let go of her arm and watched her slip into the kitchen just as the doorbell rang again.

Sighing Ryan answered the door. He had no idea want he was going to tell Lindsay. As he opened the door for the second time he said, "Hey. I have some bad news."

"Why do I not like the sound of that?"

"I'm sorry but I can't see you right now."

"Why is that?" Lindsay asked starting to get suspicious. Ryan was fumbling with his shirt. She could tell he was nervous. He was trying to hide something from her. It could be another girl or who know what. She just rolled her eyes and walked away. She knew who was inside. It was Marissa. She knew the first day Ryan came up to her that he was still in love with her. She just got in her car and drove off. She didn't need a broken heart, but that is what she was just served for lunch.

Ryan cursed as he walked to the pool house in the back yard. Now he was pissed off at both him self and Marissa. Why did she always find a way to fuck his life up? She always was messing with something. Why didn't he try and stop Lindsay from leaving? Why didn't he tell her the truth? Why didn't he say that he didn't love Marissa, he was just scared for her? The truth was he still had feelings for Marissa, but he also had feelings for Lindsay.

"I told you I would have left."

"I didn't want you to."

"At the same time, you did want me to leave. I wasn't trying to break you two apart. I just had no one else to turn to."

"Well, whose fault is that?"

"Mine I guess. Look Ryan I love you! I always will, but part of love is wanting that person to be happy. Obviously she makes you happy and I don't"

"I never said that."

"You love her?"

"I might."

"Then go to her. Go apologize. I promise I'll be fine. I'll go home and leave you alone."

"Marissa…"

"I just ask for one thing."

"Anything."

Marissa walked over to Ryan who was still standing in the door way and grabbed him. She pulled him closer, so they were body to body. They could each other's heartbeats they were so close. She smiled and put her lips right up to his and said, "I just want one final kiss. If the chemistry is all gone, I will leave you alone and never bother you again. How does that sound."

Ryan didn't nod or anything. She didn't even know if he was going to answer her. The only he knew is that he wanted her. He was ready to fill her up with his love. He knew she was playing her little games on him, but he couldn't resist. He even thought about Lindsay and how much he cared, but Marissa looked better then he had ever seen her before. He picked her up in his arms and threw her back onto his back. He crawled on top of her and moved in for the kill.

"I can't do this. I have to get out of here. There is nothing between us. You have to learn to deal with that," Ryan said as he bolted out the door. He didn't know if he did love Lindsay, but he wasn't going to lose her just so he could have a good time. He had to find her and tell her what happened. He had to tell her the truth.

AN: This is my first OC fanfic so I open to suggestions on how to improve it. I am open to what you truly think about it. I can handle the truth.