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Chapter 11: Part 2: Shannon Fielding Gibbs
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"What about Ziva?" Gibbs asks
"What did you see in her to offer her the job at NCIS?" Shannon asks, "After you distrusted her for being Ari's control officer?"
"I saw a woman that had been lied to all her life", Gibbs says
"Ziva still not believing her brother killed Kate went to your trap and heard Ari confess. Then saved your life. Do you think that was easy on her? To kill her own half-brother?" Shannon asks
"Ari is and always will be a bastard", Gibbs says
"Let's have a look at what they were like as children", Shannon says changing the scene to three young kids picking fruit, "That is Ari, Ziva and Tali"
Gibbs watched as Ziva throw a fruit at Ari and it smashed on his head soon there was a fight going on with laughter. Ari didn't look evil even and Ziva looked much more carefree. Soon they were back at the train station.
"Ziva loved Ari. But she saw something in you that made her shoot her own brother even after he confessed. Do you want to know what it was?" Shannon asks
"What?" Gibbs asks
"She saw Kate's death as your losing your child. Ari killed your child. Ziva lost her sister Tali in a suicide bombing. She saw the similarities and she couldn't condone what Ari did to you. So she killed him to avenge Kate for you like she never got to avenge Tali", Shannon says
"I told everyone I killed Ari", Gibbs tells Shannon
"I know. But things have a way of getting out. Ziva came back to NCIS even after the painful remainder of killing her brother to join your team. She ended up saving Ducky's life from the rogue doctor who had attempted to kill them", Shannon says
"She is tuff", Gibbs says
"Is she really? Do you know what happened after that bomb explosion that put you in a coma?" Shannon asks
"No. Nobody would talk about it", Gibbs says
Shannon shows him what happened. Tony and McGee rushing to save his life and get him to hospital. Abby in tears trying to get into emergency to see him. Jenny coming from a dinner at the White House to be with him. Ziva putting on a brave face. But Gibbs could see the cracks the small tears that came out.
"She is thinking of you. How she lost Tali and her mother to explosions. She was afraid to lose you too", Shannon says as they watch Ziva talk Gibbs into getting some of his memories back.
They watched as Gibbs left her in tears that proved she was still mourning the loss of her half-brother and bringing it up had killed her and when he resigned she felt defeated.
"Let's watch this", Shannon says going back to a scene after Somalia.
"Your more a father to me then my own biological father", Ziva had said to him
"Ziva is your daughter in spirit. You dying will hurt her. At this moment she needs you. She is at this moment losing two people she loves. One as a father and the other as a lover. See what happens if she loses both", Shannon says showing a different future
Ziva had a knife in her hands tears streaming down her face. She put the knife on her wrist and slashed it. Then did the other. She had committed suicide.
"She would never do that!" Gibbs says angrily
"She would have lost everyone she holds dear. Her father, mother, brother, sister, Jenny, Tony and You she couldn't live with the pain. Without you down there with them there will be deaths more deaths. More murders on the streets. Without your team. Without your family. Have you even thought of Tony since you have been up here?" Shannon asks
"He will be ok", Gibbs says
"His field days are over Jethro. How do you think he will live with that if he survives? You make him executor of your Will. You gave him everything. How do you think he will handle it? Let's see 1 year after your death and Tony's rehabilitation", Shannon says as the scene changes
Tony on crutches limped up the doorway to Gibbs house. His hands shaking with the keys he couldn't put them in. Ziva was next to him holding him steady.
"This will be the first time he has been back to your house since you 'died'", Shannon explains
Tony drops the keys and McGee picks them up and unlocks the door to a dusty house. Abby was clutching McGee's arm and Ziva was helping Tony. Tony looked around his face blank. Not saying a word.
"He hasn't spoken a word since your death", Shannon says
Tony looks around then hobbles downstairs to the basement where a boat was. Tears falling from Tony's eyes he sees a picture of the team together. He smashes it into the ground then starts destroying the boat crying. McGee, Ziva and Abby race done the stairs.
"I didn't save him. I didn't save him. Why him and not me?" Tony cries leaning against the wall
"It will be ok Tony. It will be ok", Ziva says tears flowing down her face
"You all should be blaming me for his death! I didn't save him I thought I did it in time. No he died. I survived. I can't even be of use to any off you anymore. What is the point in anything?!" Tony cries
Gibbs had tears going down his face watching his team especially Tony break down.
"He was my FATHER god damit! Senior never was. Always treated me like I was a servant or a bank. Gibbs treated me like a son! Like a proper son. He stood up for me. Ziva why did he have to leave me?" Tony cries as Ziva
Ziva wipes the tears, "I am sure he fought to stay with you. All of us. But not everyone had the strength to fight death"
"HE DOES!" Tony screams, "I have seen him face death dozens of times he always comes out on top. The only reason he is not here is because he gave up because I failed him!"
Abby, McGee and Ziva were sobbing now.
"You never failed him. If he did have a choose he is the one that choose and you had nothing to do with it!" Ziva cries
"You are his son Tony. He used to go like a bear when you were hurt or injured or kidnapped or missing. He wouldn't have chosen to leave you!" McGee says kneeling down to a distraught Tony
"Tony he would even pick you over me. He wouldn't have chosen death over you", Abby cries
Gibbs tears were pouring watching his team grieve.
"This is what will happen if you die and Tony survives. Your team will dissolve if you don't live through this. But I have to tell you sometimes it isn't your choose Jethro. It IS your will to live and your bodies will but it is also gods will. If it is your time to go you will leave them anyway", Shannon says now back at the train station
"I have to fight for them!" Gibbs says suddenly fire in his eyes
"See the next few people and we will see if you live or die", Shannon says getting up, "Remember Jethro I will always love you. Find a woman to hold on too"
"What does that mean?" Gibbs asks knowing Shannon was hiding something
"It means be with the second love of your life not work but a woman. Be there for your team that has begun your family. Make a family with your second love. Live your life. Don't live in the past anymore", Shannon says
"I don't…", Gibbs says
Shannon puts a finger to his lips.
"No more grieving for me. I will allow you to grieve once a year for me but nothing else. I love you Jethro", Shannon says kissing him as she begins to fade
"I love you Shannon", Gibbs says kissing her back trying to hold on to her tight
"Goodbye my love. I hope I don't see you at Heaven's doors for a long time", Shannon says kissing him one last time before fading away with 'I love you' in the air
Gibbs had tears in his eyes. What was he meant to do? Could he go back for his team? For Tony his son?
"Why can't these chooses be easy", Gibbs says
"Because they are not meant to be", someone says
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