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For a while, I was sure the darkness would also take me over, poison my thoughts and my mind. But it didn't, something stopped it's invasion…
It was weeks after the other Titans moved on that I was finally able to see the lighter side of things. I had become reclusive, only venturing out of my room when I had to. The team was suffering for it too; our fighting became sloppier, and we grew farther apart. Then one day, I realized that you wouldn't want me to mope around forever. I had a duty to the city, to you; I was to keep the Titans together, so we could forever protect the city we loved. And I worked hard to save the Team from the doom that was near. More training sessions were enforced, we began to spend more time together, and I made sure that we were all in our best health-emotional and physical-at all times. History was not about to repeat itself.
So I had managed to keep the Team from falling into a dark, deep hole, but had I saved myself? While life seemed better, while it seemed like I was moving on, I couldn't forget you. I was afraid that if I forgot one memory, the whole memory of you would shatter, and you would be gone completely. That's all that remained of you, all that kept me fighting--memories. They replayed themselves in my mind, over and over, without stopping. Flashing, preventing me from thinking of anything but you. I was unable to escape the haunting visions of you, and they tormented me--pushed me to the edge. The fear I had of forgetting you was tremendous…
In the end, it was Star who taught me that you wouldn't have wanted me to let your suicide control my life. She was the one who showed me the way; the one who saved me from the water. She took my hand, and prevented me from drowning, drowning in my self pity and guilt.
I don't know when the feelings of love and passion died down for you, but they seemed to intensify around Star. I fell in love with her alien beauty, her optimistic personality, her naive ness. She was so full of life and happiness, bursting at the seams with warmth and joy. The day I asked her out was one of the best in my life, and I will never forget it. It was a warm, spring day, several months after your suicide, and the wounds left behind had begun to heal. She was sitting on the roof, at her favorite spot, watching the sun set. Her hair shone in the sunlight; her tan skin was aglow. Never before had I seen her so beautiful, so amazing. The scene was breath taking, and as I walked towards her, I forgot about the unhappiness that I had been feeling just a few moments ago. She made the pain stop; she was the one who kept me from going down. Taking her into my arms, I kissed her rosy lips gently, and it was as if the world stopped spinning. Everything seemed to stop in it's tracks, and I think my heart skipped a few beats. From that day on, we've been inseparable, and the love that I feel for her will never die…
I never thought the burning passion I had once felt for you could grow cold, but it did. And I'm sorry if this hurts you, Raven, but I moved on. I think if you were here, this was the way you'd want it. Starfire makes me happy, she completes me. I love her, and she loves me. Never will I forget what you meant to me, the things you did for me, how much I loved you. Never will I forget you…not even when I turn old and wrinkle. You were the first love I ever had, and true love is never forgotten. Always in my memories you will live, and always in my heart you shall remain…
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