Kane slowly walked towards his locker room. His body was tired and weak from the strain of the match he'd just won. The Big Show and Vicera were his punishment for choke slamming Vince McMahon's wife, Linda . He was one hundred percent sure that he'd have another match that was made for him to work extra hard to win next week. He took it with stride though, never complaining of what he should and shouldn't be owed anymore. Mostly because he figure it out in the end. The McMahon's hated him just as much as he'd hated them. Vince made sure to complicate his life even before his unmasking. He was never the first choice and there was always a catch to everything that he was offered. Everyone thought he was mentally incompetent in those days. He highly doubted that it changed much since then. Without the mask, he felt naked -- everyone could see inside his soul. They could see his dislike for himself, and the envy he held in his heart at the things they had that he could never imagine having.
Kane was reminded of it every single day he lived. He was a seven foot, antisocial freak; never relishing in anyone's company. So why was he feeling so desperately alone these past few days? He couldn't help but walk past and Terri, who were getting dressed for their match. They looked happily invested in one another. 'That's something I'll never have even if I begged for it.' Kane thought to himself as he watched Debra give Steven Austin a kiss on the cheek, laughing he said a joke in response. Kane pulled the black towel lower to cover his face when they noticed him looking towards them. 'What would someone like me do with love?' Kane chuckled a bit before dismissing the subject. He was nearly to his locker room when he stopped dead in his track.
The redhead that he'd taken an interest in was walking towards him, most likely just passing by to get to wherever it was that she was going to. Kane never really understand his sudden interest in Lita. He figured it was just a passing fascination like he'd had with Tori. 'No this feels different. There's something about her I just can't get her out my mind.' It was as if the entire world began to go in slow motion. He watched as she pulled her hair behind her ear, looking down at some papers in her hands. She had on makeup like she always did before a match. He thought she looked just as good without it though. Her attire was what always did it for him though. She was wearing a black and red plaid skirt with a chain going through the loops until it eventually hung down. Her top was solid black with fishnets going down her stomach stopping just before her belly button and revealing a belly button piercing. The thing that usually made his mind lose it was the matching thongs that she wore along with almost every outfit. She was always trying to stand out from the other women, and she definitely got him to notice if no one else had. Kane could feel his heart flutter when she looked up at him and gave him a smile. She was being so innocent and had no way of knowing what she did to him when she did that. Then she was gone just like that. He didn't dare look back, knowing that he was looking at something that he just couldn't have. He paused at his door, turning his head to take a peek anyhow. His gulped hard when he saw the red thong coming out just enough from her skirt. He suddenly felt dizzy, like he'd just ran out of air to ventilate his lungs. He could pass out then and there by her simply looking in his eyes. Kane quickly scurried inside, closing the door and locking it before taking a seat and breathing.
'What the hell is wrong with me? Every time I see Lita I nearly have a damn panic attack. I'm such a fucking creep.' Kane stated to himself. He slapped his face to calm himself down, feeling his heart still beating like crazy. He didn't really understand the feeling he got when he was close to her. He'd never had the problem before when he was around a woman. Probably because he'd never been attracted to them before, it was always a professional obligation when he had to be around a woman - except Terrie but they were friends (at least they used to be), and the time when he choke-slammed Linda McMahon. Kane smiled a bit at the thought of it. He was tired of being controlled. He wanted to be able to control something in his life and suddenly he saw her in his way. He did what he did before he could think about it, but for some reason he didn't regret it. He only wished it was McMahon that he'd done it to instead. Kane headed in the shower after he felt like he was calmed down enough. He tried not to see her when he close his eyes, but it never worked. He had an overactive imagination, and he hated it right now since he was picturing her naked with the smile she'd flashed him before she was sucked his penis. He hadn't become so aroused before just by someone just existing. It was the exact reason that Tori had gone around telling everyone that he was broken down there. She'd embarrassed him, but he didn't think that his connection with her was sexual. He hadn't been sexually attracted to her at all. At that time in his life, he just wanted to be normal. He remembered the way Tori acted after he'd taken off his clothes like she asked him to, how upset she'd gotten about it. At the time, he didn't understand what she wanted from him. He didn't feel that way about her, and maybe that was what pissed her off the most. She wanted to be the first one to seduce the freak and call him a pervert and whatever else it was, but he couldn't force himself to get hard. Kane could feel the embarrassment coming back to him, even after the years that passed. He'd never gotten close to another woman before like that. He still felt like he was a virgin at his adult age. He wanted to feel that connection with someone desperately. He blushed at that. Kane looked down at his aroused member, not understanding why it worked now but it didn't back then when he needed it to. He turned on the hit watch, and took hold on his swollen member. It use to be so embarrassing when Paul walked in on him doing this. He would beat the hell out of him. Call him disgusting, unholy, and a degenerate monster. He stroked himself harder, wishing she was the down in front of him awaiting his seed to spill into her sexy mouth. Kane groaned, clawing at the shower wall as he felt himself getting closer. His toes were beginning to curl now. He slammed his fists into the wall as he orgasmed hard. Some of his seed shot into the wall and the rest mixed into the water and went down the drain. "Fuck Lita. I wish I could be inside you."
Kane got dressed and heading out of the building. He was surprised to see Lita standing there all by herself when he exited. Kane was always the last one to leave the arena. He hated the roaming eyes that followed him everywhere he went--now even more than before. Kane was about to leave her there, but watched her put her cell phone up to the sky as if she didn't have any signal. He decided it would probably not be a good thing to leave her all alone in the middle of the night. Kane gulped hard, heading towards Lita slowly. He was excited but extremely nervous. How would he approach her? She was just standing there unaware of his presence. Was he really that quiet? He was nearly seven feet and scared everyone, even when he wasn't trying to.
"Do you need a ride?" He finally asked. He noticed her jump from his deep, rugged voice suddenly interrupting the silence of the night.
"Umm, I don't know." She replied, obviously nervous by his presence. Kane was somewhat saddened to have noticed this. Perhaps he was foolish to think about her in the ways he had, but who wouldn't? She was amazing in the ring and outside of it. He remembered the many editions of playboy he'd jacked off to with her in it.
"Okay." He stated before beginning to walk away, his chain in his jeans jingling from the silence.
"Wait!" Lita called behind him. "I guess I'm kinda being irrational." She was
"Huh?" Kane said, looking over his shoulder at her, confused, surprised.
"It's just that ... I'm a bit hesitant -" She was biting her lip. Kane found that very sexy. He knew he was being a pervert, so he focused on her eyes before he found himself going further down her body despite himself.
"Because of who I am?" Kane replied. He grinned a bit at her expression, knowing that he was right. "I don't hurt women on purpose." Kane stated, kicking himself for saying that. He always knew how to make things awkward.
"Really?" Lita lifted an eyebrow at that, reminded of him choke slamming Linda only a few week prior.
"I was only offering. We're going to the same place and I just thought that maybe you're want to go there sooner than later." He shrugged. "Your choice." He watched her take a moment to think before grabbing her bags off the ground and following him. Kane silently smiled, his heartbeat quickening. What was this fluttering in his chest?
Once they were inside Kane's truck, Lita seemed relaxed and somewhat tired. He couldn't stop glancing at her occasionally as he drove. She was so gorgeous to him. He wouldn't be able to stop himself from stealing glances even if he wanted to. This was practically the closest she'd been to him on her own accord. Lita seemed to notice.
"What? Do I have something on my face?" She asked, pulling the mirror down to look at her reflection. Kane grinned before shaking his head no and feeling flustered by her making direct eye contact with him for those few seconds. He didn't know what to say to her so he stayed silent. That fluttering came back suddenly. It was Lita who actually began speaking. "I guess you're not so bad afterall."
"I am." Kane replied, kicking himself once again for saying the wrong thing. He was just used to not talking to people. This was out of character for him. He was usually alone. He heard her began to laugh before she spoke again.
"What is that, a defense mechanism?" She asked. He didn't know how to respond. "You don't talk to people much is see. That must be lonely." Kane snapped his head toward her, gulping before he licked his lips and answered. It was like she could see through him.
"I guess." He shrugged. "I'm just this way."
"Well, just so you know, you can be lonely even when you have someone there." Lita looked at her fingers and fumbled with them.
"I don't understand." Kane replied.
"Never mind." Lita gave him a forced smile that made him a bit upset for some reason. He had not right to pry into her personal life, but he couldn't stop himself for asking.
"I want to understand." He said. Lita smiled at his response.
"It's not anything that I should be telling anyone."
"Who will I tell?" Kane asked rhetorically. She knew that he was right.
"I just, I think that Matt and I are growing apart. We don't talk to each other and he's always angry or something. That was the whole reason I didn't have a ride to the hotel actually. I just feel like he doesn't care about me anymore." She replied honestly, feeling good to have someone listen to her.
"Oh." Kane bit his lip. "Well, I've never been in a relationship, but if I felt that way I guess I'd just be alone." Lita snapped her head to look at him.
"You've never been in a relationship, Kane." Lita could see his face redden for her question. "Well you're not missing anything." She replied. "Love is painful. Not for the weakest of hearts." She joked.
"Actually I umm -" Kane could feel his mouth not want to fix to say the words.
"What is it? You can tell me." Lita said. Maybe their conversation had gone too far, but she'd encouraged him to continue. Even though it was something he knew nothing about.
"I umm- I - I am interested in you, Lita." Kane could feel his heart thud excessively hard now. 'What the hell did I just say? Oh fuck! No, no, no.' He regretted it already. He shouldn't have said that. He noticed how silent she'd suddenly gotten. He balled his fists, hating himself even more.
"I think you're pretty interesting too, Kane." Lita replied. Kane was surprised to hear that.
"Huh? I'm interesting to you?" He stopped on breaks a little after hearing it. His heart pounding, and he didn't want to ride to end yet. The cars behind them were honking their horns form the sudden slowing of the vehicle.
"Yeah. I always found you interesting even before you lost the mask. I guess you're just really intimidating in a way."
"Yeah. Sorry." He started back driving, embarrassed.
"Why did you were it?" She suddenly asked.
"I-- I didn't like myself. It's complicated." He never had someone asked him about his mask before. It was always an understood thing to never bring up he assumed.
"You know what. Here's my number." Lita wrote it down on a piece of paper and placed it in his hands. "That's my cell phone number. I don't give it out to everyone. But maybe we can keep talking and get to know each other. It will have to be our secret though."
"Okay." Kane nodded in agreement.
They made it to the hotel a few moments later. Kane let her go in before him so no one would think anything was going on with them. She probably had enough problems and didn't need any rumors going around. Honestly, Kane was just sitting there looking at the phone number she given him. He read it over and over again, memorizing it.
Now all he needed was a phone.