A/N: Ok, I'm really sorry for the long wait, but I have the next chapter written up, so hopefully the wait won't be as long. I have a cliffhanger for you all at the end of this one, just don't hate me! Most importantly, please R&R!

Disclaimer: I don't own the show.

Chapter 4: Stupid Girl

Zoe showed up at the studio early the next morning. Jude was sitting in one of the studios humming to herself and writing down a few different things that had been floating around her head onto her notebook. She was so wrapped up in it that she didn't notice when Zoe snuck up on her. "Hey. Working on some new stuff?" Jude jumped a little and turned around.

"Oh. There you are. I'm glad you could make it and, yes, I was." It was then that Zoe noticed Jude's eyes. They were red and puffy, like she had been crying.

"Hey, uh, are you ok? Your eyes are looking a little red." Jude turned around and looked into the glass that separated them from the sound booth, and discovered she was right. Her eyes were very red; she had woken up a second time that night to a nightmare about the accident, and she had felt so much pain from remembering what she had tried to block out that she had cried herself back to sleep. It had been one of the times she had been thankful Tommy was a heavy sleeper. She nodded.

"I'm fine. Just… a little out of it I guess." Zoe guessed there was more but decided not to get further into it. Jude forced a smile. "Ok, let's get to work. I managed to get Tommy to listen to your music last night." She paused, waiting for a response. Zoe's eyes lit up.

"For real? What'd he say?" Jude laughed.

"He liked it; he's putting you in one of his shows on a trial basis, although I can tell he's going to sign you." With each word Jude said, Zoe became more and more interested.

"How can you tell?" Jude smiled.

"I know him. He only gets that way about music he really likes." And girls he really likes, she thought, remembering the way he used to stare at her. She sighed. "Ok, we have a lot of work to do before the actual show, so we need to get started. Got anything new?" Zoe nodded and handed her a notebook full of lyrics.

"Here." Jude smiled. This girl was just like her when she was that age. She read over the lyrics and nodded approvingly.

"These are good. I'll go get Kwest and we can start work on it." Jude walked out of the room, leaving Zoe to sit and wait for her. She spotted Jude's notebook lying on the sound board nearby. Curiosity getting the best of her, she picked it up and read over the lyrics, shocked at what she saw. The lyrics she had written were all of pain and loss, something she had never expected from looking at Jude and Tommy's seemingly perfect marriage. Perfect, except for Jude's miscarriage. Remembering reading about that a while ago, it hit her like a ton of bricks. She knew that a lot of couples that lose a child end up splitting, and now it was their turn. Their marriage was currently heading in a downward spiral, and there was almost nothing anyone could do to prevent it. Meanwhile, Jude was walking through the halls of G-Major, trying to find Kwest so they could work on the songs for the show. She was about halfway down one of the hallways when she stopped abruptly, having heard 2 voices coming from one of the rooms, voices she recognized as Tommy and Kwest. She heard one of them say her name and couldn't resist moving closer to the door and putting her ear up to it, trying to hear more.

"Look, man, don't pretend nothing's wrong," she heard Kwest say. "For the past few years you've been getting worse and worse, and I'm not the only one who's noticed. Everyone has, Tom."

"What do you mean?" Tommy asked defensively. Jude heard a loud sigh.

"Man, ever since Jude lost her baby you've been like this. It's been 3 years and you're still not over it."

"It was hard, man. I mean, I was gonna be a dad. Worst of all it was my fault, man. Do you know what that feels like? Having to live every day with the fact that you did something like this, that you killed something that never even got a chance to live? It's just…hard. Knowing she probably blames me for all this. It—it hurts." Soon after hearing this, Jude backed away from the door, new tears forming in her eyes. She had no idea he felt that way, or why. She knew he felt bad, but she didn't think he blamed himself. She felt herself losing balance and leaned herself against a wall to keep from collapsing. She looked at the door he had hid behind and he knees gave out, causing her to sink down onto the floor, she face in her knees, sobbing. She knew what she had to do. It wasn't gonna be easy, but it had to be done, if she ever wanted him to be happy again. Coming home that night, Jude walked in and went straight to her bedroom, not bothering to say a word. Not that there was anyone to talk to. She knew that was where he would be. She opened the door and saw him sitting on the bed, wide awake, just staring into space. She went over to the bed and sat next to him, and he looked at her. "Hey, girl," He said, trying to hide the sadness in his eyes. She looked down. Here we go, she thought again.

"Hey Tommy. I, uh, we, really need to talk." He moved closer to her, eyebrows raised, and wrapped an arm around her. She absorbed his warmth for what she was sure was the last time.

"Ok, what about?" Jude took a deep breath, already looking nervous.

"Tommy, uh, I…I…I can't do this." Tears began to make their way down her cheek. Panicking, Tommy gave her a light squeeze and stroked the side of her cheek.

"Shhh. Shhh. It's ok. What's wrong?" Jude wiped the tears from her eyes.

"Tommy, I-I want… a divorce."

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