A/N: So this is obviously pre- HBP since she's a fifth year. I wrote this before I got the book and posted it on quizilla. But I decided to restart it and make quite a few achanges. I hope you enjoy it!
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the charcters other than Violette Regalis and and her family. The rest areJK Rowling's. The lyrics are not mine. They are "Girl Anachronism" by The Dresden Dolls.
"Let go of my wrist." I demanded sternly.
"No, not until…" the boy trailed off.
"Let go of my wrist." I said and this time it was pleading. "Please?"
Then he pulled up my left sleeve.
"I knew it. You too. It wasn't just my imagination. You're just like me. Who would have figured? You and me are so alike." The boy told me as his grip softened.
I snapped my wrist away.
"I am nothing like you, Malfoy." I spat venomously before running away. I ran up the stairs to the Gryffindor Common Room.
I sat in the common room staring intently into the blazing fire.
What is his problem? I thought angrily. Why won't he leave me alone? I'm nothing like him. I will never be like Malfoy!
After another ten minutes I ran up stairs into my dormitory and locked myself in the bathroom before ripping off my sweater. I felt disgusted.
You can tell from the scars on my arms
And the cracks in my hips
And the dents in my car
And the blisters on my lips
That I'm not the carefullest of girls.
I began to grow angry. I was sick of living like this. Sick of being like this. I wanted to be happy. Out of pure anger I pushed the glass soap holder off thsink and listened to it shatter. I began to shake. Before I broke down.
You can tell from the glass on the floor
And the strings that are breaking
And I keep on breaking more
And it looks like I am shaking
But it's just the temperature
And then again
If it were any colder I could disengage
If I were any older I could act my age
But I don't think that you'd believe me
It's
Not
The
Way
I'm
Meant
To
Be
Maybe I should back up… Let's start at the beginning of the term.
The train steamed as parents bid their children farewell. The train was almost ready to leave when I came running on to platform nine and three-quarters. I bit my lip nervously afraid I wouldn't make it. I ran on struggling not to drop my luggage and made it just as the doors closed behind me.
"Late as usual, Regalis." a familiar drawl unfortunately greeted me. I looked up to meet a pair of ice blue eyes.
"Malfoy" I smiled sarcastically. "How nice to see you. Where are your usual goons? Surely they can't be doing to well without their noble leader."
"Shouldn't you be in a compartment with your Mud-Blood loving friends?" He smirked.
"Don't you have somebody else you can be harassing?" I asked.
"Ah, but my dear, I have so much fun bugging you" He responded.
"Well, I'm afraid I have better things then stand here and chat with the likes of you." I said as I pushed past him.
As I walked away I could feel his cold blue eyes following me.
"Violette!"
Ahead of me I saw one of my best, Hermoine! She ran up to me excitedly and practically knocked me over.
"Jeez, 'Moine. Missed me much?" I asked.
"Of course." She answered as we sat in a compartment with Harry and Ron already in there.
"Hey guys." I greeted them.
"Hi Violette." Harry said.
"Hey." said Ron.
"I was afraid you had missed the train." Hermoine told me.
"I was just running late." I replied.
"Surprise, surprise." Harry teased.
"Shut up." I punched him in the arm playfully.
"Well you're almost always late." He said.
"I am not almost always late." I argued.
"I'm sorry you're right. You are always late." He retorted causing Ron and Hermoine to snicker. I just stuck my tongue at him.
The rest of the trip we talked about our summers and changed into our uniforms. Finally the train reached Hogwarts and Harry, Hermoine, Ron, and I got off the train. We saw Hagrid leading a group of frightened looking first years and I gave him a quick smile and a wave and he grinned and waved back. I approached the carriages observing the thestrals. I always have loved them even though most people found them creepy.
"School sure will be less interesting without Fred and George." I sighed.
"Yeah." Said Ron, Harry and Hermoine simultaneously.
We arrived at the castle and walked into the Great Hall. I noticed Dumbledore isn't in his usual seat.
"Hey guys!" A dreamy voice called.
"Oh, hi Luna!" I replied. "How was your summer? Did you have fun on vacation with your father?"
"Loads." she smiled.
"Did you find a Crumple-Horned Snorkack?" I asked.
"No they were hard to find. Dad says it's because they are becoming extinct." She answered.
"Well good luck next time. Bye Luna."
"Bye." She said and slowly glided away humming to herself.
Then they retreated to their own tables.
"Why do you have to encourage her?" Hermoine asked.
"I think her beliefs are beautiful and refreshing." You answered.
"You know there is no such thing as a Crumple-Horned Snorkack."
"How do you know?" I questioned her.
"Because it's kind of far fetched."
"YOU know last year everyone thought Harry's story was farfetched. And look how that turned out."
"Silence!" Professor McGonagall yelled and the Sorting began.
"Long ago…" the old Sorting Hat started. But that was all I heard because I became distracted. I could feel somebody watching you. You looked behind me. Everyone was paying attention. I looked in front of me. Everyone was watching the Sorting or talking in hushed tones. The sorting had already begun as I drifted back in.
"Adams, Lila" McGonagall called and a shy looking girl with black hair walked up to the chair. The hat was placed on top of her head and immediately it yelled "Hufflepuff!"
Applause filled the hall especially from the Hufflepuff table.
Finally the sorting ended and Dumbledore walked in. He had never missed the Sorting before.
He stood in front of the hall and the whole room was silent.
"To all our new students welcome to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry! To our returning students welcome back! I hope you all have had an enjoyable holiday. I like to let you all know that all Educational Decrees made last year by Professor Umbridge have been repealed."
At this Harry, Hermoine, Ron, and I all smiled at each other.
"The forest is off limits to all students. Mister Filch has banned a number of items and a list had posted next to his office. I am sure you are starving by now. So enjoy!" Dumbledore finished and food appeared in front of them.
Ron stuffed his face.
"Jeez, Ron." Hermoine looked disgusted. "You'd think you had never seen before."
Harry and I couldn't help but smile at this.
"Well, Oim hungy." He responded with his mouthful
Hermoine sighed and gave up.
"Harry, now that Umbridge is gone do you think you can play Quidditch again?" I asked.
"I hope so." Harry replied. "Especially considering I'm captain."
"Oh yeah." I smiled sheepishly.
"This year is going to be great. If only Snape would stop teaching." Harry said and I all laughed. But when Ron laughed crumbs flew out of his mouth. All of us kept laughing except for Hermoine, who looked disgusted. After the feast the four of us made our way to the Gryffindor Common Room. They gave the password, "hinkeypunk", to the Fat Lady and went to their own dormitories. This year I were sharing one with Hermoine, Lavender Brown, and Parvati Patil.
Once I finished unpacking I went to Harry to borrow his Marauder's Map so I could go have a cigarette. Reluctantly he gave it to me. Not too happy that I were still smoking.
I left the Common Room and waited until I was out of the Fat Lady's sight before pulling out the map and tapping it with my wand saying, "I solemnly swear I am up to no good."
The coast was clear all the teachers were gathered in one spot and Filch was up in the Owlery. Ms. Norris was prowling near the Room of
Requirement. So that room was out so I decided to go to my favorite secret passage that led in to Honey Dukes in Hogsmeade. I crawled into the passage and lit my cigarette. It was then I realized I weren't alone. I caught sight of another burning cherry.
"Who's there?" I ask pulling out my wand.
"Lumos." A familiar drawl chanted.