A/N- can anyone say 'bonus chapter'? Well, I certainly can! For those who want a proper happy ending… (Note- this chapter has one… how to say… it isn't exactly like my life. Unfortunately, my boyfriend and I broke up so we're not together anymore. But it's okay. Enjoy this chapter, please.)

A note: I started this bonus chapter as a kind of 'rounding off/here's my life now' chapter, but then I decided not to… I then picked it up again when I received this review-

The following review has been submitted to: Anorexia

Chapter: 9

From: ( )

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I HATE FUCKING OCS!

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Well, excuuuuuuuuse me! If this person had bothered to read the notes to the chapter before the epilogue, they would have seen I had written in the second note that 'Yuri' resembled my best friend 'Rachael' as well as being an OC… but why? Why do you have to write in capital letters that you hate OCs? And why the swearing? And why here? Here in a story that is basically half of my autobiography? Jesus, I actually feel hurt… no I'm not going to stoop to that level and start swearing. I usually would, but not here- not here. And plus: hello! I'm the Queen of OCs. Of course I write about OCs! If this person is reading: If you don't like OCs, that's your choice. If you don't like my username, your choice, but tough luck sunshine; it ain't changing. If you want it to be known you don't like OCs, then put contact details (username, email?) but don't bloody do it here!

I apologise for placing that here. It's the only place I can put it. But I just it to be known that I take no bulls---, okay?

On a happier note, I would like to say thank you to all (nice) reviewers and I hope that anyone who has a problem in life overcomes it and then lives life to the full, happily.

'But somehow I'll miss it
I think I'll really miss it one day
Turn up the radio
And I'm feeling like I've never felt before
Turn down the memories of yesteryears and broken dreams
I'm free, finally free' Cruz, Christina Aguilera

"Hilary? White or black?"

"Black, one sugar, please Yuri!" Hilary called back from the living room of the flat.

Yuri appeared a few minutes later, carrying two cups of coffee, her black hair hidden in a towel-turban. She gave a mug to Hilary before slumping in an armchair.

"So, Kai gotten used to you living away yet?" Yuri asked, unravelling the towel and rubbing her hair to dry it.

Hilary smiled. "Not really… though he hides it."

Yuri smiled back. "Hah, lucky you; Bryan don't give a damn bout it."

Hilary sipped her coffee carefully. Yes, she and Yuri had moved into a flat together about two months after the party. It seemed that the Blitzkrieg boys had decided to live in Japan nearby the Granger Dojo, and since Yuri was the only girl, she had decided on a flat instead of sharing with a load of boys. The black haired Russian had persuaded Hilary to let out her house and move in with her; though it did take some persuading.

They had been living in the flat for some time; a few months maybe. They had lost track of time. Too much fun with painting and decorating…

A few more 'friends' now knew… more importantly, the girls and a few of their teammates. No one had said anything to Hilary, but Yuri had said that she had overheard a few of them nattering; she then proceeded to ask if the Japanese girl wanted them… silenced… Hilary, of course, declined.

"Hey, Hilary?"

"Hm?"

"You zoned out on me."

"Oh… sorry."

Yuri frowned and stopped drying her hair, letting the towel drop to her side, her damp, black hair messy. "Whatcha thinking about?"

"Who ever said I was thinking about something?"

"The fact that no one zones out and thinks about nothing. And also the fact that no one can't think." Yuri's frown softened. "You can tell me, Hil. I told you I keep secrets, didn't I?"

Hilary smiled absentmindedly. "Yes, you have… I'm just… reflecting…"

"Hm? Any key moments?" Yuri smirked and waggled her eyebrows. "Kaiiiiii…"

Hilary laughed. "Kinda… don't be a pervert, Yuri… s'just… I'm trying to get back into the regime of being around loads of people again… and acting normal…"

"Hil, don't go normal on me; I'd have no one sane to talk to. Everyone's either normal or abnormal."

Hilary frowned in confusion, her dilemma forgotten for the time being. "Then what am I?"

"Special, Hil. Very special."

"And what are you?"

"Well… I have a 'special job' but I'm not special."

"What's this 'special job' then?"

"Just think of me as a female grim reaper."

"Ooooookay." Hilary laughed. "But I'm not special, Yuri. I'm not normal either… I'm abnormal."

"Hilary, don't make me drag you over to Kai's." Yuri said in a monotone voice.

"Why Kai?"

"He can knock some sense into you. I preferably wouldn't want to do it." Yuri stated. "But Hil." She leant over and clasped Hilary's hand. "No one in the world is abnormal, even if people jokes about it. Yes, I'm a hypocrite, but I know deep down that everyone's equal. But to some, others mean the world; they're special; they depend on them. Now, I might not depend on you, but you are the closest friend I have."

Tears sprung to Hilary's eyes and Yuri promptly leapt over, pulling her into a hug.

"Hey, why're you crying?"

"I-I dunno…" Hilary cried. "I-I get e-emotional when p-people sa-say things like that… it-it's who I am…"

"Aw, Hilary…" She pulled back and wiped the tears away. "You don't need to cry; it's the absolute truth."

Hilary merely shrugged. "It's wh-who I am…" She repeated at a mutter.

There was a knock at the door. Yuri murmured a 'Be right back' and went to the door, wrenching it open. She was about to shout at the unlucky person, but stopped when she saw Kai and Bryan there.

"Hey." She muttered weakly, letting them through, but stopped Bryan in his tracks.

"Wha-?"

"Sh!" She said roughly, blue eyes glaring.

Kai moved over quickly to Hilary and crouched beside her. Yuri and Bryan couldn't hear exactly what they were saying but Hilary gave Kai a reassuring smile before letting him hug her.

"What happened?" Bryan whispered in Yuri's ear.

"None of your business, mister." Yuri shot back. He raised an eyebrow. "Fine, we were just talking about past stuff. That's all I'm telling you." She grabbed his hand and pulled him out of the apartment, slamming the door shut.

Hilary looked up when the door slammed, but otherwise carried on hugging Kai.

"You sure you're okay?" He asked, kissing her shoulder.

"Yeah… but could we go out? There's something I need to do."

Kai gazed upon the tree, letting Hilary guide him under the long branches. He stood at the edge, though, and watched her walk up to the huge trunk, hands darting out slowly and following long indents in the bark-

'Saz-chan and Hil-chan BFF 4eva!'

'The Monkey and Sheep forever BFF'

And there was a final one, in a different style, which Hilary guided her hands over last-

'Keep running strong, Hil-chan. Stay with your flock and don't dwell in the field of sorrow for long. Follow the Shepard until your dieing day and beyond… See you up above my angelic soul-mate- Saz-chan'

She broke down into tears and Kai rushed forward, pulling her into his frame, rubbing her shoulders in a soothing manner. While she cried, he read the messages in full.

Sighing, he pulled back. "Why don't you do as she says?"

"Because I can't!" She replied, silent tears streaming down her cheeks. "I can't let go of the past. It won't let me!"

"She doesn't want you to let go of the past." He said. "You shouldn't ever let go of the past. You should keep it in your mind to learn from your mistakes, so that your life becomes better. It's hard to not let go of the past, but it's something that must be done because without it, you carry on going in circles and go nowhere, meaning your future gets stormy." He wiped her tears. "Remember her. Remember her words. Remember her promises. But most of all, remember that you owe her your life; live it for her."

Hilary wiped the rest of her tears and nodded, slowly. She looked back at the messages, kissing her hand and laying it on the larger message.

"Can we stay a little longer? I need to be with her…"

"Hilary, if you wish to stay here, you can. But Sarah's spirit will always be in your soul with you."

Hilary smiled and they sat down on the soil together, Hilary leaning on Kai's shoulder to drift off into a dream to be with her best friend…

A/N- I hope many people learned from this fic. I didn't post it to gain sympathy. Nor did I post it to say 'I had a hard life; do what I say'. I posted it to show everyone part of my life and to help people, so that they learn from my mistakes, rather than making them themselves.

But if you ever feel in need of someone to talk to, I'm online most of the time or you can just send me an email.

'Cross the river before you abuse the alligator' Just think about it…

Demi-goddess – Queen of OCs

Dedication- To you my Saz-chan. Forever in my heart, soul and mind; you are me.