On Tuesday, I walked up to the dance coach in the gym, and I had my teeth clenched together, I was nervous.
"Coach?" I asked to get her attention
"Yes? What is it?" she asked me
"I decided to quite The Emeralds" I said
"Why are you going to quite?" she asked
"I have a lot of things to worry about, right now." I said
"Okay" the coach replied
When I got out of the gym the news spread like wild fire. I was sitting on the steps, and everyone was staring at me, and they kept asking why did I quite.
"Why did you quite you were really good" Brittni, popular, asked
"Ah, too many things to worry about, I had to do something to get my life going again." I replied
"You might've gotten a scholarship heading your way." Brittni said
"Should I go back on the team?" I asked
"Yes, you should we can't win without you" Brittni said smiling
"Okay, um I'll try to join again." I said
"Good, you should"
Brittni always was nice. She's really happy. The Emeralds is her life basically. She knows that I don't have friends, so she tries to make me feel better. This is good.
Finally the news got to Bradin but I already asked if I can have my spot back. Today was a confusing day.
"Why did you quite?" Bradin asked a little bit too late
"I couldn't make up my mind" I said
"Why are you on the team again?" he asked
"This is getting confusing, I couldn't make up my mind but Brittni helped me choose, hectic day, I'm off then I'm on that's all" I told Bradin
"So that's the huge problem around the school? What dumb asses" Bradin said with a sigh
"Ha-ha yeah your funny" I said with sarcasm
"I wasn't trying to be funny" he whispered into my ear
"No wonder I didn't laugh" I said to myself
Bradin got a ride home with Erica, I just walked, and the bus was too crowded for me. A 2 mile walk. I didn't get back 'til maybe around 4 o'clock pm. Ava kept questioning me. But oh well.
"Why didn't you take the bus?" Ava asked me
"Because the bus was too crowded" I answered
"Why didn't you call me to pick you up?" she asked
"Because I wanted to walk" I replied
"That doesn't matter; no one should walk 2 miles from school." Ava said
"Okay, I'll take the bus then" I said
"You do that"
I walked out to the beach with my laptop in my left hand. I wrote: my life changed into something better then before. It started all over again, reminds me of a newborn baby, just about to start its life…right now I'm on the California edge, typing in this laptop. I love it. When I lived with my dad I never got to go outside. Sometimes he would lock me in my room with his friend. Tears would fall down my face. But this family is strange, very strange. I guess no person's life is perfect in the way I would think it would be. I got used to all the being raped part, I guess it became my daily routine, I would wake up, go to school, see 5 muscular guys, and then get raped. But it all faded away, like a memory that was never wanted. I would never want to have this awful memory back, all the torture. All the pain.
I can't really tell anyone what used to happen to me every day for 6 years. It's hard. No one would understand, if I told them. I only need my old life with my mom in it.